The night was deep, the silver moon was shining with the dark blue sky of the night, and the bright stars were scattered across the vast sky. Trees and plants were swinging with the gust of gentle cold wind. But the moon was alone among millions of stars while spreading its rediance, just as Sameer was alone today and without uttering a single words, he was staring at the stars in the sky, which was glimming with the thousands of stars.

Sitting alone under the starry sky, sorrow was written on his face. The grief that his Naina had given him today by complaining about their love and their marriage being wrong.

Today, Naina's painful words had hurt him deeply, wounding his heart which could not be repaired. He was heartbroken as his love could not win the trust of his life partner. He was completely shattered and broke down.

"Naina aaj tumhare un shabdon ne mujhe puri tarah se tod diya hai... Tumhara Sameer aaj puri tarah bikhar gaya hai... are nahi mai tumhara Sameer kaise ho sakta hun ...tumne hi aaj hamare pyaar ko galat kaha hai, phir tum mujhe apna kaise manogi... jab tumhari nazaron me hamari shaadi galat hai... to mera bhi koi vajood nahi hoga tumhari nazaron me...Kyo Naina kyo kiya tumne mere saath aisa??" He screamed top of his voice as he couldn't hold longer those pain inside him.

"Mere pyaar me kya kami rah gayi thi Naina?...kya tumhe mere pyaar par bharosa nahi tha? Mujh par bharosa nahi tha? Kyo dar gayi tum Naina, kya mai logon ki baaton me aakar tumne chod dunga? Shayad tumne mere pyaar ki gaharai dekhi hi nahi thi tabhi aaj tumne ye sab baatein kahi... agar dekhi hoti to kabhi apna vishwas dagmagane nahi deti aur na hi aisi baatein tumhare dimag me aati....Ya phir ye kahun ki mai hi tumhe apne pyaar ka bharosa nahi dila paya jo kuch logon ki baaton se kho gaya aur tumhe ye sab baatein sochane par mazboor kiya...

ab reason chahe kuch bhi ho, haar to hamara pyaar hi gaya Naina. HAMARA PYAAR ... wo pyaar jiske liye na jane hamne kya kya kiya aur kya kya saha hai.. Wo pyaar Naina jiske liye maine tumhare alawa kisi aur se shaadi na karne ki kasam khayi thi, jis pyaar ka anjaane me hi sahi par hum dono ne salon intezaar kiya tha... wo pyaar Naina jiske liye na jane, kitne raaton tak jaag kar tumne aasun bahaye hai.....Wo pyaar Naina jise pane ke liye hum dono ne bhagwan ji se minnatein bhi ki aur khone par shikayatein bhi ki thi... aur aaj kuch logon ki baaton se wo pyaar yun khatam ho gaya... kyo... kyo Nainaaa?" He cried out as his pain built up his heart remembering Naina's words with each passing second. He poured out of his anger, frustration, helplessness and pain through those words.

He wiped away the tears that had been brimming out of his void eyes and lamented looking of a bright star. "Nanu kyo chale gaye...Aaj mujhe aapki bahut zarurat hai. Aap hote to ye sab nahi hota. Hamara pyaar kabhi nahi harta... aap kabhi apne Sameer ko harne nahi dete na kisi rishte me aur na hi uski life me.

Mujhe aaj phir se vahi andhkar aur khalipan mahsoos ho raha hai, jo aapke jane ke baad maine jiya tha... aise lag raha hai mai phir se un andhkar me gum ho jaunga aur iss baar un andhkaro se bahar nikalane wala koi nahi hai....mere paas.

