"oh my fucking God. CAN ANYONE DRIVE PROPERLY THESE DAYS!"  I sigh and honk once again, tho it didn't help. I look at my watch, 5 minutes until I'm due for work. I had been stuck in traffic for like 20 minutes, and It didn't help when I got stuck behind a dickhead that couldn't drive the speed limit. Like seriously, why do you have your license.

Green light.

As soon as they turn I hit the gas and slice down the road, if I keep it at this I should make it on time..barley. But luck was not on my side today...god it never is. I look through my rear view mirror and see the lights, someone signalling for me to pull over...cops, today? JUST why.

I sigh and pull onto the side, rolling down my window as I see someone making there way to me.

(BARE WITH ME I HAVE NO IDE HOW THESE CONVERSATIONS GO, I AM NOT A COP NOR HAVE I EVER BEEN PULLED OVER)

"Do you know how fast you were going?"

"Yes sir-" my breath catches. Let me get this straight, I never usually find men attractive..or good looking, but this man...he was something else. Nice dark brown air, the front styled covering his forehead. Nice pink lips, the clearest of skin, and OMG his eyes are gorgeous.

I must have been staring to long because next thing I know he's laughing.

"Are you alright miss...you seemed a little, zoned out?"

I try hiding my red face as I nod, "What was it you were saying?"

"License please"

I nod and hand it to him, I watch how his eyes trail loosely across it before he hands it back. 

"Now this is only a warning, but next time, please follow the speed limit as you will be getting a fee."

I nod once again, and put a small smile on my lips as he nods and walks back to his car, and once my windows up and he's out of sight I sigh and bury my head in my hands. Late for work...and EMBARRASSED MYSELF. God, the day can only get better right?

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Wrong.

The second I stepped through the cafe door, the manager comes stomping towards me and starts going off. Complaining about being 10 minutes late, and that there was only one other worker so orders weren't going out fast enough. I mean, sorry some people cant drive.

I head behind the counter and greet by friend with a smile, the only one I actually had..well, I think shes my friend?

"Hi Eunbae, hows your day been so far?" she asked, coming up to give me a quick hig before running back to her almost distress coffee.

"Shit." I say throwing my apron on and getting started on an order. Hana sighs, shaking her head.

"You say that everyday."

That's because its true. Everyday for me is shit, has been since I was old enough feel and witness things people should never have to go through. I watch as Hana leaves me alone, seeing as I don't respond. I do what's she does and get back to work straight away.

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After hours of taking orders and delivering them we finally get to close up, quickly cleaning off table tops and stacking chairs back up, only to take back down again in the morning, as I got opening up duty. Yay.

I bid goodbye to Hana and get back in my car, slumping down in the seat and taking a moments rest. I look at the time, 6:00 pm. I should get back home and feed asher,  daily routine....and get to bed. Yes, I should I say to myself starting the car up and backing out. The roads were awfully quiet surprisingly, maybe because it was holidays, or because it was a Friday and no ones bothered to go out. 

-

I Get inside and throw my bag down, giving Asher a quick cuddles as I get to the cats room and fill his bowel up. After I make sure he's fed I go upstairs and strip off my clothing, throwing a shirt and a pair of underwear on.

*TW, BLOOD, SH*

I hadn't eaten all day...and still didn't want to, so I skip to the more refreshing part. I look at my bedside table and grab the little knife I sat there. Staring at its shiny tip, and the slight way it curves..giving it that extra sharpness.

I roll my pants up and press the knife to my ruined skin, slicing a little, then harder as it pierced, blood already trickling out the side and dripping down my bare leg. I suck in a gasp as the pain intensifies, tears welling up in the corner of my eyes as I make yet another cut, deeper then the first. I continue this untill I go numb, and I can't feel a thing, but can still see the dark red liquid trickles down slowly. I grab the cloth from inside my draw and wipe it all off, making sure nothing else leaked out before climbing under the covers and closing my eyes. 

Eventually sleep took over and I was out like a light...

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I realized I hadn't update for a while lol, sorry about that, I was bombarded with homework straight up TT, anyways, Its not the longest but I hoped it was somewhat enjoyable, also, detailing wont be the best, I suck at that, sorry again. 

Anywayssss, who do you think the cop was? meehhe

Love you all, stay safe and healthy, and if u ever need to chat IME here :) BYEYEYE