SIDHARTH POV

"You look happy now. What's the matter Sidharth?" Harsh ask, but I ignore him.

"What magic Ms. Gill did on you? Tell me. Am I missing something? Tell me like a good friend do." He again ask, and I again ignore.

"Damn it! Sidharth? What the hell? Stop ignoring my presence for God sake. Will you talk? Are you deaf? Or mute? What the hell man?" He got impatient.

But I ignore him again. No! For fuck sake, I'm not gonna talk or discuss with him or anyone from this college or outside this college about me and Sana. And definitely not what kind of relationship I share with her. I'm not comfortable with it. Everyone is very judgmental here. In this fucking country. Moreover, I believe in one thing. A theory.

The theory is, More the people will know about your relationship, more the people will talk shit about your relationship and your partner. Then it will affect you. Mentally. Plus, their comments affect the relationship too. Yes. It does. As much as you say or claim. "I don't give a shit to this useless people who can do nothing but gossiping and judging other people's business (that couple)." It's fucking bullshit. It do affect the relationship. And, I'm not in a mood for all this shit. I'm protective for my love. So is for my relationship with Sana. So, yeah! To protect my relationship and Sana I need to keep my mouth shut. For our sake.

"What is this Sidharth?" He groan in irritation.

Yes. Do it. Because, even I'm getting pissed. Even I want to goan and scream. Because of you. And your bloody questions.

"Stop ignoring me." He sounds irritated.

"So stop playing KBC with me alright. And stop irritating me." I say, irritated.

"It's just Ms. Gill. Why are you getting hyper? I'm just asking about your beautiful friendship with her." He explains.

"I know. But I don't wanna talk about her now. And why so many question about her? You already know what kind of relationship I share with Ms. Gill. She has already told you in brief." I explain calmly.

"I know. But I wanted some inside story." He winks at me.

I rolled my eyes, "That's stupid. Stop acting like a gossip girl here. Act like a grown up man. Like a professor do." I lectured.

"Whatever! Your love life is quite mysterious." He is bluffing now.

"Shut up! And I'm leaving. Stay happy with your little wife." I taunt, pointing his red ink pen.

He is happily married with a woman name Kritika. That's why Sana don't feel insecure or possessive about my friendship with Harsh. Those two words, because I and Harsh share a good friendship bond. Like bros. We joke. We laugh. We tease. In this, sometime I joke that Harsh is acting like my nagging girlfriend. And he joke back that he is not my girlfriend but boy friend. And, as she knows how I'm not safe around man's too.

"Whatever! See ya..." He says, as I got up to go.

"See you tomorrow." Saying I left from there.

I walk to the parking area waiting for my Uber car to arrive. The app shows it will reach in two minutes. Honestly, I sometime feel Uber is more costly than getting a new car. I'm thinking to buy one. Maybe! I'll buy one in black. Or red? I'm thinking to ask Sana for a colour and brand suggestion. I have good knowledge about cars. But still I would love to have her opinion. She will feel good and special. That she is important to me. Which is true. She is important to me. One of the most important person in my life. After my mom and sister. My family.

My car stop in front me, and I get in back seat and closed the door behind with a thud sound. The driver starts driving. And God knows why but the man looks familiar a little. I have seen him somewhere. Where? I don't remember. Whatever.

Now my main focus is on my love, Sana. She is up to something. Something to surprise me or to shock me. Moreover, today is the day when I and Sana will become one. As promise that I made to her. I'll make love to her tonight. And, I don't know why? But. I'm feeling nervous a little. It's not my first time with a girl. But it's definitely very very very.. special for me. As it's first time with my true love, Sana.

Plus, it's her first time. I want to make it special for her. I need to be gentle. I need to control myself. I need to act patience with her tonight. Which is little difficult for me. Obviously. Seeing her fully naked under me. Is quite difficult to control myself. But I have to. For her. She must have so many expectations from her first time. From me. I need to live up to that. That's make me even more nervous right now. Her expectations?

I am thinking to buy her a beautiful gift. But what? That's another thing. To think? After all, she will lose her virginity to me. She trusts me a lot. And I need to live up to her expectations and trust in me. What should I buy? Argh! I'm so bad at gifts. Should I ask for help? But from whom?

Harsh? No. Gossip girl. Sanvi? No. She don't know much about my love life. Yet. That I'm dating my student. A girl who is 15 years younger than me. Plus, my best friend niece. Like, this I can't even ask help from Harman. It will be so awkward. She is his niece. His baby. She is like his daughter. Eww! Mom? What the fuck! Man! What's wrong with me? Mom? Like seriously?

Tring! Thing!

Who's calling now? Thinking; I took out my phone to check. It's Mom. Wow! What a timing mom. You will live 100 years. And more.

"Hello! Mom! How are you?" I ask, acting normal. Trying hard not to think what I was thinking before. Asking help from her what gift should I buy for Sana. As she will lose her virginity to me. It's disgusting to think even.

