NOTE: Yeah dark romance book hai. Aur dark romance books mein stalking, killing, kidnapping and all chalta hai. I know it was unexpected for you all, but Sana's character is like that. Morally gray. She is a, "Touch him (Sidharth) and die," girl. Mostly, people write and like the morally gray MMC. Where the guy does all this stuff. Killing, stalking and all. But, mine one is different. My FMC is morally gray. ☺️

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"Princess?"

Sidharth? Where did he come from? Isn't he supposed to be at home? Relaxing? Sleeping? Or reading a book?

To be sure, I turned my head behind to check and there he was standing tall, in the same clothes when I last saw him. White shirt and black pants. He has a shocked reaction on his face, and his horrified eyes are glued on my dead mom.

I quickly got on my feet and ran to him. He didn't move from his place nor did he blink his eyelashes. He looked like a statue to me. He was too stunt seeing me and mom like this. Seeing me as her killer.

I want to hug him tightly and cry on his shoulder not out of pain that I just lost my mom. Or I killed her. But I need him to feel safe, and cry that he is my man and he still loves me and wants me in his life. If he doesn't want me now I will definitely kill myself with that same knife tonight. I can't imagine a life without him.

I stopped myself, in front of him bowing my head down. Not because I'm ashamed of what I did. But because I was disappointed by him, by killing my mother. I know that. But, I couldn't control myself from doing it anyways. She tried to separate us, so she deserved to die. It was her only punishment, which she deserved.

I want to hold him tightly, at least his hands to feel him now. But, I don't want any blood on him. He is pure. He is not a murderer. So, he won't get impure touching any blood. Even if that means I have to stay away from him tonight. He can touch me, only after I clean myself, taking a long bath going home.

I quickly removed the gloves from my hands and threw them on her body. The fire will burn this too, later. While removing the gloves, I accidentally got blood in my hands.

Fuck man!

"Sidharth! What are you doing here? When did you come? And, how did you find me? Here?" I asked, looking at him, eagerly waiting for his answer.

He finally comes in sense and looks at me in anger. Taking a deep breath he asked, "What the fuck you did Sana? You killed her? Your mom? Have you lost your mind?"

"Do you hate me, now?" I asked. I will go crazy, if he hates me after this mess I did. I can't live with this thought.

"Sana!" He rubbed his face in anger, then pulled my bloody hands in front of my eyes. "See, what have you done?"

"Will you leave me? For this?" I asked, again.

He didn't say anything. That means he will?

"If you do, I'll kill myself right here, with that knife." The next moment I received a hard slap on my face.

"SIDHARTH,"

He harshly grabbed my shoulder and pulled me near him and yelled, "What the fuck are you saying? Have you lost your fucking mind? You will kill yourself with that knife? Huh? I'll kill you if you try to do that. You fucking idiot."

"Do you hate me? Will you leave me? Now?" I really need to know. Clearly.

He cupped my face firmly and made me look into his dark eyes, "No. I DON'T hate you. I am NOT leaving you. But, I am definitely worried for you, and your future. Princess."

"So, you still love me? You still want me in your life? Right?"

"Yes. Call me stupid or dumb or a fucking crazy person but I still love you Sana Gill. And, I definitely need you to live. Do you hear me?" He yelled.

I finally smiled, feeling relaxed. "I love you too, baby." And hugged him without holding him with my bloody hands.

No blood on him. Especially of that bitch.

He broke the hug, and looked at the body aka my so-called dead mom.

"You just killed your Mom, Sana. You killed her!" He said in horror looking at her.

"Don't look at her. She is ugly." He looked at me in disbelief. "I mean, was. And, She deserved it."

"Just because she told my mom that you are a psychopath. Which you are. And you killed Ms. Mili. Which you didn't. And you are a murderer. Which you become right now. Doesn't mean you will kill her?"

So, he talked with his mom after I left home. And, he got an idea what I am up to tonight. As I already told him, I am going to meet Mom. And, I already told him about the killing part too, when he joked if I was going to kill someone today. But I am curious to know how he found me. How did he get to know I would be here?

