Thomas x reader
POV: Third person
References: Dear Theodosia and Meant To Be Yours
Time period: modern
Requested by: ThatTinyWolfLover the problem is she asked for angst.

And I have no idea what the heck that is so, let's see how this crap goes.

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Thomas and Y/n were bestfriends.

Were bestfriends.

They did everything together. They ate lunch together. They watched movies together. They studied together.

But then Thomas grew distant.

He just stopped hanging out with her. He stopped talking to her. He stopped walking her home from school. He ignored her. Well.... not completely.

Thomas would call Y/n names. Thomas would  tease her. Thomas would bully her. Thomad would physically hurt her. It went from bestfriends to nothing. Y/n meant nothing to Thomas.

Nothing.

She was nothing.

But he was everything to her.

Y/n believed that Thomas was a good person. She knew that this wasn't him. He'd never hurt her. He'd never make her cry. That's why she never did anything back.

Every time Thomas insulted her, she ignored it. Every time he hurt her, she let it slide. All because she thinks Thomas is still the kind person he was.

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Y/n walked into school alone as usual.

She looked through the crowd of students, trying her best to avoid him. She went to her locker and quickly grabbed her books. She closed her locked when she was knocked down to the ground. Her books scattered around her.

"Oof." She said when she hit the ground.

"Whoopsies." Thomas said. "I guess I didn't see you."

Y/n sighed and ignored Thomas,not wanting another fight. She picked up her books and stood up. She let out another sigh and walked to class. She tripped on something and fell on the ground again.

Y/n groaned  as she saw Thomas smirking as he withdrew his foot that tripped Y/n. She again picked up her books and left without a word.

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School was done and Y/n wanted to get out as soon as possible. She didn't want to run into Thomas agai--

"Why, hello, Y/n." Thomas said.

"Please, I don't want any trouble." Y/n said and clutched her notebook close to her chest. A piece of paper was sticking out from the top of it.

"Yeah. Sure." Thomas said. "What's that?"

"Thomas--" Y/n couldn't even finish. Thomas pulled out the piece of paper sticking out.

"What is this?" He asked and read the paper. "You're apologizing? To me?"

"I-I know that-that you and I... used to be friends and... we just..." Y/n couldn't even form her words right. "I just thought I did something wrong."

"You... you didn't do--" Thonas stopped himself. Then, Thomas suddenly burts out laughing. "You-you ahahaha! You thought the-that we were friends?"

Y/n looked down embarrassed. She bit her lip as the tears fell down her face. Thomas just kept laughing at the poor girl.

"Why-why would you hahaha even think tha--" Y/n cut him off.

"What did I ever do to you?!" Y/n asked.

Jefferson stopped laughing. "Wh-what?" Thomas asked.

"Dis I do something wrong!?" Y/n asked as the tears slid down her face.

"Y/n... you didn't--"

"Why do you hate me then?!"

"I... I don't... I don't hate you."

"When why do you do these things to me?! Why do you hurt me?! Why do you tease me?! Why do you fucking hate me?!"

"Y/n, listen. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"You didn't mean to hurt me?! I cry every night, thinking that I did something wrong to you! I spend every day, thinking you left me alone because I didn't spend enough time with you! What did I ever do to you!?"

At this point, the tears didn't stop falling both their faces. Y/n had enough. She turned around and left Thomas without another word.

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Y/n locked herself in her room. She slid down against the door and hugged her knees. She sobbed quietly as she thought of what happened. She just stood up to Thomas. Normally, she would have never done that especially to Thomas.

"Y/n?" Someone called from the other side.

"Go away!" Y/n yelled.

"It-it's me... Tho-Thomas." He said. "Look, I... I'm sorry."

"No. You're not. You just want to see me hurt. You just want to see me cry." Y/n said.

Thomas leaned against the door. "Please... Y/n, I'm so so so so sorry." He said.

He slid down against the door like Y/n. He heard her soft sobs and it broke his heart. They sat there, both crying. They sat there without a word.

"Dear Y/n, how to say to you..." Thomas sang, his voice cracking several times. "I know you're sad... I know I did you wrong..."

He hugged his knees and let out a soft sob. He didn't even know why he hirt Y/n. He didn't know why he treated her wrong. He didn't know why he was mean to her.

"But when I say that I regret it, it's true... I know I am... wrong..." Thomas continued. "I'm dedicating everyday to you... And when you cry it tears my heart apart... Wh-when you smile.... you knock me out I fall apart. Listen, I know you're smart. I know I wasn't around.... but I swear I am here now for you..."

He wiped the tears from his face but a hundred more came to replace the ones he wiped away.

"I've made a ton of mistakes but I'll do whatever it takes... to make the world safe and sound for you.." Thomas sang sadly.

"Oh Thomas, what you did can't be undone... You've won..." Y/n sang quietly. "Look what you've done..."

She voice broke and she burst into tears. Thomas fantically yelled at her, telling her he was sorry. He stood up and leaned on the door for support.

"Y/n, open the-open the door please. Y/n, open the door." Thomas begged. "Y/n, can we not fight anymore please? Can we not fight anymore?"

Not a word from Y/n.

"Y/n, I know you're mad, I'm sorry. Let me in, I'll set you free." Thomas begged.

Not a word from Y/n.

"Y/n, don't make me come in there. I'm gonna count till three!" Thomas yelled. "One."

Not a word.

"Two."

Not a word.

"Th--"

The door swung open.

Y/n was standing there with a tear stained face. The pain in her e/c eyes were very visible and it broke Thomas' heart more.

"Happy?" She asked. "There. I'm here. Laugh at me. Hurt me more. Do whatever.... I don't even care anymore..."

"Y/n... don't say that." Thomas said. He placed a hand on her cheek and wiped away a tear. "Look, I'm sincerely sorry for what I did. You have all the right to hate me. You have all the right to ignore me."

"I have all the right to forgive you." Y/n said.

Thomas looked at the girl in shock. After all the terrible things he did, she forgave her. The tears fell down his face but Y/n wiped them away.

"Why are you so nice to me?" Thomas asked. "I've been nothing but bad to you."

"Because... well... I know you're a better person." She said. "And... I love you...."

Thomas hugged her tightly. He felt tears drip down his shirt as she hugged him back. Thomas whispered the sweetest things to Y/n as he tried to calm her down.

"I.... I... I love you too..." Thomas said.

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A/n: after I Googled it, I have found what agnst meant!

"a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human condition or the state of the world in general.

synonyms: anxiety, fear, apprehension, worry, foreboding, trepidation, malaise, disquiet, disquietude, unease, uneasiness"

So... sad things? Eh? Whatever. If you don't like it I can make another one