Aapko pata hai nanu Naina ko mere pyaar se jyada logon ki baatein effect karti hai, use mere se jyada logon ki parwaah hai. Kisi ne do char shabd kya kah diye use hamari shaadi galat lag gayi. Mummy Deepika ghar me sab to use itna pyaar karte hai phir bhi logon ki baaton ko hi dil se lagana hai jaise wahi uske liye important ho... Use college time se samjhate aaya hun aise logon par dhyaan nahi dena chahiye, phir bhi madam ko wahi karna hai unki baton ko dil se lagana hai... to lagaye rahe unki baaton ko dil se... uske liye mere pyaar se jyada wo baatein matter karti hai to mujhe bhi koi fark nahi padta...Uski nazar me hamari shaadi galat hai to wahi sahi hai... vaise bhi nanu agar ye meri Naina hoti to aisa kabhi nahi kahti...Apne Sameer ka dil kabhi nahi todti..."

He blinked his eyes gazing at the moon and tried to forget Naina words to calm his heart but his temper raised again as those painful words did not leave his mind and her words started echoing in his mind again.

He complained about his Naina to his Nanu in a cracking voice again. "Par wo Naina hi hai nanu jisne aaj mere dil ke saath saath mere sapne, meri wishes aur hamare future ka khoon kar diya... kyo sab mere dil se khelate hai, bachpan me mummy ko apne saath rakhana chaha to wo chhod gayi, aap ke saath rahna chaha to aap chhod gaye aur aaj Naina mujhe chhodna chahati hai... kya mai itna bura hun ki mujhe kabhi pyaar nahi milega."

He stared the sky with his void eyes and he squeezed his eyes shut that tears slided down from his eyes. His heart ached to think how could Naina speak those words. Which he did not think even in his dream. Her words had broken his heart into pieces.

On the other hand Naina's condition was also not good. She hid her face on the bed and cried. Sameer's painful words were tearing her heart. As Sameer had taken all the responsibility of this situation on himself which she was unable to bear.

Suddenly hearing a sound at the door, she raised her face but there was nothing and at the same time her dishevelled face reflected in the mirror, tears slip down on her pale face. Seeing her own reflection, she hid her face in her palm in sorrow.

She said to herself. "Sameer janti hun...aaj maine aap ka bahut dil dikhaya hai, iske liye shayad aap kabhi mujhe maaf kar payenge... par Sameer mai nahi dekh sakti ki koi aap par ungali uthaye... aapki choice ko galat kahe... Abhi to sirf ye baatein maine suni hai to mujhe itna dukh ho raha hai, jab aap tak ye baatein pahuchengi to shayad aap bardasht nahi kar paayenge.. koi aapki Naina ke baare ye sab kahe ... Isliye aapse wo sab baatein kah gayi Sameer. Mujhe nahi samajh aa raha kya sahi hai, kya galat hai, par anjaane me hi sahi maine aapka dil tod diya na Sameer." She cried with the pain that had hurt Sameer.

She started remembering those beautiful moments spent with Sameer, where she could see only love for herself in his eyes. And today she did not believe in that love, which was giving her a lot of pain. And she remembered again those painful words of Sameer which he had said sometime ago. All those words started echoing in her mind.

mummy ko hamara rishtaa pasand nahi aaya.

tum bahar walon ki baton me aakar insecurity me na aa jao, jisse hamari married life me koi problem na aaye.

Naina ko itna pyaar dunga ki wo kabhi apne ko insecure feel nahi karegi...Vaise bhi meri Naina well educated, smart, beautiful aur strong minded hai

Aur phir maine socha Naina ki mai tumhe itna pyaar karunga ki kabhi ye baatein tumhare mann me nahi aayegi aur hamara pyaar kabhi hame kamjor padne nahi dega.

Par Mummy ka wo dar sahi ho gaya Naina mai haar gaya, mera pyaar haar gaya ... tumhe insecurity me jaane se nahi rok paya

tumhe apne pyaar ka bharosa nahi dila paya.

Aapka Sameer haar gaya Nanu.

As soon as the realisation hit her heart, she gasped and closed her mouth what she had done.

"Hey bhagwan ye maine kya kar diya... Maine mummy ka dar sahi kar diya, Sameer ke yakin ko galat sabit kar diya." Her voice choked with immense pain that she had given her Sameer unknowingly.

