'I don't wanna fall asleep

Don't know if I'll get up

Don't wanna cause a scene

But I'm dyin' without your love

Begging to hear your voice

Tell me you love me too

Cause I'd rather just be alone

If I know that I can't have you'

*DOROTHY'S POV*

"Why did we wait for so long?"

Spencer's question pulled me out of my daze as my brain tried to find back a notion of time between the vivid memories of the two kids and their blurry, uncertain future.

Yet it wasn't from my head that a trail of shiver was arising; it was from somewhere deep inside my guts, growing with the thumps of my heart, and nothing could stop it, neither the warm caresses of his hands nor the shining brown shades in his eyes, which only amplified my heart rate.

Even if he was still inside me, the hot tingles of bliss were quickly annihilated from my veins until I was frozen, and I'd never known I could come down so abruptly from an orgasm. But I understood when he pulled out of me, and my head cleared fully to take in the sharp reality, as sharp as a... blade.

"Hey, Shooting star, you're here?! I'm so good, I finished the job sooner, so thought I'd come." I could hear the thuds of his casual gait crossing my house and up the stairs, and even the smirk in his words. Therefore, I could still prevent the mess, yet I was paralyzed, including my brain, my breath, and my heart.

How could you even stop a mess from crashing anyway? I'd never managed to.

"By the way, you should tell your parents that the key under the– fuck..."

The crash had happened, a silence of apocalypse following it, at least until it was replaced by the same thuds of boots growing more distant on the wooden floor, and I reopened my eyes, which I hadn't realized I'd closed in a hopeless attempt to wake up from a nightmare that seemed to never end.

But it was the reality, and it shot painfully through every part of my body as I jumped up from the bed and ran after Blade like the mess I was.

I didn't even bother searching for my panties, grabbing a piece of pale fabric that must have been a sheet as I tugged on the train behind me, and I didn't know how it had come out so easily, if Spencer had moved away or if I'd pushed him away in my rush. But in that instant, I could only focus on one thing.

"Blade!"

He was already in the middle of the stairs when I passed my bedroom door, and my call sped up his steps.

I knew this sensation, the need to run away from the overflow and emptiness trying to swallow you. I'd been in that exact position, passing a doorsill and watching everything crashing down, except that my eyes had fooled me and Spencer had never cheated on me, while here, Blade had seen the horrible truth, and what I'd done, there was no word to make it right.

"Wait, I..."

I couldn't let him run away with that same dangerous rush. I may have had no word, but I had my legs, my hands, and the beats of my heart faster than ever, and I almost caught up with him at the end of the stairs.

"It's okay, s'not like we're dating. We've never promised anything. I don't give a fuck who you're fucking." His voice cut off any of my stuttering pleas, literally as it was that sharp and unmoved tone he used to attack, and I did waver on the last step of the stairs.

Yet I also knew he used that sharpness to defend himself, and I'd thrown him a harsh blow.

"No, not for me... you... I..." I tried to catch up with him, and just my breath, but I couldn't as he was already walking by the shelf of the family room, the small angel figurine once more mocking me, though not as much as the door he was heading towards.

"It's 'kay, you told me you loved him." He slowed down to shrug, yet he never fully stopped and never turned to me as I hopelessly called,

"Blade!"

He appeared so far through the blur of my tears, through the other side of the large room, and mostly, behind that unaffected armor, and today, I had no way to reach him, my shaky hand lifting in vain in the air while the branches inks were wrapping around the door handle.

A rush of panic spread throughout my whole body until all I could feel were the deafening bangs of my heart in my chest, in my throat, in my ears, in my palms, and in all my insides.

I couldn't let him slip through my fingers, not after how close we'd been, not now, not ever.

"I love you!" The words were knocked out of my chest, really because I hadn't felt them coming. They had just been propelled out of my lips with a strength that silenced everything around.

I was even more shocked than him because although we both had frozen, I wasn't moving, not even breathing, while he slowly turned around to meet my gaze. 

It was so slow that it almost unfolded in slow motion, though it didn't prepare me for the sight.

I had seen the expanse of crystalline transparent, dark, icy, tempestuous, but it was nothing in comparison with the glossy blue, fragile and clear like crystal, ready to break with a wave of tears he would never let out. With his jaw clenched and aura darker than ever, it was striking, and as he swallowed slowly, wetting his lips, the impact in my chest was more violent than when I'd pulled that trigger and watched Douglas's body fall to the ground.

"But do you still love him too?" He nodded with a sharp gesture to somewhere behind me, and my heart stopped for the second, third, or maybe umpteenth time when I turned to find Spencer's shirtless figure, just a few steps behind.

The marks I'd left on his skin were the only hints of color, accentuating how pale he was as he looked as stunned as if he'd suffered a fall from too many floors. He had in some way.

I'd just screamed the three most important words for him to another man, right in front of him, while Blade, to whom actions were louder than words, had just caught me in bed with someone else. I'd just hurt both in the worst ways possible. I'd messed up my unique connections with the two most important people in my life, and it was another bullet to my heart when I looked up at Spencer's eyes.

They looked so empty, with no amber sparkle, no emotion dripping in the chocolate shades, just a clouding darkness, and in all the moments we'd shared, even the worst, I'd never seen them like that. It didn't resemble the Spencer I knew, the Spencer I...

"Yes, I do." The words slipped out of my trembling lips as instinctively, guided by the strong beats of my heart, which became lost between two directions when Blade announced in a distant tone,

"Then, I guess I'll leave you time to make up your mind."

I jerked my head back towards him at the sound of the door opening, but he was already walking away without another glance.

It was surely for the best because Spencer's eyes were already tearing apart all my insides as he stepped beside me.

"I'll leave you alone."

"I..." I raised a shaky hand once more to reach for him – I could, as he paused for a meaningful second like to search for the girl of his memories. 

Yet I stopped one inch away from his naked ring finger like a reminder of everything I messed, and the next second, my hand was left to clasp my sobs as the click of the door echoed a second time – and no, it wasn't Blade coming back, no matter how much I wished it.

I was alone, naked and shivering as I fell on my knees like a mess, the sheet barely covering my stomach, though my lungs were searing more than if I'd run a thousand miles, and the rest of my body was frozen anyway.

That was all I deserved. I shot hearts. I wrecked hearts. I stabbed hearts, and I even wondered if I had a heart myself. But if I had one, it had gone through the door, and the worst was that I had no idea with whom.

Dun... dun... dun... Please don't hate me... again 🙈

What do you think? It was a short but intense chapter 💔 Whose heart is breaking for Blade? Spencer? And Dorothy?

Did you expect this 'I love you' screamed from the heart or were you as surprised as Dorothy herself? 😳

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Also, tell me what would you do in Dorothy's place? 🤔 Lucky her, she has two sexy and adorable men just for her! 😭

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