(last flashback chapter for a while- i think)

flashback

ALICE.

The following day, Billy and I stayed in bed together and enjoyed each other's company. It was like we were actually a couple, but we both knew we couldn't be that way- at least not yet. We made love to one another in between the sheets, against the wall, in the bathroom, on the floor- Hell, we had a lot of sex- but it was beautiful. It was pure, passionate sex that conveyed what we had never felt before. At least, I hadn't felt it in a while- years to be exact.

The two of us laid in bed together after our very long and lustful workout, gazing into each other's eyes.

"Billy?" I mumbled, gently running my hand up and down his side. "How are we gonna do this?"

Billy sent me a lazy smile before rolling over to grab his phone. He grabbed his phone off of the nightstand and laid on his back beside me.

"Is there any where specific you would like to go?" He asked nonchalantly.

I giggled as I placed my head on his chest, gazing up at his phone.

"Anywhere with you is perfect," I mumbled as I placed a soft kiss on his neck.

He smiled as he began looking up flights. "I know someone in Atlanta who could help us hide out for a while," he murmured. "Is Atlanta alright with you?" He asked, turning his head to meet my eyes.

"Yes," I mumbled as I fixed my gaze on his phone once again.

He smiled as he began searching for flights to Atlanta.

"It's only gonna have to be you for a little while," he murmured. "And the flight is gonna have to be at a time when you can slip away without being noticed."

"I know," I whispered. "When will you join me?"

"I could come out there a week after you," he murmured. "I could say I'm going to see my dad."

I giggled and bit his chest gently before gazing up at his phone again.

"This flight is for 4 a.m. two days from now," he murmured. "Is that fine?"

I hummed in approval against his chest.

"Alice, you realize that Austin will be looking for you, right?" He asked while turning his head to face me.

I bit my lip and nodded.

"Once you get to the airport, you need to take the SIM card out of your phone," he insisted. "That way if you need me before your flight takes off, I can handle it. And if you take the SIM card out of your phone at the airport, there's no way of him know-"

"Shh," I hushed him as I covered his mouth with my hand.

He placed a kiss on my hand before I took it away. "There's no way of him knowing what flight you got on," he murmured.

I smiled as I placed a kiss on his lips.

"Use my mother's maiden name when you book my flight, please," I mumbled.

"Alice Hartsfield. Got it," he murmured with a soft smile.

We laid in silence for a few moments as I watched him book the flight.

"It's done," he murmured with a soft smile. He then opened his messages and began texting someone. "He's my contact in Atlanta. At least, one of them anyway," he murmured.

I watched him as he typed away at his phone, vaguely explaining our situation.

After a few minutes of silence, he spoke up. "He's not going to be in Atlanta when you arrive, but he is going to be there the day after," he murmured. "Is it ok if you stay in a hotel for the first day you're in Atlanta?"

"That's fine," I murmured.

He booked me a reservation for some high-end hotel under my mother's maiden name, and I smiled when he was done.

"You're set, Alice Hartsfield," he murmured.

I kissed him on the lips, which became very heated as I crawled on top of him. The two of us were in the middle of making out when Billy's phone began to vibrate.

"Shit," he murmured as he answered the call. "What's up?" He mouthed to me that it was Austin on the line. "Ok, man," he sighed, rubbing a hand over his face. "Yes, she's good. Everything's all good here," he murmured. "Ok. See you tomorrow," he mumbled as he hung up the phone.

"They're coming back tomorrow?" I asked.

"Yeah. Their flight lands at 11 pm," he murmured.

"Fuck," I sighed as I laid my head on his chest. I picked up his phone and checked the time, which read 3 a.m. "I was enjoying us," I whispered.

He started to play with my hair. "In time, Alice," he murmured. "In time."

**

The following day was pretty uneventful. Billy and I made the bed after having many more hours of sex in it, which even involved us fucking at one point instead of making love. It was greedy, "we're not going to have sex for two weeks" sex, and I enjoyed every second of it.

It was midnight when Austin, Matt, and Kellan walked in the door, bags in tow.

"Alice!" Austin exclaimed as he walked over to me, dropping his bag next to the couch as he placed a sloppy kiss on my cheek. He grabbed my face in his hand and inspected me, jerking my head every direction as he looked over me. "You didn't have to hit her, Billy? Damn, that's a miracle," he said, a cocky grin on his face. He then slapped me on the face, causing Matt and Kellan to chuckle from somewhere behind me. "That's just to make up for the few days you've had of freedom," he murmured darkly.

