When I wake up I'm in a hospital bed. A IV in my arm. My head is killing me. I can't remember what happened.

" Well your awake ."
Becks hands me a cup of tea as she watches me intensely. Not looking away once.
" How's my fiance?"
Becks nearly spits out her tea as she frowns.
" Would you worry about yourself for once girly? Your a wreck right now. To be honest Arthur is fine. He's getting discharged today."

" What....
About finn"

Becks raises her eyebrow as she stares deep into my eyes.
" You should focus on your husband Arthur."

" But Finn.....
He got shot"

Becks cuts me off ignoring my question.
" Mari it's best that you don't worry about Finn. Your marrying Arthur remember?"

" Becks that's besides the point. Your not listening to me-"

Suddenly becks stands up her voice is loud yet intimidating.

" Well maybe I dont want to listen to You anymore mari! Maybe I don't wanna listen to anyone!"

I stare at becks shocked by her sudden outburst . Becks stares back, eyes widening . She looks like she's about to cry. I could tell something was wrong with my best friend. But I have been so caught up in my drama: I forgot to check on her.

" Becky I'm sorry-"

But becks runs out of the room.
Leaving me alone.
I am so done as of now.
Everything's falling apart. Arthurs sick I'm sluggish becks is finally breaking with all the pressure. Finn.....
Finn .....

I can't help but worry about him. Finn means a lot to me. I looked up to him so much. He's not a bad person: im sick and tired of everyone doubting me. I did nothing wrong and I feel like becks was making it seem as if I did.
I'm not a bad person: I'm trying to keep this gang in shape .
Maybe I'm not cut out for this. Arthur barely shows love for me anymore. We lost half of our gang members ever since I came around.

Jake, Josh, Tori, deangeline.....
There all dead
I'm starting to see a pattern.
The problem wasnt general 48. The problem wasn't Leon....
The problem was me.
I caused all of this. I led general 48 and Leon to the gang. And that put everyone in danger: it's all my fault.

I can't.....
I can't loose Arthur and becks as well.
I ...
Have to protect them. In order to do so.....

I HAVE TO LEAVE

if I leave now I'll get a heads start. Getting the first flight out of the state. I can go back to my hometown pencilvinya. Where I'm out of everyone's way. I can't let anyone find out about this. But I can't do this alone.  I'll need inside help. Someone who's smart enough to hide any trace of me ever leaving......

Finn

Finns a cop: and he's got a soft spot for me. He would die for me. And I'm pretty sure that he would help me flee from this gangster life.

Without hesitation I yank the IV out of my arm. Wincing in pain as I wrap it up. Then I make my way out of the room. After walking around for what felt like hours I finally stumbled upon finns room. To my surprise he was already up and out of bed doing push ups.

" Mari!"
Finn runs up to me pulling me in for a hug. I hug him back as he holds me close.
" I'm glad your okay"
Finn whispers in my ear sending chills down my spine. Lifting my head I gaze up at him. He could tell in my eyes something was wrong.

" Mari?"

" Finn.....
Help me flee to a different state "