She was regretting why she spoke all that to Sameer. She was pissed off own and cursing herself for not trusting his love and care and giving more importance to what others say. Whose existence did not matter to her and because of such people she had hurt her love, her Sameer, whom she had found after years of waiting.

She looked around the room hoping it would be her wrost nightmare but it was true which could not be forgotten. She got up from the floor while wiping her tears and was hiccupping due to continuously crying. She sat on the bed holding Sameer's photo and apologized. "Sameer I am sorry maine sab bigad diya... aapka dil dukha diya... aapka pyaar hara nahi hai Sameer balki mera pyaar kamzor hai jo aapka pyaar samjha nahi paya, us par bharosa nahi kar paya... Aapke pyaar ki gahrai nahi dekh paya... mai bahut buri hun Sameer jo aapke sachche pyaar ko logon ki baaton se compare kar baithi." A few drops of tears fell on the photo, but she started his photo with her blurry eyes.

"Mujhe ye sab sochna hi nahi chahiye tha. Mujhe Sameer ke pyaar par trust karna chahiye tha. Kyo mai logon ki baaton me aa gayi, kyo maine unke baat ko dil se lagaya jinka mujh se koi lena dena hi nahi hai. Unke karan maine apne Sameer ko kitni gahri chot pahuchai hai, unke pyaar par trust na karke...wo aaj meri vajah se tut gaye hai...

Sorry Sameer ... Please apni Naina ko maaf kar dijiye... aap to jante hai na mai kitni badi bewakoof hun jo aasani se logon ki baaton ko sach maan leti hun... Please mujhse rishtaa mat todiyega nahi to mai mar jaungi." She cried heart out gazing at the door with a hope he would be return with the same smiling face that he always carried for her.

"Kyo kaha maine krishna ji...kyo Sameer ka dil dukhaya, kyuu?..." She screamed at herself silently, afraid that he might walk out the door forever.

She was awake the whole time to wait his return as her heart was thumping raipdly out of grief, anguish, frustration and anger at herself.

They both didn't know how long they kept weeping to remembering each other words. However they both did not know where their fate was going to take them.

Sameer was just gazing at the sky with a expressionless face in the whole night. He suddenly noticed some bright light spreading through the clear sky and it meant that morning was near and anyone seeing him on the terrace at this hour, would know that all is not well between them. So he returned to the room. He saw the door was ajar. He opened the door to think about Naina and was relieved to see her sitting on the bed with a pale face. He let out a sigh and closed the door entering the room.

Seeing him coming in she stood up and asked him anxiously. "Kaha the aap."

"Kyo?...isse tumhe kaya matlab." He snapped her.

Her face dropped and heart flinched hearing his sharp tone. Seeing her miserable state he said lowering his voice.

"Tabiyat theek nahi hai phir kyo itni raat tak jaag rahi ho...aur kharab ho jayegi... bilkul bhi khayal nahi rakhati ho apna... pata hai na tumhe, aise dekh kar meri jaan..." But he stopped immediately as realized what was he going to say and he ordered entering the bathroom. "So jao."

A faint smile came on her lips to see his care for her. She said to herself. "Mujhe pata tha aap mujhse bahut pyaar karte hai tabhi to gusse me bhi meri fikar krana nahi bhule... Janti hun maine nadani me aapka dil tod diya hai aur uski nishaan aapke chehare par hai, aap ki aankhen sab bata rahi hai kitna dukh maine pahuchaya hai...Par ab aur nahi Sameer mai apni galti ke liye aapse maafi mangungi... phir dekhiyega sab theek ho jayega... aur aapki pahli wali hasi bhi wapas aa jayegi."

Inside the bathroom tears were again streaming down from his black orbs remembering those words and his Naina condition pircked his heart more. He said to himself. "Mai kitna bhi naraz rahun Naina par tumhe aise nahi dekh sakta...Tum apne aansuo ko mujhse chupa sakti ho par mai bhi tumhe janta hun tum kitna roi hogi... par aaj tumne hamare pyaar ko galat kaha uska dard usse kahi jyada hai Naina."

