I remembered the night when I received my very first comment on my one-shots. It was a gift, a support, a word of encouragement that brought more and more votes for my writing. That night, I laid on my bed wide-awake, savoring the feeling of happiness from receiving the first few words of support from a complete stranger that I, eventually, will get to know as Jazzy_chan. This happened almost two years ago, I thought I'd never feel the rush of small pride, the spark of excitement that kept me from falling asleep again. Oh boy, I was so wrong.

A few months later, another reader found her way to my one-shots. She voted. She commented. I replied to her comments and thanked her for her votes. We talked. We had long strings of private messages, simple texts that only pulled us closer together. She was RedWonderr. She gave me ideas, motivation and above all, ultimate support. For the longest time, I thought she was the reason the number of my stories went up. 

Then I lost her. She closed down her account without a warning, took down all her stories except for one that was about Percy Jackson. I felt stranded. I've depended on her to continuously pull myself back into the world of writing. I guess I really thought I lost a very important piece of my writer-self when she closed down her account about a year ago. 

Then I found her. One day, a new notification indicated an account following me. This account has no followers, no stories, nothing. But I knew it was her. It had the same username and I messaged that account with hope. She replied. She told me it was her, but I wasn't able to celebrate longer than a few weeks before I realized that she was no longer replying to my messages. Then I lost her again. And this time...I've never heard a word from her ever since. That was when I realized how fragile online friendships are and yes, I met her online, but yes, I've always thought of her as a friend even to this day. I still remembered...that she was in high school...that she plays volleyball...and that was how she found her way to my one-shots. Back then, she really liked the color...red.

A year passed and I continued to add to my one-shot collection. Over the summer, AuntieTrish helped me create a fanfic.net account. I posted my one-shots there. I really wasn't expecting people to comment and find the story because of how many other Haikyuu one-shots were out there. But somehow, SilentEcho15 found me, commented on how wonderful the one-shots were and gave me a second opportunity to feel that same rush of excitement when someone discovers my writing. We went through the same process of commenting, voting, replying, thanking and messaging on fanfic.net. 

We started writing with each other, editing for each other and I ended up throwing my email out to her. She was a wonderful archer and writer. Our emails might as well be essays and I've had so much fun working with her. But then she started to slip away as well. Her writing progressed slowed to a crawl and our communication weakened. It was partially my fault because I constantly pushed her to write more, fearing that I'll lose her the way I lost my previous friend. Then one day, I received an email from her, claiming she would be taking a break from writing, collaborating and it felt like a break up message. I told her I understand, that I know that she's a busy person. I've given up on maintaining online friendship simply due to my prior experiences. I expected that this would be the last time I talked to her, but when she replied, apologetic and sweet, I thought...maybe I should try to hold onto her. 

While all my connections with previous readers disintegrated, this one remained. To have someone like her around brings me definite support and even though I've discovered that we barely have anything in common other than the love for writing and animals, we're still friends. There are moments where we were strong and moments where we were weak, but we've made it through those weak moments where this friendship was just about to break off. 

Before I met you, I didn't believe in miracles. I didn't believe that friendships established online can be somewhat long lasting. SilentEcho15, you really proved me wrong. Thank you so much for your kindness, sweetness, forgiveness, patience, support and all your advices. Even though I don't use fanfic.net anymore, I never regretted making an account. Making that account meant meeting you, and you know I'd do anything to meet a miracle. I wish you a very happy birthday and that you'd receive all the love in the world because you really do deserve it. I love you~ Thank you for everything. 

"Miracles happen for those who believe in it."

~Unknown