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You do things to me

That I didn't even know could happen

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"Your so useless, just go die"

"God your so stupid!"

"Can you do anything right?!"

"Just die!"

"Die!"

"DIE!"

Jeno jolts up, panting like crazy as he was sweating, breathlessly. Jeno tries to collect myself, but then his brain flies with thoughts that have come out of nowhere. So many words, and there all the same. Jeno grabs both side of his head and shook it.

"Leave me alone! Get outta my head!" He yells desperately while closing his eyes. However, it only becomes worse, and the words were so harsh. He could feel anothers presence in his head, all around him almost. They laugh at him, look at him while yelling. His anxiety banged at his heart, tears roll down his cheeks and his breath is unsteady.

"I SAID GET OUT!" He yells.

The noises stop, and it was completely silent. All could be heard was Jeno panting, reaching for air as if he was suffocating in his sleep. He then cried, and then sobbed. Random tears of no thought came rushing down his face.

After awhile, they finally stop and he closes his eyes to stop them. He sighs in frustration, running his hands through his hair.

"Just a dream...just a dream Jeno.." Jeno told himself as he hung his head down and caught his breath. Jeno wiped his tears and got up from is bed shakily to go to the bathroom. He looked at himself in the mirror, and frowned upon the puffy face.

'Ugly, fat, dead looking, trash.' Jeno thinks to himself.

It was all there in his eyes as he reaches for his toothbrush, but as he did his hand hit a glass vase that was right by toothbrush on the counter. It fell, and shattered into many, many pieces. Jeno cursed outloud and quickly got on my knees to gather the flowers from the vase.

They were the flowers his mom told me to keep, she said they were good luck. Jeno didn't know what type of flowers they were, all he knew is that they very rare around here, and his mom always said to keep them alive. However, she's not here anymore.

Jeno sighs, and fought tears that were gonna fall. He shook his head violently, and quickly put the flowers in the sink filled with water. He then runs back to his room, and opens his closet grabbing his hoodie. Putting it on, he leaves the apartment building.

He walks down the street, running his hands through his bed head hair. He went to the first store that was the cheapest. He went in and went to the vase section to see if they had any nice vases that were cheap, he wasn't rich, nor near it. He can barely pay his rent, but at that he didn't have a good job.

Jeno grabbed a plain white vase and examined it, it was only 5 bucks, and it looked to be in good shape.

"Jeno?" A voice behind him startles him.

Jeno turns around to see Jaemin, smiling at him and gave a small wave.

"Oh, Jaemin, what are you doing here?" Stupid question Jeno thought, its a store people come here all the damn time-

"Oh, I'm getting...something..for someone.." Jaemin replies slowly, which sorta creeped Jeno out but non the less he nodded.

"What about you?" Jaemin asks.

"Oh I'm getting a vase because the last one..uh broke." Jeno replies.

"Hm." Jaemin nods and then it became awkward silence.

"Well I guess I'll see you later?" Jaemin asks. "But before you go, is there any possible chance we could- ya know- exchange numbers?.." He looks at Jeno hopefully.

Jeno smiled but was really surprised, and nodded as his voice seemed to be caught in his throat. Jeno hands over his phone and the other took it. Jaemins hand slid over Jeno's and he swore the electricity ran through his whole body. Jeno's stomach did a summersault as he handed it back and did it again.

"Ok then! I'll contact you! See ya Jeno~" Jaemin says in a cute tone.

"See ya.." Jeno says, but it came out weak and tiny.

He curses under his breath for being such an idiot.

Jaemin texted him, so now he's wondering why he isn't texting back.

Jaemin had just got the courage to text Jeno, and here he is, lying on his bed, phone beside him with the ringer up, waiting. He lays in his bed with just joggers and the blanket has been stuffed at the end of my bed. He texted Jeno a nice "Heyo! it's Jaemin!", and that was all. He was getting anxious as the other didn't reply back.

It was a good 10 minutes before his phone did a very loud 'ring' and jolted up as he saw it was from Jeno.

JamJeno🍑:Hey Jaemin! Sorry this came it late my apartment has terrible WiFi ;-;

And yes, Jaemin changed his name and put a peach by it.

Jeno

***-***-**** has been changed too "Nana🍓"

Jaemin

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It's fine~
Whatcha doin

JamJeno🍑:
talking to you.
Jkjk, trying to sleep. But instead I'm watching a marvel movie.

***:
Ohhh~~ someone's got some sass.
And I love marvel!! Iron mans my favorite :)

JamJeno🍑:
spider mans mine~
Anyway what are you doing up, it's almost midnight?

***:
I couldn't sleep either.
But ya know I could sleep better if I could see you 😉

After that he stopped messaging and Jaemin panicked for a split second.

JamJeno🍑:
sorry the best part came on,
AND JAEMIN AJAJSJJS
How dare you flirt with me.

Jaemin sighed in relief and smiled at his cuteness. He's not that shy before. Maybe he's opening up to him, and Jaemin felt giddy at the thought.

***:
Ok ok but how about pic4pic ;)

JamJeno🍑:
I feel like your asking for nudes, but..
if it makes you sleep better...then ok :D

Jaemin yelled out loud a "YES!", but quickly shut up when he realized its midnight.

***:
You first Jeno~

JamJeno🍑:
hold on :3

Jaemin waited anxiously and let out little squeals here and there, but then he never got one and 20 minutes passed. It was now 1am, and Jaemin was dozed off a little.

JamJeno🍑 is typing...

The notification sent Jaemin flying up, and staring at his phone.

JamJeno🍑:
you must be Jenos friend that he keeps talking about~ hm?~~

***:
Whose this?

JamJeno🍑:
My names renjun! I'm Jeno's friend~ you must be Jaemin!

***:
Uh..yes, where's Jeno, and I don't think I've ever heard of you.

JamJeno🍑:
WHAT
HES NEVER TALKED ABOUT ME?
THAT LITTLENAHAJSJ
Neways I knew you probably wouldn't, I'm from China.
Just visiting Jeno for now.
I'll get him when he wakes up.

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Wakes up?

JamJeno🍑:
yup!
I guess I care over when y'all were in the middle of pic4pic hm?~
We played dress up :) he fell asleep.
I'll send a pic if ya want?~~~

***:
Not if Jeno doesn't want you to

JamJeno🍑:
he doesn't have to know 🤫

***:
🥴

JamJeno🍑:
whatever
Do u what a pic of Jeno or not

***:
Ok fiNE

JamJeno🍑:
YES
OK let me take a good one 😛

JamJeno🍑:

JamJeno🍑:
well then if you would excuse me, Jeno is sleeping and I'm tired as well.
Goodnight lover boy, and take care of Jeno for me will you?
Night.

Jaemim froze, everything froze. He stared at the picture like a creep, and then zoomed in. Jeno was—

"thE CUTEST F'IN THING IVE EVER SEEN- I WANTED TO HUG HIM AND CUDDLE HIM- SHOWER HIM WITH SUPPORT AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE- JAEMIN CALM DOWN." Jaemin whispers yells, and takes deep breaths dramatically.

Jaemin collected himself, and shook his head. He then gave a smile, and threw himself on his pillow. He had feelings, there was no doubt about it.

Jaemin fell asleep looking at the picture, and imaging just having that one person in my arms.