He splashed water on his face that wash his tears but not his pain which has wounded heart immensely. When he came out, noticed Naina was not sleeping.

Naina seeing him headed towards his side on the bed, she said gathering courage. "Sameer...Mujhe aapse kuch..." But her words struck in her throat by just his quick glance.

His eyes blazed in blood shot eyes and said in a flat voice. " So jao Naina tumhari tabiyat theek nahi hai, raat bhar jagna tumhare liye sahi nahi hai...kal subah baat karenge."

He lay down on his side after switched off the side lamp. Naina was also lay down gazing at his back and a few tears drops fell on the bed. She did not know when she dozed off while looking him.

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When Naina woke up next morning it's time to 10, she panicked as Sameer was no where in the room. She was got up from the bed and same time Vishakha entered with a tray.

"Mummy Sameer kahan hai." Naina asked searchingly him in the room.

"Sameer office chala gaya...tum beemar thi na to tumhe uthaya nahi.. aur mujhse kaha ki tumhe room me hi breakfast de dun." Vishakha answered keeping the tray on the side table.

She sat beside her and caressing her head. "Ab kaisi hai tabiyat beta... fever abhi bhi hai."

"Theek hun mummy, fever bhi nahi hai." She replied with a gloomy face.

"To phir itna ghabra kar Sameer ke baare me kyo puch rahi thi... dekho to kaise dar gayi ho jaise Sameer tumhe chhod kar chala gaya hai." Vishakha teased her to see her desperate to see Sameer.

"Wo room me dikhe nahi na to bas ghabra gayi thi." She replied lowering her head and her eyes being moist.

Seeing her melencholy face, Vishakha tried to lighten her mood. "Chalo to aaj mai apni beti ko apne hathon se khilaungi... khaogi na mere hathon se."

Naina nodded her head in bright smile and opened her mouth when Vishakha fed her first morsal. She looked at her with love, till the breakfast finished.

Once the breakfast finished, Naina started crying. Vishakha wondered and asked caressing her head. "Kya hua beta ro kyo rahi ho."

And the next moment Naina flunged to her neck and started weeping to remember last night incident. Vishakha stroked her back to calm her down saying affectionately. "Shhh...chup ho jao..."

As her crying subsided, Vishakha pulled her away.

"kya ho gaya Naina...Sameer ne kuch kaha ya phir tum dono ki ladai hui hai." Vishakha asked as she was scared of her sudden crying.

Naina shook her head in no but her face still lowered.

"To phir kyo ro rahi thi." Vishakha asked affectionately.

"Wo... chachi ji ki yaad aa gayi... wo bhi mujhe aise hi kabhi kabhi apne hatho se khilati thi... to aankh bhar aayi." Naina lied as she did not want tell the truth to her and a hesitation appeared on her face.

"Mai bhi to tumhari maa hun na to jab bhi apni maa ki yaad aaye mere paas aa jana...jaise Deepika hai vaise tum bhi ho." Vishakha words reassured her that she would always love her caressing her head lovingly. Her concern was genuine, it was evident that she was not affected by her friends' comment. She was deeply remorseful for hurting Sameer without any reason.

Naina waited Sameer the whole day. She wanted to call him several times but she could not dial his number on the landline. And now it was time for dinner, but Sameer had not returned from the office. Naina and Vishakha were worried for him.

"Sameer bhi na, ek baar kaam me lag gaya to time hi nahi dekhata, kitni der ho gai hai ab tak to aa jana chahiye... Pahle ki baat alag thi ab kam se kam Naina ke baare me sochata." Vishakha frustrated of Sameer being late and looked at Naina who was sitting beside Deepika with a gloomy face on the dinning table.

"Rohan jaa Sameer ko call kar aur 10 minutes me aane ko bol." Vishakha ordered Rohan.

Rohan returned after calling Sameer and informed. "Mummy use aane me ek ghante aur lag jayenge, bol raha tha koi important meeting hai aur kaha hai ki uska intezaar na kare... Shayad jyada late bhi ho sakta hai... To hame dinner kar lena chahiye."

