Not proofread
Warnings: reader is trans male, self harm mentions, violence, possible triggering themes
this isn't really a oneshot but I wanted to do a trans male support and appreciation with Nekoma since it's pride month :,)

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I tapped my foot impatiently as I stood outside waiting for my boyfriend. He's always late and he knows we have to be quick so I won't get in trouble with other people.

"I'm here let's go now" my boyfriend said as he lightly huffed and didn't spare me another look as he walked into the boys bathroom. I angrily sighed as I looked around quickly and walked in right behind him.

Kuroo whistled as he carried two reusable water bottles towards the water fountain to refill. He filled the first one full and as he tried to screw in the cap he heard movement and he snapped his head up and made contact with the back of a boy into the bathroom. He shrugged and went back to refilling the other bottle.

He went towards one of the big stalls and went in waiting for me inside. I nervously bit my lip as I fixed my posture and went in. He quickly reached behind me and locked the stall.

"I missed you today~" he said as he walked close to me making me hit the stall door as I pulled my neck back. "I-oh..really~?" I tried to follow but I wasn't in the mood to do anything today.

"Yeah, I missed your soft lips.." he said as his thumb ran across my quivering lips that he chose to ignore and bit his lip at me. My nerves were all over the place. We would kiss and make out and all that but I never not get scared around him.

"O-oh..hey can we talk about our day instead?..I'm not in the m-ood.." I tried to say but he didn't let me finish as he smashed his lips onto mine. I gasped as my hands gripped the corners of my shirt in discomfort.

He held onto my jaw with one hand as the other one ran to my back. I tried to pull away but his grip was so tight on my jaw. I shut my eyes tightly hoping he'll pull away after a quick make out session.

He kissed me for a while until he pulled away and went to reach at my blazer. "H-hey what are-" I began but he cocked his head at me with a menacing look. I gulped nervously as he pulled it off and tried to run his hands under my shirt.

"H-hey! Stop! You know you can't!" I snapped as his hands stopped as he groaned loudly. "Why not?! Just let me have a peak.." he began as I angrily slapped his arms away. "You know why you ass!" I yelled at him. He gripped my wrists tightly as he laughed quietly. "W-whats funny?" I asked as I looked at my arms and froze.

They were still fresh from the day before yesterday. "Why do you keep doing it? It makes you seem pathetic. Don't do it again or I'll get mad" he said as he harshly ran his finger down my arm making my arm flinch and jump at the sudden pressure.

He pulled me away from the stall door as he flew it open and left with no other word. I bit my lip as I gripped my blazer and placed it back on and composed myself and sighed.

I left the bathroom and heard a whistle. I turned and brightly smiled putting on my persona everyone knows of to hide the real me. "Kuroo! Hey!" I yelled as I quickly walked over to him. "(Y/n)! I thought I saw you huh" he said with a chuckle.

"You guys still in practice?" I asked as I nervously looked around nervously hopping my boyfriend won't pop out of nowhere and disturb us. "Nah, were cleaning up right now. Do you wanna go say hi?" He asked and I quickly nodded.

He smiled as I followed him closely while still watching behind me. "You okay? You seem on edge" he asked as he held onto the gym doors. I shook my head with a laugh. "I'm alright haha!" I said as he hesitated and threw the door open.

I immediately met eyes with my boyfriend talking with kenma, well Kenma looked extremely uncomfortable. Kenma looked over and ran over to us without sparing another look at my boyfriend.

"(Y/n), he said he's here for you..but I-" Kenma tried to say but looked down. I bitterly gulped as I patted his hair softly feeling his smooth hair on my skin. "It's okay Kenma".

My boyfriend walked over and swung a tight arm around my shoulder but locked it around my neck. My breath hitched as I looked up at him with a look. He only looked down and smirked.

"You must be (y/n)'s friends, huh?" He said as Kuroo and Kenma nodded softly. Kuroo looked confused as to what he was getting at. "So you must be close with him, right?" He said as he pulled his arm closer to my throat. "H..hey that hurts.." I tried to say but I felt his other arm push harshly onto my back making me shut my mouth off.