Austin then proceeded to walk around the couch and over to the kitchen counter, causing me to turn around as I watched him. Billy was leaned up against the counter smoking a cigarette, as he normally did. Matt and Kellan were leaned up against the cabinets on the far left wall of the kitchen laughing at something on Kellan's phone.

Billy and I had discussed earlier today that we had to show no signs of us ever happening. We couldn't even act like we were friends or else Austin would or could get suspicious. That's why Billy was leaned up against the counter smoking while staring into space, not even taking a glance in my direction. I didn't dare take a look at him either, which is why I was currently sitting on the couch acting shy and afraid. Hell, I wasn't even acting afraid- I just was afraid.

After about half an hour of the four men joking about things I wasn't even listening to, Austin grabbed my hand along with his bag and said his goodnights to everyone. He lead us up the stair case and towards our bedroom.

"Where are the others going to sleep?" I whispered as we stepped inside our bedroom.

"They can sleep wherever they want, Alice. Hell, I wouldn't even care if they slept on the floor," he said as he motioned towards the floor with his hand, waving it directly at the spot Billy had slept the other day.

I nodded my head as I began setting myself up under the covers, praying that he would actually want to sleep.

"Baby," he murmured as he got in bed beside me. "I haven't had you in days," he murmured as he placed a kiss on my neck. "I've missed you," he whispered in my ear, nibbling on the lobe.

I gulped as a tear ran down my cheek, resulting in him wiping away the tear.

"The lights," I sniffled, wiping my nose as I did so.

"That's right," he sighed as he stood up and switched off the light switch. It was the only thing I controlled in this house and in my life, and it was cruel. It was cruel that I needed the lights to be off while he used me in whatever way he wanted, but it helped me escape the situation and just zero myself out completely.

After an unknown amount of time of him fucking me, he curled up on his side on his side of the bed and drifted off to sleep. I was as far away from him as I could get as I laid on my side, muffling my sobs with the pillow.

After a few moments, my sobs had died down and I was just staring into the open space in front of me, thinking about how different everything would be after tomorrow, or technically after today.

Somewhere around twenty four hours from now, I'd be on a flight to Atlanta, Georgia. I'd be on my path to freedom if everything went according to plan.

Billy and I had made a plan for me to sneak out of Austin's and mine bedroom somewhere around 2:30 a.m. where he would then drive me to the closest twenty four hour bank. I could then get as much cash as I needed for my trip. He and I had even packed my carry-on bag and had stuffed it in the trunk of his car a few hours before Austin and his friends had arrived home.

I smiled and closed my eyes at the thought of my new life with Billy, which helped me drift off into a peaceful slumber a few moments later. I dreamed about many things that night, and they all involved Billy and I living happily together somewhere, wherever it may be. We were happy together, and Austin and his friends weren't a threat. It was just Billy and I living life to the fullest while doing whatever we wanted.

And it was perfect.

**

The next morning, Austin had demanded, more so than asked, me to go out and buy groceries because he claimed there was no food in this house, even though there was plenty. When I reminded him I didn't have a car, he told Billy to take me.

Austin had cupped my face as he murmured, "Since I know Billy won't hurt you, because that's what I want for my girl right now, he's taking you." He had kissed me on the lips before pushing me out the door where Billy was waiting, leaned up against his car with a cigarette in his mouth.

When I walked up to Billy, Billy murmured, "He's watching." He then pushed me into the passenger seat of his car and slammed the door as he threw the cigarette out of his mouth and stepped on it.

I watched him walk around the car and settle into the driver's seat before driving off.

"I'm sorry," he murmured as he continued to drive down the street while clutching the wheel so hard his knuckles were white.

"It's ok," I mumbled as I placed a hand gently on his thigh. "I understand."

The two of us drove in silence the rest of the way to the grocery store. I watched the scenery as I gazed out the window, and it consisted of house after house that belonged to the middle class, which I envied. Every house looked the same as we drove along, and I yearned for that. I wanted to be just like everybody else, and in a few hours I would be. I'd be on the verge of being like everyone else, at least.

Billy pulled into a parking spot and we sat in silence for a few more moments until he spoke up. "You're ready for tonight, right?" He asked, concern written across his face.