Vishakha muttered. "Kon si meeting hai jo itni raat tak chalati hai."

"Mummy mera mann nahi hai khane ka aap sab kha lijiye." Naina denied to take dinner.

"Naina chupchap khana khao... abhi tumhari health bhi theek nahi hai, phir se beemar ho jaogi... Aur aise bhuke rahne se Sameer jaldi nahi aa jayega...ye ek saas ka order hai chalo jaldi se dinner khatam karo." Vishakha ordered her as a strict mother-in-laws.

"Haa bhabhi agar aap nahi khaogi to mai bhi nahi khaungi." Deepika too denied the take dinner.

Naina had dinner reluctantly as her heart saying that somewhere she was the reason of Sameer to be late. She lay down on the bed waiting for him after dinner.

When Sameer returned from the office, Naina had already slept. He smiled seeing her sleeping peacefully. He first went to her and kissed her forehead softly. "Aaj maine tumhe bahut intezaar karwaya uske liye sorry, I hope tumne dinner kar liya hoga."

In the mid night when her sleep had broken, she found Sameer was sleeping beside her. But today he did not have the smile on his face and neither was the happiness that was always on his face even in sleep. There was tiredness on his face. She lifted her hand to touch his face but stopped thinking if his sleep would be disturb as yesterday he had not slept whole night. Looking at his face, she too fell asleep, deciding that the next morning she would apologize to him for her mistake.

***********

Naina sleep was disturb by a sound of door opening in next morning and she found Sameer was already dressed up for office. She was perplexed to see him. She got up from the bed and went to him.

"Sameer kahan ja rahe hai." She asked.

"Office ja raha hun." He replied without looking at her.

"Lekin abhi to 8 hi baje hai itni jaldi kyo ja rahe hai." She asked tensnly.

"Office me bahut kaam hai... mai mummy se bol dunga ki tumhara breakfast room me le aaye." He said instead giving the answer.

"Sameer please meri baat suniye." She tried to talk him.

"Nainaa mujhe der ho rahi hai." He avoided to look her and walked out of the room holding his office bag.

Naina looked towards the door defeatedly. Her heart wrenched to see his cold behaviour towards her. He never treat her like this, it was strange and new for her. That she could not bear it, her heart cried out for his love. She was missing his warm embrace, his teasing, his love and everything.

That Night when Sameer returned the home and was heading towards the stairs. Vishakha stopped him. "Sameer ruk...Baat karni hai."

Sameer frightened to think if Naina had told what happened between them.

"Sameer ab tumhari shaadi ho gai hai iss tarah late aana nahi chalega... Tumhe pata hai Naina kitna request karne par khati hai... wo abhi abhi theek hui agar achche se khayegi nahi to phir se beemar ho jayegi... tum to uska khayal rakhane ke bajay der raat ko aate ho, bechari pura din udaas rahti hai.... kahi tum dono ki ladai to nahi hui." She asked looking him sternly.

"Nahi hui hai mummy kyon Naina ne aapse kuch kaha kya.?" He asked in a fraight voice.

"Usne kuch nahi kaha... tumahara iss tarah let aana sahi nahi hai, isliye puchha." Vishakha replied.

"Mummy mai janbujh kar late nahi aata wo new contract ki preparation ke karan late ho jata hun bas kuch din aur mummy phir late nahi hounga." Sameer disclosed the reason to come late.

"Tune khaya khana." Vishakha concerned.

"Haa office me kha liya tha." He replied.

"Jaa Naina tera intezaar kar rahi hogi." Vishakha said patting his back with affection.

Vishakha turn to go her room but Sameer stopped her. "Mummy wo Naina ne."

"Haa kha liya hai maine jid karke khila diya hai." Vishakha answered his unspoken question.

"Thank you mummy." He beamed.