"How did you get to know, I would be here?"

"Seriously?" He looked at me in disbelief. As if I asked something stupid.

"Tell me."

"Your fucking laptop told me. You tracked her location? You stalked her? You even hacked Samira's social accounts? Why?"

"Don't bring that bitch now. Or else,"

"Or else, what? You will kill her too?"

"Yes. I will." I said firmly.

He looked shocked. "Sana?"

"Don't be so shocked. Because, I will kill every bitch (pointing mom) of this world to keep you with me." I declared him.

"You have lost your mind, Sana. This is not right. Killing people is not right." He said, in anger.

"I don't know what is right and what is wrong, and I don't see what is right and what is wrong when it comes to YOU. You are fucking mine Sidharth. Only fucking mine. And, whoever will try to separate you, from me. I will fucking kill that person and burn them into ashes."

"I am yours, Princess." Suddenly his voice softened, "I am telling you this right. Then why kill innocent people like this? I am not understanding this killing thing?"

"Innocent?" I couldn't help but laugh. He really thinks my mom was innocent. She could be anything but innocent.

"What's so funny?"

"This bitch," I pointed to mom, "tried to separate US, Sidharth. She tried to separate YOU from me. And, I fucking can't live without you. So, does that make her innocent? I don't think so. It was her biggest mistake."

"Sana? This is still wrong." He kept arguing about it.

"She poked me to do it. She compared us, with her and her lover. She compared YOU with him. Are you both the same? No." I said getting angry at her.

"What?"

"Yeah! She did. Right here." I pointed to her body. "Then, I killed her."

"Have you lost your mind Sana? For this small thing you killed her?"

"Small thing? Covering her shit with our name doesn't make her a saint. We are far better than them. She was married to my Dad, and still had an illegitimate relationship with him. My so-called uncle. We are not married. We didn't cheat on anyone. Plus, he was a fucking molester. He almost raped me..But, you are not. That!"

"I know. But, she was talking nonsense Princess. And, you did this," He made faces looking at her. Obviously, she is a disgusting piece of shit.

"For her, your mom asked me to leave you. She tried to separate, us. And, I already told you, whoever will try to do that, that person will be this," I pointed to Mom, "Dead. Remember?"

"I do, remember that. But, this was not right. Killing someone like this is NOT right. Okay?" He yells in irritation.

"Your Mom, threatened me that she will kill herself. If I don't leave her son alone. So, I was ready to leave you and kill myself later. This woman made her do that, with her venomous words. Can you forgive her now?" I asked.

"What? Mom?" He looked shocked with this new information.

"Yes! Ask your mom about it. She will tell you for sure." How dramatic she is. I am sure she can't kill herself. She doesn't have that thing in her. Craziness.

"How could she? Mom? I can't believe this woman. She knows I love you. Still, she!" Now he is pissed on his mother.

"She was destined to die in my hands. She did it to herself. I just did what she asked for. You should have seen her face, when I stabbed her heart." I smiled remembering that moment.

"You stabbed her heart with our kitchen knife?" He asked.

"Yes. It was very good. She almost died on the first stab. I will give a good review for it. 5/5."

"You are talking like an INSANE person Sana."

I smirked, "Because, I am. I am insanely in love with you, Sidharth. Take it or leave it, but you're fucking mine. And, you are stuck with me forever." I didn't know, when my voice got so dark until I saw terror in his eyes.

"Are you scared of me, Baby?" This time I kept my voice normal. "Don't be. I won't hurt you ever. Before doing it, I'll kill myself."

"No." He bites his lips briefly. As if he is trying not to get emotional. But I can see tears in his eyes.

"Sidharth?"

He cupped my face gently, "I-I am," His voice broke.

"Sidharth? What happened?" Now I'm getting scared.

"I am scared for you, Princess. I am scared for you. I-I don't want to lose you. At any cost. You know?"

I nod. "You won't. I promise."

"This can put you behind the bar Princess. You killed her," His broken voice is breaking me.