"Yes," I murmured as I cupped his cheek with my hand.

Billy cupped my face with his hands as he leaned over and kissed me. It was full of yearning and love; I felt every emotion he felt towards me through the kiss, and I hoped I was doing the same for him.

After our mini make out session, the two of us proceeded to get out of the car and walk towards the grocery store. This time, unlike these past few days, we didn't walk hand in hand. We made sure to barely touch each other as we walked in, probably because of the anxiety towards the whole situation that would be unraveling in a little over twelve hours.

Billy grabbed a shopping cart and we strolled through the aisles together. I would occasionally grab something off of a shelf and throw it in the cart, which would result in Billy reorganizing the cart's contents.

After I paid for all of the groceries, Billy and I headed back to his car.

"Shit," he sighed, realizing there was no room in his trunk for anything.

"We can just shove some of it to the side of my bag," I suggested.

"Even if we do that," he began. "What if one of them comes to help with the groceries and sees your bag?"

"Austin will not be helping with the groceries," I said. "And I didn't get too much. I can just put them on the floor by my feet," I suggested.

Billy thought for a few moments before nodding his head. He closed his trunk while I began setting the groceries in the front of his car.

Billy kissed me one last time before we drove off towards my house, and I relished in the feeling of the kiss. I placed my fingers at my lips and kept them there the entire drive home, replaying the kiss over and over in my head in case we didn't have time to kiss again later.

Some time during our drive, Billy got a text from Austin, prompting him to check his phone at a red light.

"Jesus," he murmured.

"What?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Kellan left because of a fight him and Austin got into over the Daniels' thing, and now Austin and Matt are very, very drunk," he murmured as he scrolled through the paragraph. "And very high," he mumbled.

"Fuck," I sighed as I rubbed my forehead. "That's just great," I murmured.

Billy sighed and typed something into his phone before the light turned green, causing him to set his phone down and drive.

Once he pulled into my driveway, I grabbed all of the groceries, insisting that he shouldn't help me, and made my way into the house.

The smell was everywhere. The house reeked of it.

"Alice? Alice, is that you?" I heard from the other room. Matt didn't even give me time to respond, for he appeared in the doorway to the living room immediately after he asked. "Yes, it is," Matt responded with a smirk as he leaned on the doorway. He bit his lip and looked me up and down, the stench of marijuana and alcohol reeking off of him.

"Hello to you, too, Matt," I said, setting a bag of groceries I had bought on the countertop.

"Austin's been missing you," he murmured as he walked closer to me, his arms crossed over his chest. I backed up slowly until I was pressed against the counter. "He's not the only one," he whispered in my ear as he placed his arms on either side of me. I felt him against my stomach and I began trembling.

"Matt, you're drunk and high," I whispered with a hint of fear in my voice.

"And?" He whispered as he bit my ear. I gulped as he moved a piece of my hair back with his hand. "That just makes it more fun."

"Please, stop," I said as my voice trembled. "Austin will be pissed."

"I don't care what that faggot thinks," Matt snapped. His eyes then blazed for a moment as a crazy smile took it's form, only to disappear in an instant. He became more calm as he buried his face in my neck and murmured, "I want you, Alice. I want you so fucking much." He grinded against me and I whimpered, a tear sliding down my cheek.

"Matt, stop. Please," I whispered as more tears spilled.

A quiet laugh came from the doorway to the kitchen. I craned my neck to see Austin standing there, leaning against the doorway smiling and chewing on a twizzler. He shook his head and laughed quietly.

"Austin?" I asked softly, raising an eyebrow at him. The smell of alcohol and weed radiated off of him, as well.

Billy then proceeded to walk in the front door, his eyes bugging out for a moment as he looked upon my situation.

"There he is," Austin exclaimed as he grabbed Billy by the shoulders and shook him.

"Hey, Austin," Billy murmured, plastering on a small and fake smile.

"God!" Austin exclaimed. "You need to try this shit," Austin exclaimed as he grabbed a blunt from off the counter.

He held the blunt up to Billy and lit it. Billy took a long puff before exhaling, his face contorting as he pulled remnants of weed from his mouth.

"Shit's strong," Billy gasped, coughing as he spoke.

"I know," Austin murmured. His eyes then snapped to mine. "Y'know," Austin began. "Today might just be the day I share my sweet, sweet Alice with you guys."