"Chal ab ja... jyada makkhan mat laga mai nahi phasane wali aur ye sirf do din ke liye hai... do din me kaam jaldi se khatam kar lena." She ordered him in a strict voice to finish his work soon.

"Ji mummy." Sameer smiled.

Naina was awake but her eyes were closed shortly before he could enter the room. And the sound of the door opening woke her up. She waited for him to be refreshed.

Sameer came to bed and was about to lie down but Naina's words stopped him. "Sameer mujhe aapse."

"Naina mai bahut thak gaya hun abhi mujhe neend aa rahi hai, jo baat hai kal kare agar jyada important nahi hai to." He yawned while responding her.

Naina noticed that he was really tired. His hair was dishevelled, his eyes looked droopy and his face exhausted and dull.

The next day was the same. Sameer had left for the office before Naina woke up and returned late at night. It was third day when they both did not talking to each other properly. They just lived in the room as a room partners.

That night when Sameer slept, Naina got up and went to window. She stared the sky where moon shining between clouds. But today his brightness was low and it looked disappointment like her. She turned look back to her Sameer who was sleeping peacefully.

She said to herself. "Sameer mujhe pata hai aap mujhse naraz hai tabhi itne dinon se meri koi baat nahi sun rahe hai aur mujhe avoid kar rahe hai. Manti hun maine jo aapse kaha hai shayad uske liye mujhe kabhi maafi nahi milegi... par iss tarah to aap khud ko saza de rahe hai... agar saza deni hai to mujhe dijiye..." A tear rolled down on her cheek.

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Next morning was the same routine. Sameer left the office early morning.

Naina was sitting with Vishakha after breakfast and talking with her. Just then someone came and closed her eyes while asking the name. Naina touched the person hands and squealed in excitement. "Preeti."

Preeti left the hand and replied with a disappointed face. "Tu kaise pahchan leti hai Naina."

"Kaise nahi pahchanungi un hathon ko jisne mujhe bachpan se thama hai... ye sab chhod aur ye bata tu yahan kaise." Naina was delighted to see Preeti.

Preeti at first touched Vishakha feet and sat with her. "Kaisi hai aunty."

"Mai theek hun Preeti...aur batao tum kaisi ho..." Vishakha also surprised.

"Mai bhi theek hun aunty...kal Pandit ne jijaji ko call kiya tha tumhari shimla trip ka haal chal puchhne... to unhone kaha ki office ke kaam se nahi ja paaye aur tumhari tabiyat ke baare me bhi bataya... to tujhse milne aa gayi... aaj Pandit office jate time mujhe yahan chhod gaye." Preeti explained the reason to meet her.

"Preeti to phir jijaji andar kyo nahi aaye... Yahan tak aa ke bahar se chale gaye." Naina pretended to be angry and made a grumpy face.

"Unhe late ho jata... wo nahi aaye to kya hua mai to aai hun." Preeti went to Naina and sat beside her.

"Tu bata chai legi ya coffee." Naina got up and tried to go kitchen but Preeti grabbed her hand saying. "Mujhe kuch nahi chahiye tu bas mere saath baith."

"Haa Naina...tum Preeti ke saath baitho mai Keshav ko bol deti hun." Vishakha stopped her.

"Naina ab kaisi hai teri tabiyat." Priti asked about her health with concern.

"Mai to theek hun, Tu bata tu kaisi hai, sab medicine time se leti hai na." Naina asked sternly.

"Haa meri maa leti hun." Preeti replied making a face.

Vishakha delighted seeing their love and care for each other.

Meanwhile Keshav brought tea and some snacks for them.

Vishakha was contented to see the smile on Naina face after a long time. Her smile had gone somewhere since Sameer started returning late at night. She said with a joyful smile. "Priti tum aayi to achcha laga isse Naina ka bhi dil bahal jayega pure din bore ho jaati thi, kahi ghumne jaane ko kaho to mana kar deti hai, shaam ko Deepika ke saath thoda time pass kar leti hai... chalo aaj tum saath hongi to bore nahi hogi."