"I don't get what you're getting at, dude?" Kuroo asked as he stepped a little closer growing even more concerned. My boyfriend lowly laughed as he leaned forward with a wide smile I've never seen before. "You must know his secret correct? That's he's actually a trans-" my boyfriend began but my eyes shot wide open as I shoved his arm off of me angrily.

Kenma stepped forward right next to me with a worried look. I turned to my boyfriend with a mean look. "Hey! That's not your story to tell you fucker!" I began until he looked around as he gained a lot of attention. "Watch me". He said sternly. I tried to walk and close his mouth but he already stepped backwards and brought his hands up to cup his mouth.

"(Y/n) is a huge fucking tr@nny! He's transgender! He's not a real boy! This one right here!" He shouted with all his might as he kept pointing at me with a wide smile. The whole gymnasium grew quiet as everyone grew worriedly at me.

I could feel the eyes on the back of my neck as my body grew cold and my vision became extremely blurred. I looked at the floor as tears were already spilling onto the polished floor as I could see my reflection.

"(Y/n).." Kenma tried to say but he didn't touch me but walked up to me. I didn't know what to do. I never expected this to happen and especially like this in front of people I cared about. They didn't deserve this. I didn't deserve this.

I pushed Kenma back gently as I gripped my fists and fast walked over to the asshole who was still grinning at me. "What? You're gonna punch me? You can't even-!" He tried to threaten but I pulled my right arm out and launched it onto his jaw very hard as I felt the impact on my knuckles.

"(Y/n)! Wait!" I heard Kuroo say as he tried to avoid any more conflicts but I was so enraged by the asshole laying on the floor. He stole something from me. My story. He stole it and I can't get it back anymore. Ever.

"You piece of shit! I fucking hate you! You scum!" I yelled angrily as kneeled down and kept punching him repeatedly even if my knuckles hurt badly. I kept crying and crying as blood started to appear as I punched over at his nose. He kept groaning in pain and didn't even get the chance to hit back since I didn't let him.

"Stop! That's enough!" Kuroo said as he pulled me back with some help of Kenma. As I was pulled away I thrashed around kicking wanting to still beat him to a pulp. "Let go Kenma!" I shouted at Kenma who was worried sick as he shook his head no as he held onto me tightly.

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"He promised he won't say anything so that's cleared" yaku said as he came back and came over to where we were all huddled up on the gym floor in a circle as Kuroo cleaned the floor where blood was.

"Do you want me to clean them?" Lev asked as he looked over nervously at me. I looked down to my knuckles and sighed. I pulled off my blazer and turned to him. He flinched as he took the first aid kit from Yamamoto and began to clean my knuckles as he kept glancing over at me.

I looked down and sighed. It was expected since that asshole told them my biggest secret. Kuroo cleared his throat as he sat next to me. "(Y/n)-" he began but I shook my head.

"It's okay, I'll talk. Yes it's true. I'm transgender. It's hard for me to even look at you guys and say this but I'll leave after Lev finishes so don't worry" I said with a weak smile. Kuroo placed a hand on my shoulder and shook his head.

"We want you to stay. You being transgender doesn't make you different than us apart from your physical appearance" Kuroo said with an encouraging smile. "Yeah! You're still the cool (y/n) we know!" Yamamoto shouted as he gave me a thumbs up.

Lev finally finished bandaging my knuckles and softly took my hands into his own big ones with a soft smile. "We might not know much about being transgender, but we do know that we'll support ya no matter what!" He said as Yaku agreed with lev for once.

My lips started to tremble and my eyebrows arched as I fought the will to start crying once again, I felt soft arms around my shoulders and a quiet voice followed. "You're still you. That's what matters" Kenma said as he flashed me a small smile.

That did it for me as I exploded in tears and sobs. The whole team brought their arms in and hugged me tightly while I was in the middle overwhelmed with emotions. I got great support from them meaning I don't have to suffer alone anymore. I can now grow closer with them with this experience.

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I'm sorry if it was rlly bad :,(