Saguru wasn't prepared that he would dream about that night, nor was he prepared when waking up being a kid. That he had amnesia wasn't something he knew how to handle. Remembering again was painful and he was not sure how to react. That was why his body let him decided to go on panic mode. A loud scream came out of his mouth as he was utterly terrified of this situation. Everything was too much, to handle to him, his throat closed off as at the end, so that it ended in a silent scream. His voice cut off, as choked sobs escaped as he began to silently sob.

What had happened, after that yell? Why was he shrunken? Was he kidnapped? Had they managed to do it? Would he have to go through puberty again? Was going through his head as he had no idea how to handle this mess. He was confused and terrified, that much that he could hear his heartbeat in his ears and feel his heartbeat in his chest going rapidly. Soon big arms wrapped around him. It made him flinch, his body shaking like leaf as more tears rolled down. 

Right now he was panic mode, that was why he struggled. The part of his brain which was responsible for his rational part was not thinking rational at all right now. Saguru was pretty sure that this part was shut down. 

"Shhh, Sagu-chan it's me Kai-chan. You are safe no one will hurt you..."

That was making him realize who it was. The smell was the one who he knew too well, Kaito his boyfriend. He sobbed more violently, but no sound came out. His body relaxed after five more minutes of sobbing. Still, the tears hadn't stopped yet and he was pretty sure that he was still in shock.  After another five minutes, he calmed down. As Kaito asked him 'Are you doing better now Saguru?' His mouth opened and he wanted to say something, but nothing came out.

His eyes widen as he tried to say something, but nothing wanted to escape out of his mouth. Don't tell him he lost his voice? He saw that Kaito was frowning now and he was beginning to panic once more.

"Alright, Sagu-chan calm down. Panic won't change anything. Tantei-kun, bring me something to write and a pen please."

The said person was walking somewhere in the room and walked up to them giving the pen and note pad and putting it into the hands of him. He stared at it blankly as he writes the question which were on his mind since waking up. His writing wasn't that neat as he wrote it more rushed and was shaky as.

What had happened, after that yell? Why was he shrunken? Had they managed to do it? Would he have to go through puberty again?

Turning it around for the other two to read. His body was tense and his troat felt closing off again. It was too much to handle. The other two gave each other a quick look and both seemed surprised.

"So you remember?"

This time it was Kudo-kun who gave the question. He gave him a weak nod, waiting for them to explain to him. He remembered fuzzily about this week, but the confusion stayed as he couldn't really remember much.

"You should calm down first. Right now you are in a shock and I rather not want you to hyperventilate. I let you decide who you want to answer these questions."

Kaito let out a sigh and pulled him into a hug, but this time back pressed to him. Probably so that he could still write down. His body slowly calmed down again, yet he still couldn't get any words out. 

Kai-chan, can you tell me, please?

The said person was hugging a bit more tightly, but not enough to hurt him. Saguru could tell that he was relived and as he looked closely now at the other he could tell how pale he looked. It seemed that he had made him worried. 

"It is now a week. Um, I waited for you to come to our hotel room. But after 2 hours I felt like something wasn't right. That was why I decided to meet up with Tantei-kun. He was with Tantei-han..."

The other paused a bit as he cough, and his voice was still raspy. He felt the hug had been left for a moment as Kaito was given glass water. The male took a gulp, putting the glass away and hugging him again. Kaito proceeded to tell the rest of the story. His mind was working now, his thinking was going overboard. Saguru was now calmer and could think so much better.

It seemed that Shinichi knew who Kaito was. And he guessed that the detective of the east knew more than him. Maybe Shinichi knew the reason. He was slightly hurt by this, but he guessed that he was way too anxious to tell Saguru. Saguru was patient when it came to his boyfriend. 

He knows, doesn't he? Your reason behind beeing Kaito kid?

As he was finished writing, he showed it to Kaito. The other read and had eyes wide, and not saying anything. It took the other a bit as he then let out a sigh.

"Yeah, I chicken out whenever I wanted to tell you. I was planning to tell you that evening but..."

Saguru knew what he meant and shivered. He was frowning now as he thought what he should do now? His father was searching for him, and he was now missing for a week. He didn't want to worry about the other, but he couldn't talk at all.

"You can change to your normal body. We couldn't let you change with your head injury."

That was making sense and he was giving a nod toward Shinichi who had told him this. The other walked out of the room. Soon a girl came into the room, and Shinichi was then explaining to him that she was like him, shrunken into a child. She was the one who made the poison or more finished it as it were her parents who started it. Hearing what she had gone through made him feel bad for her. His voice still not working and he gave up, on talking as he was still terrified.

It was as someone is slightly strangling him, or having a tight collar on him, which made it impossible to get something out. He was scared to talk. The brit was sure it had to do psychological, a trauma which made him not talk. The British detective knew about the effects and wasn't surprised. 

"You sure you want to take it? It will be painful, a pain you never have felt before."

The other opened his mouth, trying to say something, but all that came out was wheeze. Kaito had let go of the hug and was leaning on the wall now.

"Sorry, Haibara. He can't talk."

Haibara pressed her lips together and let out a sigh as she was had a concerned expression.

"Shinichi, you sure it is a good idea? I am guessing that his psyche is doing this to him."

Taking out his note pad writing something down and showing it to the girl.

I have to get back my body. I know the risk, but I need to show my father that I am alive.

The girl muttered something under her breath that sounded  like 'Why are all detectives reckless morons.' Shinichi heard of course and glared down at the girl. The girl gave him back a deadpan expression and Kaito snorted at this.

"She has a point. Shinichi you are one of the most reckless people I know. Not to mention how many times had I rescue you when you were Conan?"

The other gave him an annoyed glare and which made Kaito just give him a deadpanned expression and a smirk. The interaction made him laugh, it was a soundless, but it was still a laugh. The two still way too occupied in arguing with each other. He let out a soundless sigh, standing up and slowly walking to Shiho. Who he knew now was her real name.

Are these two always like this?

The female shook his head at the two and shrugged as answer. It seemed that she was used to it. Both stopped arguing as they saw that the two interacting. With one writing down some stuff showing it to the other, and the female answering to his sentences.
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1451 wow, I didn't realize how much I had written. I had way too much in writing this chapter. I hope you enjoyed it how I did when writing it. Have a fantastic day. Until next chapter ja ne.~