The world is unpredictable.

You will never know what will happen, no matter how aware you are of the situation, the world is full of surprises.

Some, are filled with grief, and others, joy.

But you can never predict which one it will be, no matter how small the decision.

Life is like a fork in the road, there's only one path you can follow; you can't have everything.

Which is why, you must cherish the things in your life wisely.

However, humans aren't perfect.

It is the harsh truth.

--

"Ne, Koushi~" you smile at the setter, who looked back at you with a smile as well.

"Yes, (F/N)?" he asks, tilting his head a bit to the side.

"Have you tired eating at the new cafe downtown? It's really good- I've tried it!" you exclaim, waving your arms around.

"Hmm? Not yet," he answers, giggling a bit at your actions.

"Ah, you need to try it. I'll take you there sometime, promise!" You give him a thumbs-up and started to wonder when you were free.

--

"What are you doing here?" you asked, still managing to pull a smile for your sweet boyfriend, who decided to visit you in the hospital. "Don't you have practice?"

"The question is," he began, "why didn't you tell me that you were sick?"

"Knowing you, you'd probably start worrying. And a lot, if I may," you told him.

"(F/N), I am not Asahi. I'm not going to start crying once you sneeze. I am also not Tsukishima. I care a lot, you know," he shook his head, feeling betrayed.

"I didn't want to bother you. With the Inter-High coming up, I wanted you to focus. I really want you to win," you explain.

"I do hope you realize that you are far more important than volleyball." The silver-haired setter kneeled down beside you and started stroking your hair gently. "I can't help but worry,"

"But you can't worry! I'm going to be fine, you know, Koushi? I'll win over this sickness. It's just like  small obstacle. Nothing I can't get over," you reassure him.

"I know. Because you're strong. You're the strongest person I've ever met, and I know you can do it. I know it, (F/N)." He grabs ahold of your hands and looks you in the eye, completely serious. "But you seriously could have told me,"

"Sorry, Koushi," you apologize, planting a small kiss on his forehead.

"It's fine. But I'll have you know that I'm coming here everyday, whether you like it or not," he smiles that bright smile of his, making you feel somewhat relieved at those words.

"Oh you better," you joke, chuckling.

"I thought you said you wanted me to focus on volleyball?" He shook his head, laughing.

"But I thought I meant more?" You pouted, giving him puppy dog eyes.

"How self-centered." He pats your head gently.

"Kidding. I'll ask Kiyoko to video chat with me during the match so I can yell as loud as possible. I'll have her get a sound system so my cheering will beat those of all the others~" you laugh.

"Doesn't sound too bad," he nods, enveloping you in a hug.

--

"You're late!" you whine jokingly, as the silver-haired boy was about 5 minutes late from his usual arrival time.

"Not my fault I decided to grab these along the way," he smiled and laid a beautiful bouquet of flowers beside you.

"Oh wow," you gasp, blushing at his surprise- it made you feel all fluffy inside. "Come here,"

You wrap your arms around his lean body, as he wrapped his own arms around yours.

For a while, you stayed in that position, squeezing him tightly because ugh, he was really damn sweet and managed to make you smile like an idiot.

This boy, this boy made your heart start racing, he made your smile get wider, he made your cheeks get red.

Despite the musty smell, and the freezing air conditioner, and the whole fact that you were still stuck on a bed, this boy practically turned the hospital into a Venice.

"You are a hella cute, Koushi. Stop, it's too much for my heart," you say, letting go of him.

"Nah," he winks and gives you a small kiss.

"You're too adorable, I can't take it!" you blush furiously.

"So are you, my dear. So are you,"

--

Months passed, and you weren't getting any better.

Your body started weakening, even if you and the hospital staff were all trying their best to fight the disease.

But it wasn't easy, especially with the countless chemicals being put in your body to kill the sickness.

Of course, Sugawara never failed to keep visiting you and making you smile, which in itself was amazing because this whole situation was depressing.