"Hello! I'm good. Son. You tell me, how are you? How's your college going?" Mom ask in her sweet voice, making me smile.

"I'm good mom. And, my college is also going well. How's Sanvi? And my cute niece?" I ask. It's been long I have talked with my sister and her daughter Ananya. With whom Sana thought I had cheated on her. Or to say it precisely, I let her think so.

"They're good. They are missing you. Like, I'm missing you a lot." She looks sad. Her voice sounds sad.

"Mom! Is everything okay? Are you really okay? And them? Brother-in-law?" I ask getting restless, thinking something wrong has happened behind my back there which I don't know. Yet. But everything was fine till last day. Then what happened suddenly? I'm both confused and worried now.

"We're just missing you a lot. It's been long I have seen you. In person." She says, sadly.

Is she trying to change the topic? I guess. Yes. She is.

"Mom! What's the matter? I know it's not about me. I have visited Delhi one and a half months ago. Now tell me honestly, what is it?" I ask getting impatient now. And for my shock, mom started to cry, panicking me.

"Mom! Mom! Mom! Calm down. Take a deep breath." I ask, as she is crying hard now.

"Mom! Calm down. What's the matter? Goddamn it! Mom?" I suddenly start shouting losing patience.

"Stop.. screaming at me." She scold me in between her sobbing.

"Sorry. But I'm panicking. And I'm worried for you and Sanvi and Ananya. So, stop crying. And tell me. What happened? In just 24hr.? Everything was fine yesterday. Right?" I ask to be sure.

"Yes. Everything was fine. Till yesterday. Till today morning." She replied. Sniffing.

"Then what happened now?" I don't know how many times, I have asked this same fucking question to her in last 5 or 10mins.

"Mom! Stop. Crying for God sake." I beg. She is still crying. Non-stop.

"Yes." She paused and sniff, "I'll tell you." Again pause to sniff, "Your sister..." pause to sniff, "She.." Sniff

"Mom. Stop. Talking. First go and wash you face with cold water. Get a grip on you. Then tell me." I say calmly.

"Okay. I'll be just right back." She put the call on hold.

Honesty, her sniffing and crying is making me mad. Somewhere. I was in such a good mood about fifteen minutes ago; before she called me. Sana's surprise. Me thinking to buy a gift for her. Me thinking from whom I can ask for help. I should order something online. Yes. I quickly went in a website and order a gift from there. Giving it's description. I chat with the website manager to ask them to send it by tonight. But the girl said the gift will be done by tonight. And they will send it tomorrow. It made me upset for sure. They make custome made stuff. I send "okay".

"What are you looking at?" I ask, the Uber driver in irritation. I have noticed he was looking at me through the rare mirror when we were stuck in signal few minutes back.

"Nothing sir." He replied. Looking in the front, on street now.

"I don't know. But. Why do I feel I have seen you before? Have we met before?" I ask, not able to surpass my curiosity. Where on other side I was thinking when Mom will come back on line.

"Maybe! I don't know sir. The world is very small. Random people meet everyday. On streets. In lift. Under the building loby. Outside airport. In car. Outside a hotel. In park. In gym. In school...." I cut him off.

"Stop. Fine. I understood. Stop." God! This is ridiculous. I internally groan in irritation. My irritation got amplified when he turn on music system and a ridiculous song played.

White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin', you're on your tippy toes
Creepin' around like no one knows
Think you're so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Don't say thank you or please
I do what I want when I'm wanting to
My soul? So cynical

So you're a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just can't get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
I'm that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
I'm the bad guy, duh

I'm the bad guy

"STOP. THIS. SONG." I said in irritation. Where the fuck in my Mom?

"It's a good song?" He argued

"Stop it. NOW." I scream. And he did stop the song. "Tha-" I was about to say thank you. But what he said made me grasp in shock.

"Why do you hate this song so much? Why do you ask me to turn it off everytime? I don't understand your hatered for this song. It suites you sir." He says in frustrated tone.

I'm shocked. Both with his tone and words. But how dare he? "Mind your language and tone dude. I can fire you complaining to the company. And your agency." My voice deadpan.

"Whatever!" He says before concentrating on driving.

"Weird asshole." I mumbled under my breath. But where is this woman? Mom? I thought to finally check my phone. Is she for real? She cut the call? And didn't bother to call me back then?

"What the fuck!" I curse before calling her back. She picked up after three ring. "Hello! Mom! What the he-"

"Hello! Sid uncle? Anu here." Comes a very sweet voice of my little darling, Ananya. My niece.

"Hey! Darling. How are you?" I ask sweetly

"I'm good. How are you?" She reply in her sweet voice vanishing my irritation and anger.

"I'm good. Anu.. Darling. Is you and Mumma at granny place?" I ask.

"Yes. We are." She admits.

"Okay. So, When you guys came? And where is your dada?" I don't know why but I felt like asking this little girl. Then asking her to pass the phone to Mom. Mom could lie but not my Anu darling.

