Iwaizumi and Oikawa had been hooking up for a while now. 

It had started the summer after their last year of high school. The third years all had a lot of free time before they went to college, so a couple times a week they got together to play volleyball. There was a park right near Iwaizumi's house that had a beat up old net that they played at. 

Sometimes their underclassmen would join when they didn't have official training. It was just a way to pass the time. A way to pretend they wouldn't all be parting ways in a few months. 

The warm summer nights allowed them to play until pretty late every evening. Sometimes they would all go out to eat after, but most of the time everyone just went home for the night. 

Not too long after they started playing outside, Oikawa went back to Iwaizumi's house with him. They got drunk and had sex. After an awkward morning, Oikawa had spent a lot of time thinking. He didn't really like Iwaizumi that way... They had been friends since they were little. 

But it kept happening. It became a regular thing. They always went to Iwaizumi's because his parents were generally asleep before then. They also didn't really seem to care. 

"So what is this?" Oikawa asked one night, curled up in bed with his back pressed against Iwaizumi's chest. 

"What do you mean?" Oikawa flipped around to face his best friend. 

"We haven't really talked about this, whatever it is. Like, do you have feelings for me?"

"Uh... I don't know. You're my best friend, Tooru. And I just got out of that relationship..." Oikawa was aware. Iwaizumi's girlfriend of two years had broken up with him after graduation. Oikawa had felt bad for his friend. "I think I just missed being with someone... I'm sorry, I know that sounds bad."

"No, no, it's fine. I don't think I really want a relationship right now. It's too much of a burden, especially right now. I don't want that responsibility," Oikawa said. He was pretty sure he was being honest. He didn't want a relationship. He didn't want to have to be responsible for another person. But cuddles and sex? That worked for him. "I think I might have feelings for you, like more than in a friend way. But that doesn't really matter. They're just feelings."

"Just feelings..." Iwaizumi repeated. "Yeah. You're right. And I don't need a relationship, either. But this is fine? Just this?" Oikawa could hear the concern in his friend's voice. They were best friends after all. Iwaizumi wouldn't want to hurt him. 

"Yeah. I like this."

So they acted like everything was the same. They were just friends. Just friends that also hooked up a couple times a week. Sometimes they would go back to Iwaizumi's house and just watch TV. 

But they didn't tell anyone. No one thought it was weird that they hung out a lot. They were best friends. Hanamaki would always joke that they would never get girlfriends because they were always around each other. They would just shrug and say that it would be different in college. 

Although, that always left a little pang in Oikawa's heart. It would be different in college. They weren't going to the same place. In fact, they would be several hours apart. He pushed away the thought again and again. That wasn't for a while now. 

He was only dreading it because he would lose his best friend, right? That was it. 

The summer went by in the blink of an eye. They played almost every night. Sometimes they had enough people for a 6 vs 6, but usually they played 2 vs 2s and 3 vs 3s. Oikawa worked his job at the bagel shop in the mornings and early afternoons. Iwaizumi helped out on a family friend's farm, and when harvesting season started up, Oikawa would often wake up to an empty bed and an empty house. 

The first of August rolled around and suddenly college became all that more real. They would both move in in three weeks. Everything would be different in three weeks. The thought dampened Oikawa's moods just a little bit. Sure, he was excited for college, but everything had been so good the past few months... It hurt to leave. 

It was one of those hot and humid August nights. Iwaizumi's parents were out of town, so the pair sat on the back porch and drank liquor from his parents pantry. 

"Still can't believe we'll be moved in in less than a few weeks," Iwaizumi said.

"Ugh, don't remind me," Oikawa said, taking another sip from his drink.

"Why not? Not looking forward to it?" 

"Not quite..." Oikawa pushed his hair off his forehead. "Ah, I guess I thought saying no to a relationship would save me from all the feelings that usually come along with it." Oikawa knew he probably would regret saying this, but alcohol always made him brutally honest. And so what? It was a few weeks. Then it wouldn't matter. "I think you're breaking my heart, Iwa-chan."

"Ah, I see." Iwaizumi was looking at Oikawa with a look he couldn't quite decipher. 

"I kind of set myself up for failure, didn't I?"

"Well, if it makes you feel better, I think I did, too." Oikawa arched his eyebrow at this. 

"Really?"

"Oh, come on, Tooru. You and I both know you're irresistible." Oikawa laughed at this. And then Iwaizumi started laughing, too. Soon, they were both gripping their sides and panting from laughter. 

"Look at us! We've gone and caught feelings!" 

"How foolish of us!"

Oikawa was the first to recover, still smiling to himself and catching his breath. 

"You know, Iwa-chan. I think I might love you," Oikawa said, looking up at the stars. It was easier than looking at his friend. 

"I'm sorry." A pause. "I think I might love you, too." At that, Oikawa turned to make eye contact with Iwaizumi. "But is that really all that different than it's always been?" Oikawa chuckled to himself. 

"Ah, I guess not." He took a deep breath. They were laughing, but that tugging in his chest wouldn't leave him alone. Oikawa would miss Iwaizumi. A lot. And as he looked into his best friend's eyes, he realized that he didn't even know the half of it yet. "Two weeks, and what, 3 days? Two weeks to do it right. What do you say?" 

"What do you mean?"

"Oh, you know. Two weeks to go on dates. Two weeks to hold hands in public. Two weeks to do all the coupley things we didn't do for the past two months," Oikawa said wistfully. As if they could make up for that much lost time. He saw a small smile start to creep onto Iwaizumi's face. 

"Yeah sure. Two weeks to do it right." He reached out to take Oikawa's hand. They stayed like that for a moment. The alcohol must have been making the night seem more surreal than it was, but Iwaizumi almost looked like he was glowing in the moonlight. He was beautiful, Oikawa couldn't help but think. True enough, how could he have this beautiful of a best friend and not fall for him?

"Remember when I said it was just feelings?" Oikawa said, thinking back on that night that defined the rest of their summer. 

"Yeah, I do."

"Biggest understatement of the year." 

"You got that right. Seems like feelings are anything but 'just,'" Iwaizumi said. He tugged lightly on Oikawa's hand and Oikawa got up to go sit on the couch next to him. Oikawa leaned his head on Iwaizumi's shoulder. 

"Hajime? I'm glad you're my best friend." Iwaizumi squeezed his hand. 

"I'm glad you're my best friend, too, Tooru." Oikawa squeezed his hand back as a single tear slipped down his cheek. 

He didn't want to leave this. It hurt too much. 

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hey this made me really sad

anyway this is my official announcement that i barely have any will to write anymore so there might not be another one shot after this one. i don't know though. just don't expect one, and then if i do post one, it'll be a nice surprise. 

quarantine is making me really sad. i have exams for the next two weeks. i want to see my friends. i'm feeling really sad. 

that's all. i hope things are well with all of you. thanks for reading.