NISHCHAY
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Her slap brought me back to the reality. I literally had to move my jaw to feel my mouth. Damn she was strong!!!!

I didn't expect Saanchi to raise her hand on me. Shocked was a very small word to describe how I felt right now.

Her eyes were glistening with fresh tears but she clenched her jaw and looked at me silently for a few seconds.

'You are the most selfish man I ever met in my life Nishchay!!!'

Her voice was tearing. I could feel her trying to push back her soft sobs while she tried yelling at me. Tried!!! Because her tears weren't helping her. I instantly regretted speaking so insensitively.

I had acted like an idiot all these months but ever since she left I couldn't help but miss her. I missed her so much. Everyday ever minute, every second I couldn't stop thinking about her. I wanted to talk to her like our good old days. I missed every single second of those two weeks post our marriage all these four months.

I wanted to talk to her but every single time how she disobeyed me and went with Jassi to stay in the hospital is all I could think of and it would stop me from talking to her. Call it my ego or my anger. I hated the very presence of Jaskirat Lota in her life. That man was always code red. Saanchi says he's changed but I knew that man can even bed a she dog given a chance. He was that desperate for anything that had a hole. How could I let my wife be with him.

My wife!!! Yes!!!
True I cannot have a relationship like I had with Sudeshna but it's also true that ever since she had left to the hospital every day every moment I had started missing her. I would recall moments with her. That first time when I admired her when she wore saree post our marriage. The way she cares for my Kyra and my diet. The way she talks to Kyra every day and makes sure Kyra never felt lonely even when she was away from her. She was a hands on mother and a hands on wife too.

The way she cleaned up my cupboard to make sure there were no traces of alcohol warmed up my heart. She stocked up kitchen cabinets with healthy munchies, she put on food chart for different days with recepies for my easy access so Kyra and I can also make healthy and tasty food. It's only after her being a part of this family is when I understood how much Kyra was also bored with my weekly biryani sessions. My daughter had begun to enjoy her mother's multi cuisine food culture.

One day if there was Authentic Mangalorean breakfast, the other day she made smashed avocado toast with hasbrowns and poached eggs straight from Australia and the next day we had authentic Punjabi Parathas and saag (curry). She was magical Elsa just like how my daughter calls her.

Above all the warmth in the house was missing. I couldn't believe how just by being with us for two weeks she made us super dependent on her.

I wanted to keep my ego aside and talk to her but every time I would call her I would either hear or see Jassi stuck to her like a fucking chewing gum. It irked me when I would hear them laugh and be so comfortable with each other and suddenly it would make me realise how much only I was missing her where as she always had company. Eventually ending up me discussing something about Kyra and disconnecting the call to tear my hair in frustration.

Jassi and her relationship was getting on my nerves and then to add on were those stupid social media posts where they would sit along with each other on the same table however at a distance. The only time I was glad Corona expected you to maintain distance from each other. If not for that I would have surely ripped Jassi's hands arms which loved to hold Saanchi. I still remember their photos from Italy. Then I couldn't say anything but now ... she's my wife! MINE!

But things felt better after last night when she finally confessed how Jassi never attempted anything stupid with her. He dare not!!! I'll kill him. But it felt immense satisfaction to my poor heart when she called me special and that our bond was nothing like Jassi and hers. After four months I slept peacefully last night.

But today when she continuously kept being nice to Jassi I felt a strong choking pain inside my chest. He wasn't present there physically. It was just a video call but the way she kept talking to him, bringing him up in her every sentence made me want to smash that fucking phone. I didn't know why I was behaving that possessive. She and I....don't have anything beyond friendship right then why was I feeling stupid all over again.

It suddenly felt like that Nishchay was alive who once upon a time had a silly crush on Saanchi. But comeon I am 30+ now. I have a daughter. I can't have a crush on my wife right? That sounds lame but I cannot see her with someone else. I also feel funny things for her nowadays.

I like to admire her long hair which touched her perfectly round butt. Her butt which swinged every time she walked with that perfectly curvy milky white waist which swung a little left a little right specially in that blue saree which made her skin shine even more flawlessly at times giving a sneak peek of her belly button- STOP!!!

I had mentally slapped myself the first time I had entered her bedroom when she was dressing up but second time I purposely walked into her room because I was desperate to see her but eventually it ended up me seeing her perfect curves making me instantly hard.