"In morning. At .. um... what was the time?" Looks like she is talking to herself. Trying to remember the time. She is such a cutie pie. I feel like kissing her whole face and eat her up. She is a total goofball. Sana will love her.

"Baby?" I call her.

"Yes. I remember. It was 10:17. I saw the time before leaving the house. Yes. 10:17." She says the time so precisely. Wow!

"Where's your Dada?" I ask again.

"Home. He is angry. Mumma is angry. They fight. Loud voice." She says in her broken vocabulary.

"They were screaming at each other? They were fighting?" I ask to confirm

"Yes. Screaming. Fighting. Molly aunty." She says

"Who is Molly?" I ask her like an idiot. As if she knows. She is a kid goddamn it.

"She is ... She work with dada. She comes home too. Gives me chocolate. I love chocolate. When will you give me chocolate? When will you come?" She starts complaining.

"Soon baby. Where is mommy? Or granny?" I ask

"Mumma crying. Hugging granny in room." She says. And I somewhere understood by now what happened. My blood boiled in anger just with the thought.

"Okay. I'll call mumma. And baby. Take care of you and mumma. Okay?" I instructs her.

"Okay. Bye." And she cuts the call.

That fucking asshole cheated on my sister with that bitch Molly. I can't believe Rajeev will do something like this. Seriously. He loves her so much. Then. How? How can he do this? Or I'm thinking wrong? I'm so clueless! I need my Sana now. I need to calm myself. My chaos mind. Then I'll call Sanvi to know what's the truth.

"We have reached." The driver said.

Thank God! Thinking I pay the fare and got down from car. And walk fast inside the building. I enter in lift. Pressed 8, as I live on 9th floor. Once I reach my floor I quickly walk to my apartment and press the doorbell knowing well Sana will be inside. She have the keys. It's been few seconds but no sound came. No movement from inside.

"Strange?" So I again press the doorbell few more times but no response.

"This is weird. I need to call her. Is she okay?" I quickly took out my phone and called her up. It's ringing.. ringing... still ringing... and finally she picked up the call.

"Hello!" Her voice came from other side.

"Princess! Where are you? Open the door. I'm outside." I say

"I can't open."

"Why?" This is ridiculous.

"I can't show my face to you. Now." She is begging. Almost at the verge of crying.

WHY EVERYONE IS CRYING TODAY? MOM. SANVI. NOW SANA? WHAT A BAD DAY?

"Why? Why is that? And don't fucking cry now." I warn hearing her sniffing already.

"I'm not crying." And she stars crying eventually. "I look horrible." She cry harder.

"Baby open the door. NOW. Like right now." I order in irritation.

I'm so done with crying today.

"You don't love me don't you?" She ask sobbing. Then I heard some movement inside the house.

"Open the door Sana." I say it again. Ignoring her nonsensical question. What kind of a question is that even? Huh!

"What happened to you?" I ask, in shock. As soon as the door swang open. She is standing in front of me covered with white powder. From top to bottom. As if it fall on her from top.

She is quite. So I quickly enter inside the house and locked the door behind. When I turn around I saw her going towards bedroom. Like a fucking bullet train. So I follow her behind.

"What is it?" I ask pointing her, as I enter in bedroom. She is standing outside the bathroom door. Looks like she is about to enter inside to change. Or maybe will take a bath. Her hair is covered with white powder.

"Flour." Saying she went inside the bathroom and locked the door behind with a thud.

"Flour?" What was she doing with flour? Next moment I quickly walk towards my kitchen. I grasp seeing the view infront of me. The whole kitchen is covered with flour. There's a grocery bag filled with potatos and herbs and few other things. There's a red wine bottle on kitchen island. With new two wine glass. A bag of cake box and cookie box from bakery shop. A bag filled with candles and a bag of flowers. Red roses.

"God! What a mess? She was trying to cook for me? Aloo paratha. Cake. Cookies. Red wine. Red rose. Candles. Everything is..." I smiled thinking she was trying to surprise me with her handmade lunch. To proof she is an ideal girlfriend. Plus she cares for me that I was missing homemade food cooked by my family. Not a maid. "So sweet of her."

I quickly went in bedroom and walked to bathroom. She is still inside.

"Princess. I love you. You are so sweet baby. You wanted to cook lunch for me. Aloo paratha. My favourite. So sweet of you." I say happily

"Seriously? You still love me? I'm looking like a ghost. And your kitchen. It's totally destroyed. Don't mock me. Alright." She replies sobbing.

"1st, stop crying. 2nd, don't call my Princess a ghost. Because, she is the most beautiful girl in this world to me. 3rd, come out and show me your face. Or open the damn door. 4th, I don't give a shit about my kitchen. The maid will clean it. 5th, we can order food online. And you can cook later. As I'm hungry so is you for sure. 6th but last, I love you a lot. With or without flour. Now open the door." I say firmly and she finally open the door.

I notice she is still wearing college clothes. Flour is almost gone from her. Everything is clean apart from her hair. She need a bath and new clothes. I'll give her mine.

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