"Baby you don't need to worry about her. I will burn her here anyways. So, no one's gonna know. People will know, only until and unless you go to the police and tell them, that I killed her."

He looked at me in disbelief, "If she will be missing for a long time, then your father and Harman will start looking for her. Police will get involved then. Have you thought about all these? Your future?" He yelled in anger.

"I will tell Dad. He will handle everything. Like he did with that asshole Manish. People think he died in an accident. But, I know Dad killed him. Putting two bullets here," I pointed my chest, "and the rest of the four bullets here." I pointed to his cock. "Because he tried to rape me. Not because he fucked his disloyal wife."

"I know this. So, this was your backup plan? Taking help from your Dad?" He asked in disbelief

I nod. "Yes. He can do anything for me. He loves me. And, I am sure if I would have told Dad about her deed, he himself would have killed her, for me." I said with confidence. I know he would.

"That would be a better option," He taunted, then made faces looking at her body. "This is sick."

I looked back to see her, she actually looked disgusting. Her face reminds me of what she said to me in the end, before I killed her. In anger, I ran to her and kicked on her stomach. She wanted to kill me in her womb. Huh? I'll kick on her womb then.

"Fuck you bitch,"

"Oh God! Sana," Sidharth comes running to me and pulls me away.

"Leave me Sidharth. Let me re-kill that bitch." I tried to come out of his hold but he held me back more tightly.

"Shut up. Stay away from her, God damn it." He dragged me away from her and held me tight from my shoulder to make me stand still.

"Sidharth please let me kick on her womb. Please," My voice sounded desperate.

"No. You will stay away from her. And, What's wrong with you Sana? Why are you doing this?"

"Sidharth, do you know what she said to me? Before I attacked her?" If he comes to know that I'm sure he will hate that bitch more than I do.

"What?" He asked, looking at me curiously

"She wished, me to get raped by him that night."

"What?" He grasps in shock. Obviously it's a shocking thing.

Honestly, it's an abnormal thing.

"Yes. My so-called mother wanted me to get raped by her lover. She even wanted to kill me in her womb. When she said this shit. I lost my mind and killed her. If she doesn't want me. I don't want her either." I said, looking down. I was feeling ashamed to even tell him and look into his eyes.

"Are you kidding me?" He asked in disbelief

"Don't you trust me?" I asked, raising my head up to look at him.

If he says he doesn't, I'm seriously going to kill myself right now. I don't want to live with this that my love don't trust me but that fucking dead bitch.

"How could a mother think like this Sana? Is it possible? Really?" After saying this, he moved away from me.

I felt rejected.

"Do you trust me or not? Just tell me God damn it." I yelled in irritation, moreover in fear.

He again grabbed my shoulder and pulled me into his arms, and hugged me tightly.

"I trust you, Princess. I trust you more than anything in this world. I am just shocked that a mother can be like this." He whispered, and kissed my neck sweetly in the end.

"Really? You trust me?" Happy tears started to fall down from my eyes.

"Yes. I do." He said firmly

"If you had said, you don't trust me. I swear to God, I would have kill myself here." He held me more tightly.

"Shut up Sana. Shut the fuck up. Please, stop talking about death. I am not liking this anymore." He begged.

"I can't live without you, your love and your trust, Sidharth. You're my only family. If you leave me, I'll die." I said, crying.

"Me too, Princess. Me too," I smiled hearing this and kissed his heart, marking it mine, for the nth time.

"I'm glad you are with me, Sidharth." I whispered against his ear, literally blessed to have him in my life.

"I had to. But, have you thought about what to do with her body? I am really feeling sick. You know. I might just vomit or something." I can feel the disgust in his sickening voice.

"Don't worry, I'll burn her down into ashes." I kissed his cheeks lovingly and broke the hug, and walked towards my so-called Mom to punish her a little more.

"What are you doing?" He gasps, seeing me wearing my gloves again.

"I will just have some fun time my Mommy." I smirked, before stabbing right at her heart, again.

It will be fun, playing with her.

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