I gulped as I continued to remain eye contact with Austin. Matt smirked as he placed a sloppy kiss against my neck.

"What do you guys say?" Austin exclaimed as he spun around.

"You already know I'm in," Matt murmured darkly against my neck.

"Billy?" Austin asked as he spun around to face Billy. "What about you?" He raised an eyebrow at Billy.

Billy glanced at me for a moments before his eyes fixed on Austin's. "Not today, man," he murmured, taking another long inhale from the blunt.

"Well, if Billy's not up for it today, then you'll just have to wait," Austin exclaimed as he pulled Matt off of me.

"Why?" Matt asked as he adjusted himself in his pants.

"Because I want it to be a group effort," Austin said as if it was common knowledge. "It has to be a day where we all agree on fucking Alice," Austin exclaimed while waving his arms around.

"Whatever," Matt murmured as he walked away.

"Billy," Austin murmured while remaining eye contact with me. "Come here."

Billy walked up to the two of us hesitantly.

"I want you to feel this," Austin whispered as he snatched Billy's hand and placed it on my breast. I whimpered in response as Austin held Billy's hand in place. "Isn't she to die for?" Austin murmured while smirking at me, letting go of Billy's hand.

Billy was wearing an apologetic look as he kept his hand in place. His lips were parted as he inhaled slow breaths, trying to contain his frustration.

Austin grabbed the blunt out of Billy's freehand and took a hit before placing it on the counter, not caring that it was still lit.

"Since Matt is being difficult, and since you don't want to fuck her," Austin began. "You can just touch her for me," he murmured.

"Austin," Billy began. "I- I just can't," Billy murmured.

Austin shushed him by placing his hand over Billy's mouth. "This is the best way of overcoming the shit with your step dad," he whispered with a reassuring smile. "I'm serious, Billy. This is the best fucking way."

Austin then took his hand away from Billy's mouth and grabbed Billy's freehand.

"Now take this hand," he murmured before interrupting his own thought. "I know you haven't ever been with a girl, so I'm gonna make this simple," he mumbled with a smile. "You just take this hand," he murmured as he shoved Billy's hand inside of my cotton shorts. "And you finger fuck her. It's called foreplay," Austin murmured as he patted Billy on the back.

Billy was practically in tears as he remained eye contact with me, knowing nothing he could do or say would make this any better. I hoped to show him through my tear filled eyes that everything was alright, even though we both knew it wasn't. We were both being violated in this situation, even if I was the only one technically being molested, but Billy was still being forced to do something he didn't want to do. At least, not in this context.

"You just take one finger at first, Billy," Austin murmured as he glanced between Billy's face and mine. "And you just slip it inside."

Billy closed his eyes before sighing. I noticed his face change from being apologetic to emotionless, playing the part he needed to.

Billy opened his eyes and slipped a finger inside of me, and then two, causing me to gasp and squirm from the feeling.

Although it was Billy doing the act, I wasn't aroused at all. I felt Billy's fingers moving quickly in and out of me as he fingered me. The pain I felt physically and psychologically brought tears to my eyes, causing me to sob even harder as I gripped the side of the counter with both of my hands.

Billy plastered on an evil smile as he continued to finger me while staring me in the eyes as he groped my breast as well.

After a few moments of fingering me relentlessly, Austin murmured, "That's all for now, Billy."

Billy took his hand away from my breast and slowly removed his fingers from within me. Once his fingers were completely out of me, he remained eye contact as he sucked on each finger slowly, moaning at the flavor.

Austin simply smirked and patted Billy on the back before grasping my hand, pulling me away from the counter.

Austin lead the two of us over to the couch and pulled me onto his lap as he sat down. Billy followed a few steps behind and sat on the couch beside ours.

Matt walked in the room a few seconds later and Austin exclaimed, "Matt! You missed the show!"

"What show?" Matt asked as he sat one seat away from Billy.

"Billy just finger fucked Alice," he exclaimed while offering Matt a wide smile.

Matt looked between Billy and I with an alarming look. "No fucking way," Matt laughed as he patted Billy on the back, earning a smirk from Billy.

"I figured that I'd help Billy out with his step-dad issues," Austin said. He glanced at Billy. "Did it work?"

Billy smirked back. "I think it did," he murmured.

"Yes!" Austin yelled as he fist bumped the air.

