Johnathon pov

well today is my birthday and i want to tell Evan i love him but i'm scared what will he think of me will he hate me will he have the same feelings for me I don't know anymore ahhhhh

"Luke your there sorry to talk to you I don't know what you do up there in heaven but I have been in love with Vanoss the boy with Mohawk like hair.Anyway I love but..." I start to cry because of the memory " I MISS YOU LUKE I really do it's lonely in this universe I could die any moment now but now I cut just do die and join you in heaven but you tell me to stay here why do you?" I yell to no one but Luke died because of me.  

"hey Lukey come here I found a bug."  A 4 year old me said " be careful Johnathan." A 10 year Luke said " you don't want to be hit by a car." Luke said  " I'm careful come look Lukey ." I say 

10 years later

"Hey cartooz I found something in the road come look" a 14 year old me said. I go into the middle of the road with out looking and found a penny  " Johnathan watch out....." Luke said before saving me from the car that almost hit me " Luke are you ok?" I say while in tears  " My last I want to see is your smile." Luke said. I try smiling but it worked and he smiled back but died in my arms and I became Delirious after words a killer  my  mom died after and my dad took care of me but he was a killer as well so no help there. ( took me alone time to do this super sad :( ) 

Present day

 I yell  " why did you want me to smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!" " john are you ok you are yelling at nothing?"  Vanoss said confused with a smirk. " How long were you there Vanoss?" i ask. " the whole time Johnathan so you had a brother before and you were talking to him and his name was Luke." Vanoss said and I nod " and you love me?" Vanoss blushed at what he said " I love you Vanoss you made me not cut and help with my dad and help me no matter what." i say in tears " I feel the same to you John you can tell me anything and your laugh your smile makes me happy Johnathan I love you" Vanoss said "kiss him!" said Luke  "ok" i thought I take of my mask and show Evan my face for the first time  " I...." he couldn't even talk " I know i'm hideous on the outside." I say but he comes up and says " no your beautiful all over your body Johnathan." him doing a sexy voice that some how turned me on. " Vanoss not now please" i ask I hear a knock at the door so I put my mask on and run downstairs and see who I thought I will never seen again.....

cliffhanger sorry been busy with school and there will be some minicat in here and I need help been busy so running out of ideas for this one it will be awhile to  and also each chapter will be one pov. though all of it so meow from ponymau