"What have I done? What have I done? I'm a lost cause." Michael kept whispering to himself, in his bed, covering his eyes.

He got up really early and found Liz on the kitchen, he told her he was late for something he had with his mom just so he hadn't to face Luke.

"God, why am I so stupid? Why did I leave that note? I should have kept it to myself. What have I done?" Michael kept whispering. Was he going insane? It certainly felt like it.

"Michael Gordon, what are you doing in there? Time to lay the table, kid." he heard his mother call out from the living room. He just feels like he has to do everything in this house.

I can't mom, I'm sad. he wanted to yell. But he couldn't.

As soon as he got up he heard his phone buzzing on his bedside table.

"Fuck. Fuck. Fuck." he reluctantly walked to his phone and he saw Luke was calling.

"Fuck, Luke. What have you done to me?" Michael ran his hand through his hair picturing the sexy blonde with his disappointed blue eyes.

The phone stops buzzing and he recieves a voice message notification. He fears the seconds it takes for him to press the play button. Luke must hate him now.

"Michael..." michael can hear the blonde's voice trembling. oh god, he wants to cry now. 

"we've been friends for years, we've been through so many shit together, what is going on?"  I feel in love with you over the past years, dumb-pretty-ass.  Michael wants to say, he finds himself laughing at the thought.

"I've been recieving the notes for over a month now, everyday I got to school wondering what was going to be written on the next one... and I need to hear you say it, please Mikey."  Don't say it, Luke. Don't say it.

"h- have you been sending them? and hum... did you meant them?"  Because I'd be so happy if it were you sending them. - Luke wanted to add, but he couldn't, in case he was wrong.

This obsession for Luke had gone too far, Michael knew it.

to: lukey

 "I run away when things are good, and never really understood
the way you laid your eyes on me in ways that no one ever could" 

-Halsey