"Good for you, Billy," Matt exclaimed as he patted Billy on the back once again. "I was honestly pissed for a second that you got to do shit with her before I did, but since it's for a good cause, I'll let it slide," he remarked.

"I should be a fucking therapist," Austin exclaimed. "I am basically God now."

"Indeed," Billy murmured as he smirked at Austin. He then winked at me with an evil smile upon his face.

I was honestly terrified of Billy at that point in time, even though I knew he was just putting on a facade for everyone to see. He needed to be evil like the others, like everyone thought he was, and he scared me more than Austin and Matt did right now.

After hours of the three men laughing and talking, Austin decided it was time for everyone to go to bed, meaning it was his time to fuck me.

Billy suggested that he sleep on the couch while offering Matt the guest room, to which he didn't complain.

I trailed Austin up the stairs to our bedroom, and upon arriving in the bedroom he began situating himself under the covers.

"As much as I know you want me to finish what Billy started earlier," Austin began. "The weed is making me crash, baby." He then placed a kiss on my cheek before he drifted off to sleep, which was exactly what I needed.

I checked my phone and the time read 1:30 a.m. I had another hour before Billy's and mine plan was in motion.

I played stupid games on my phone while trying to pass the time. Austin was snoring beside me thankfully, meaning there was no way in Hell he was going to wake up anytime soon.

Finally, 2:30 arrived and I moved quietly out of the room. I cautiously walked down the stairs to see Billy standing beside the couch waiting for me.

Billy held a finger up to his lips as I walked towards him. He glanced in the guest room as I reached him, which resulted in him nodding in approval.

Billy grasped my hand as he lead me out of the front door, shutting it as quietly as possible. He lead us down the driveway and unlocked his car doors.

The two of us sat in silence as he started his car, silently praying that neither Austin nor Matt would awaken. Noticing that neither of them had turned any lights on in the house or had stepped outside, Billy reversed out of the driveway and drove to the nearest twenty four hour bank.

Upon reaching the bank, he pulled into a parking spot and put his car in park while staring straight ahead.

"Alice," Billy whispered before turning to me. "I am so fucking sorry," he cried as his sobs filled the air. He clutched his hair and put his head on the wheel as he sobbed.

"Billy," I sighed as I tugged on his wrist, prompting him to look at me once again. "It's ok," I murmured. "I promise, Billy. It's ok."

"I saw the way that you were looking at me when we were all sitting in the main room," he stated. "I terrified you," he whispered.

I sniffled as I responded, "You had to."

"I didn't have to take it as far as I did," he insisted as he shook his head. "I didn't have to put my fingers in my mouth o-or look at you like the way I did. I'm so sorry," he sniffled.

"You were being what Austin expects from you, Billy," I murmured as I cupped his cheek while a tear rolled down my face. I then leaned over and pulled Billy in for the most passionate kiss. Our lips danced against one another's as we put all of our emotions towards one another into the kiss.

After a few moments, Billy pulled away. "We need to," he began as he motioned towards the bank while gasping for air.

I nodded my head in understanding as the two of us walked into the bank, still not hand in hand.

After I had gotten all the money I could fit inside of my purse, we made our way back to the car and began driving to the airport.

Twenty minutes had passed since we left the bank when Billy was pulling into the airport.

"Alice," he murmured as we stopped outside of the glass sliding doors where other cars were parked with relatives dropping off one another. He looked like he was about to say something but he stopped himself.

"You too," I murmured while giving him a look of understanding. We kissed once again, knowing that it was the last kiss we would have before he flew out to Atlanta in a week.

I pulled away from the kiss and wiped my eyes. "Goodbye, Billy Redford," I murmured as I stepped out of the car.

"Goodbye, Alice Hartsfield," he mumbled as fresh tears slid down his face. I wiped my eyes once again as I moved to the back of the car to open up the trunk.

Once I gathered my bag, I stepped around the car one last time to look at him as I made my way towards the glass doors. I offered him a small wave of my hand before I walked through the doors. He waved back before driving back to my house.

I silently prayed he would make it in the house ok without any problems as I walked towards airport security.

Jesus Christ, Billy Redford.
You better be ok.

LAST FLASHBACK CHAPTER FOR A WHILE.
so now we're all caught up on things that happened between Alice and Billy and how Alice made it safely to the airport *woot*

Also
I HATE AUSTIN
but also
I LOVE BILLY

ok ok more Seb to come in the next chapter *woot*