Hearing about Naina from Vishakha, Preeti started thinking something. "Aunty agar aap ki permission ho to kya mai Naina ko do char din ke liye apne ghar le ja sakti hun."

"M...mai kaise ja sakti hoon... Sameer se bhi baat nahi hui hai.. mai nahi jaungi." Naina stammered and denied to go with Preeti without Sameer permission.

"Mujhe koi problem nahi hai beta aur Naina tum Sameer se baat kar lo....Phir to jaa sakti ho na." Vishakha gave the permission.

"To done, tu chal rahi hai mere saath.. ab to aunty ne bhi permission de di hai, bas jijaji se baat kar le, phir chalate hai." Preeti beamed.

"Lekin... Sameer." Naina hesitated.

"Naina jao Sameer se baat kar lo vaise bhi wo mana nahi karega." Vishakha insisted her to talk Sameer.

Naina dialed Sameer's number but his mobile was switched off so she dialed his office number and receptionist informed her he was busy in meeting.

"Mummy Sameer se baat nahi ho pai unhe bina bataye kaise chali jaaun." Naina's face shrivilled and heart faltered thinking about Sameer consent whether he will agree easily.

"Beta tum Preeti ke saath jao, sham me jab Sameer aayega to mai bata dungi" Vishakha assured her that she will tell Sameer.

In the room Naina scared to think Sameer reaction when he would know. She shared her fear to Preeti while packing her clothes.

"Priti pata nahi Sameer kaise react kareng jab mujhe yahan nahi dekhenge. Agar ek bar baat ho jaati to mujhe bhi tasalli rahti." Her heart thundered.

"Tu kab se Sameer se itna darne lagi... Vaise bhi jija ji kabhi tujhe kisi baat ke liye mana nahi karte... Tu sab chhod aur mere saath waqt bitane ke bare mein soch purane dino ki tarah hum dono bahut masti karenge aur is bar to taiji bhi nahin hogi hame rokane ke liye." Preeti was delighted to spend time with her sister and helped her packing.

On the other hand Naina was in a dilemma, to go or not with Preeti. Naina said in her mind. " Tujhe nahi pata Preeti maine kitni badi galti kar di hai..ab agar bina bataye chali jaaungi to pata nahi Sameer kya sochenge... Koi meri situation nahi samajh payega."

"Ohh madam kahan kho gai jaldi kar." Preeti voiced her to see lost somewhere and Naina gave her a fake smile shooking her head .

Naina and Preeti left after lunch as Vishakha had insisted to Preeti for lunch.

***********

Sameer returned from the office in the night as usual late. When he stepped inside in the room, he was agitated to see his Naina but he did not found her in the room. He checked her in the bathroom first then Deepika room but he found her room light was switched off. He heart started throbbing to think where would be his Naina. He went to terrace if she would be present there and he dejected to see empty it.

He wondered. "Kahi Naina ko kuch ho to nahi gaya..." He shrugged off this thought saying himself. "Agar aisa hota to koi to mujhe batata... kahi wo mujhse gussa hoke Ahmedabad to nahi chali gayi."

He strode to his mother room and knocked the door. Vishakha opened the door and asked surprisingly. "Sameer kya hua... kuch kaam hai."

"Mummy wo Nainaa." He panicked.

She slapped her forehead. "Sorry beta tujhe batana bhul gai... Aaj morning me Preeti ghar aai thi to Naina uske saath gai hai...Naina ne tujhe phone kiya tha, par tera phone laga nahi...aur...." But she stopped as Sameer walked away from her without listening her whole sentence.

"Puri baat to sun leta...chala gaya." Vishakha muttered closing the door.

As the hearing that Naina had gone with Preeti, his mind blocked thinking further and after that he did not comprehend what his mother told him. He threw his blazer and tie in the sofa furiously as soon as he entered the room and threw all the stuff on the floor which placed on the side table of the bed out of rage.

He lay down on the bed, staring the ceiling with teary eyes. After a while he sat on the bed while thinking something and dialed Pandit number but immediately cut the call.