However, the world is not a very pitiful place.

"Koushi, I've only got a week."

"No. You have an entire lifetime ahead. You told me, (F/N). You told me you were going to win. You told me that it wasn't anything you couldn't get over."

"I'm starting to doubt what I said."

"You can't doubt yourself. Please. Please don't ever tell yourself that you're losing to this sickness. You can't lose.

"I know-"

"Remember what I said? You're strong, (F/N). You're undoubtedly strong. You can do it. I'm not leaving you until you get better."

"But-"

"No buts. If you're gonna fight this battle, you're not doing it alone. I'm here for you, and I always will be. No matter what."

"Thanks, Koushi."

"Anytime."

--

Here he was, standing in front of the box that contained her remains.

He couldn't bring himself to look at it, or anything, for that matter, because he did not want to live in a world without her.

"I'd like to call on Sugawara Koushi, (L/N)'s lover. Please step forward," a man in a black robe announced.

Sugawara nodded, walking in front of the small crowd with his head down and his fingers laced together.

"I'm Sugawara Koushi. I'm the guy who happened to fall in love with (L/N) (F/N).

And perhaps many of you are expecting me to say something that I rehearsed and all of that, but no. If I am going to say anything, it will be directly from my heart," he began, lifting his head up a bit to face the people.

"Now if there is anything that I never liked to tell her, it was the phrase 'I love you'.

And perhaps, at this very moment, everyone is wondering why in the world I never liked to tell her that specific phrase. It wasn't that I didn't love her, but rather because of the fact that love is deaf and words can have no meaning.

I would rather tell her that I would cross galaxies to see her again, or give her a whole lifetime supply of anime merchandise than to simply tell her 'I love you'. The phrase was way too common for an extraordinary person like (F/N) because she was much more deserving than three words that have been said by everyone. I wanted to show her that I wasn't lying about the relationship, so that she would never, ever, have to worry about wondering whether I really did love her or not, which I utterly, and most undoubtedly, did.

Like many others may know, (F/N) was never boring. She was someone of her own, as if she had her own little world, a world that she wanted everyone to see. She gave you this feeling that you couldn't leave her alone, like a curious and fragile butterfly who had wanted to go and live much more years than she ended up living. It isn't all bad, because this world is too cruel for someone like her.

It's hard to admit that maybe we were on different paths, and maybe we were never supposed to cross. But nevertheless, we did cross, and I think it's safe to say that it is the best crossing that has ever happened in my life."

--

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He walked along the streets, his eyes catching a glimpse of a dimly lit sign, belonging to small café on the side of the road.

He stopped in his tracks, a tear slipping down his cheek, his mouth emitting barely a whisper.

"You promised."

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A/N: i cried writing this, shut up.

based on a convo i had with my best friend,, inspiration hit

shut upppp what have i done?!!

I told myself i was gonna write angst- and a good angst.

then this hEAD OF MINE decided to gIVE ME HOPE --

I legitimately considered ending it in fluff.

BUT NOOOOOO

I CANT

please forgive me.

i'm legit crying im so sad

what is this madness?

you know what, screw it i dont care if i need to practice angst im going to write myself some fluff bc i need my fluff. im sure y'all need it too.

Im so sorry.

iM SO SORRy.

anyways, enough of that. THANK YOU FOR 11K READS GUYS I MEAN WHAT THE LATTES

11

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WHAT

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HOW?! I DO NOT UNDERSTAND, MY READERS! I DON'T!

T HANK YOU GUYS! THANK YOU SO MUCH! I CANT EXPRESS MY GRATITUDE AHHHHHH

And btw sorry the eulogy is rlly short and uGHHH how do you write a eulogy??

and if there are grammar erroRS PLEASE TELL ME

msg me if you guys wanna talk! dont be shy, i dont bite uwu

anyways i gtg sleeep

jaa, ne~

-nyx