That day was the first time ever after almost eleven months I pleasured myself. I didn't want to think about her. I didn't want to imagine her but since I had seen those perfect perky mounds my dirty mind couldn't stop but only imagine how her voice would sound when they would moan.

Would it just be like how she moans when she eats yoghurt. She loved berry yoghurt!!! Fuck my brains!!! By now I knew I had to stop myself but honestly every time she was around I couldn't.

It made me feel guilty. I would simply look at Sudeshna's picture and hug it tightly to my chest and apologize to her. I would recall the moments I spent with Sudeshna. Our intimate moments. But strangely every of that memory had begun to appear distinctively blurred compared to the moments I had spent with Saanchi. It was Saanchi everywhere and it made me feel disgusted. So much so that I even attempted to drink but every time I went to make myself a drink Saanchi's face came infront of my eyes and I couldn't just couldn't do it.

But today the way Saanchi praised Jassi, ignored me all the time even when I was with her all the time. Serving food, heating food, in kitchen but she still didn't acknowledge it. Infact she kept running away from me like I was making her uncomfortable. It hurt.

That's the reason I walked out of the party. I wanted to spend some alone time trying to breath in the fire that was ignited inside me but her arrival and our heated discussion kind of fuelled up everything and I ended up asking her for a divorce.

I regret my words but I was hurt too. And now here she was. She had slapped me hard enough to visit a dentist.

'You want a divorce na? You don't respect anyone's emotions or feelings right? Fine then!!! I have given you everything you always wanted Nishchay. I have always let you go. I will let it go again. Because it doesn't matter right?

You wanted to go to Chandigarh... I let you go...

You fell in love with Sudeshna and not me...I let you go...

You wanted to marry Sudeshna...I let you go...

After years when we met...

You wanted to not be around me...I let it be...

You wanted a mother for Kyra and not a wife for yourself...I let that be...

You said you could never give me anything a wife deserved...I took that as well...

And now you want a divorce...Fine Nishchay Mehra...you want it...I will give you that as well...I will give you everything. You always get everything and I always loose everything... I always loose' saying she covered her face with her palms and burst into tears and here I felt something breaking inside me.

I quickly took a step closer to cup her face when she pushed me by my chest.

'Dddontttt! Don't you dare!!! You cannot control me everytime! Get it? You cannot always get all you want. I have an affair with Jassi you said right? Correct!!! I have one...I love him...' that last line felt like a whiplash to my already paining heart.

'Saanchi Noooo!!! Please' I took a step closer holding her hands while she pushed me again but I walked towards her while she kept pushing me.

'Why??? Why!!! That's the truth na...I love Jassi...I am desperate for Jassi...Abe Dhakkan (You dumbhead) I told so much last night...I openly confessed that Jassi is not special you are special but no...you and your pea sized brain don't have the capability to grasp what I say...So right! I love Jassi... Infact once I divorce you...First thing I will do is I will fuck Jassi!!!'

And that very minute I don't know what took over I took one big step covering all the distance between us and the next thing I know is I held onto Saanchi's neck...almost strangling her. She gasped.

'Say that again and I will make sure that pretty mouth of yours will regret spitting those words!!!' I spat fire gritting my teeth. Her angry eyes met my angry ones.  Our noses were touching each other but she was always the fearless one. Although our proximity always affected her tonight like a fearless lioness she stood staring right into my eyes. Clenching her jaws with immense anger and hatred she said

'What will you do?' she asked and I couldn't help but focus on her pink lips. They were painted pink complimenting her glowing complexion and her angry eyes made me even more drowsy. I don't think even alcohol or for that matter any drug ever could give me that kinda kick which her scent, her proximity and those eyes gave me. I was rock hard for her.

I smirked saying 'You have no idea Mrs Mehra!!! Don't try me' I said while she simply smirked and said in one go

'The moment I divorce you I will fuck Jassi so har-' and before she could complete that statement I claimed her mouth like a hungry lion by covering the very little gap between our mouths.

I fed upon her pretty mouth like I was desperate for it since ages. Her eyes widened and her body froze like a electrocuted bird.

I was sucking the hell out of those lips for uttering those words.

That mouth is mine! This woman is MINE!

Only MINE!!!