"Mai kyo phone karu... wo ek baar bata nahi sakti thi... jab use meri fikar hi nahi to mujhe bhi nahi hai." His heart wanted to hear her voice, which would give him soothness somewhere. So he had dialed Pandit's number but his ego stopped him from calling. He got up from the bed and went near the window and looking at moon thinking his Naina.

On the other side Naina had also not able to sleep. She wanted to call him but stopped herself thinking his reaction.

"Aapki bahut yaad aa rahi hai Sameer." She looked at clock. "Ab tak to ghar aa gaye honge aur Mummy ne mere baare me bata diya hoga...i hope aap jyada gussa nahi honge... good night Sameer."

As her sleep had vanished, she opened her diary and started writing new phase of her life that started with lot of love with pain.

15 December 2002

Aaj bahut dino baad maine diary kholi hai kyonki Sameer ke khayal mujhe akele chhodte hi nahi tha. Ab mai Naina Agarwal se Naina Maheshwari ban gayi hun. Sameer ne mujhe wo sab diya hai jise pane ka kabhi maine sapna bhi nahi dekha tha. Ek pyari si family, ek bahut laad karne wali maa, ek bahan jaisi pyari si nanad, ek bhai jaisa devar aur ek caring papa. Sameer ne mujhe ek bhara pura pariwar diya hai. Aur apna dher sara pyaar jahan koi dukh aa hi nahi sakta tha.

Par maine apni nadani se wo sab bigad diya. Ladkiyan aisa pati aur pariwar paane ke liye taras jaati hai aur maine kuch logon ki baaton ko sahi mankar apni basi basayi duniya me aag laga li hai...apni khushiyan apne hathon se tabaah kar li hai.

Sameer ko paakar bhi maine unhe apne se dur kar diya. Unke pyaar par bhorasa na karke sab gawa diya. Apni shaadi aur pyaar ko galat kahna meri bahut badi galti thi, jiski maafi shayad koi bhi pati apni patni ko dega...aur phir maine to unke pyaar par awishwas dikhaya hai. Jise koi bhi sah nahi payega. Mujhe apni galti ka bahut pachtawa hai aur Sameer se maafi mangkar sab sudharana chahati hun. Par Sameer meri baat nahi sun rahe hai.

Please na Krishna ji Sameer se kahiye ki mujhe maaf kar de mai unki narazgi nahi sah sakti...mai unke bina nahi rah paungi... mujhse bahut badi galti hui hai jiske liye wo jo saza denge mujhe manzoor hoga par mujhe se baat kare, pahle jaise hi pyaar kare...unki narazgi bahut dard deti hai.

Her eyes brimmed in grief, a few drops of tears fell on the page and she closed the diary with a heavy heart. Sameer's neglect had caused great pain to her heart, which was now becoming unbearable for her. That night, she had come in people's talk and said that her marriage to Sameer was wrong, but now she was repenting for it. On top of that, Sameer's displeasure was doubling her misery. She had thought that by telling all this to Sameer, she would lighten her heart, but everything turned upside down from her thinking. On one hand Sameer got angry with her and on the other hand there was so much distance between them that she was not able to call him even if she wanted to.

After complaining a lot to the moon, Sameer returned to the bed and tried sleep peaceful but his heart wanted to take Naina in his arms. As realising that it was not possible his heart sank in deep sorrow. He wondered how Naina had gone without informing him, to which anger bubbled up in his chest. His mind and heart swirled between the two emotions pain and anger.

After toss and turn till mid night he finally slept without changing his shirt. He clutched her pillow near his heart in the sleep like it was Naina.

Before today, both of them lived in the same room, listened to each other's voice. They looked at each other. Even though there was resentment among them. But today the distance between the two was of hearts as well as places. Which was unbearable both of them. Both wanted to talk, but one was not allowing his ego and the other was stopping her fear. They both longed for each other's company. But no one was taking any initiative to mend their relationship.

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