I've been on bed rest at home for 3 days and today I feel like going back to school. I'm struggling because my thighs are killing me and I can barely walk. My mom has been a great help. She's been helping me with everything I do.

"I'll be in the car, baby. Do you need some help getting to the car?" My mom asked.

She's gonna be driving me to and from school for a few weeks until my thighs heal.

"No, Im fine. but Thank you, mom." I assured her.

She nodded and walked out the front door. I grabbed my things before looking in the mirror and checking my outfit. I forced a smile on my face and walk out the door.

"You sure you ready to go back to school?" My mom asked.

"Yeah, mom. I gotta go back at some time." I said with a sigh.

"You can always consider homeschooling sweetheart." She said pulling off.

"Yeah, I know. But I'm a senior now, and I want to walk the stage in my cap and gown." I admitted.

"Okay, I understand that. I see your point," she nodded.

We made it to my usual parking space that's by my locker and the entrance into the school.

"You want me to walk with you in there?" She asked.

"Umm, yeah sure." I said. I don't mind my parents in my school because I pretty much don't have anything to hide or ashamed of them in anyway. I don't have anyone to impress either. So, my mother walking me to my locker, is a benefit to me.

As we walk through the crowded hallway slowly, I held on to my mom for support. My thighs are on fire and every step I take puts it into flames. I wince at the pain as I walk and get awkward stares.

"Damn, her momma look even better. Shit, she got them cakes." One guy said.

"She know what she doing to? I'll have fun with that ass." Another said.

"Excuse me?" My mother scolded them. "That is not how you talk about a female, you trifling, sorry ass, disrespectful little boys." My mom stated in a firm voice.

"My bad, ma" The boy said. Then, he walked away.

"Man, these little boys are mannish and degrading to women. I don't think they'll be men any time soon. Kam, I don't want you sneaking around with any of these little boys, you hear me?" She asked.

"Yes, I hear you mom. I don't like this kind of guys, anyway." I admitted.

"Good, cause they ain't got No home training. Just pathetic." She said leaning up against the lockers.

The halls were clearing and it was almost time for the bell to ring. I grabbed my things and gave my mom a hug and a kiss.

"My class right here, ma. Love you. See you later." I said.

We parted ways and I walked inside the classroom as soon as the bell rung. Most people were already here and all eyes were on me. Chris looked confused and shocked at the same time. The way I walked and how slow I was walking wasn't helping either.

"You're back," He smiled dangerously. "You've been gone for a week, where you been?" He asked.

"I rather not say." I was creeping my way to the back but he stopped me.

"Ariel, switch seats with Kamryn." He demand and she bumped pass me to the back as I say in her seat in the front. "Whats wrong with your legs? You been working out?" He joked and a few people laughed.

"No, I said that I'd rather not say." I said annoyed and it's upsetting me.

"She probably just got dicked down my the whole team in the boys lockerroom. That's why she walking like that and Twan be giving bitches attitudes when he done with them." A boy said.

The laughter in the class rung in my ears and I just because more upset. I don't care that Mr.Brown gave the boy the detention or that he got the class to Shut up. I just care that what the boy said was heard and believed by the whole class now. I just got up and limped to the hallway to breathe.

I slide my back down the lockers and plotted my butt on the floor. My legs stretched out infront of me and my hands in my lap. I take a few deep breaths and try to get my heart back to normal speed. Mr.Brown comes out.

"Kami, you know guys are ignorant." Chris says sitting next to me on the ground. "But what really happened? I missed you. I thought you switched to homeschooling like you said you were. I was kinda sad." He said dropping his head.

"I was in the hospital." I confessed.

He looked at me confused and with a concerned look on his. "Why?" He asked.

I took a deep breath and was about to tell him when I realized it was a long story. "Not now, not here. It's a long story." I said.

"How about you can come over and chill tonight and we can talk about it over dinner and a movie?" He offered. My eyes widened and my heart started beating fast. He grinned and it caused me to blush.

"Like a date?" I asked. HE chuckled and nodded.

"Yes, like a date." He admitted. I smiled but then that soon faded away cause I just realized something.

"What's wrong?" He asked with a concerned look on his face.

"I can't." I said putting my head down.

"Why not?" He asked.

"My mom wouldn't allowed me to go." I admitted.

"But you're 19" he said confused. "Right?"

"Yes, but you're my teacher, remember? Plus she knows I don't have any friends. I'll never get pass, plus I don't lie." I said. He sighed and looked at me.

"Well, we are just friends, so you do have friends. Umm, then I guess I'll just have to tell her straight up when I pick you up at 6:30 tonight." He said with a smile.

"But you're still my teacher, you can get fired." I reminded him.

"Teaching is not the only thing, Im going to college for." He confessed.

"You know what? Let's wait until lunch to talk about this" I said. "Can you help me up?" I asked. He was very concerned about my legs and wanted to know the story. As he helped me walk back to the classroom, he got a quick glimpse of my wrists and whispered in my ear.

"You can't kill an angel, they'll go when its time." He sent chills up my spine.

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Lunchtime, I wasn't going to embarrass myself infront of everyone by limping awkwardly. I think Im gonna go straight to Mr.Brown's room. I ran into Cara on the way there and almost wet my pants. I mean, I didn't forget about her but I did forget that she was coming back.

"Hey," She said hesitantly. "Can we talk?" She said under her breath.

"Umm..." I hesitated.

"Girl, why you talking to that snitch?" Cara's friend asked. Cara looked at me with pity and embarrassment.

"Im not." Cara lied. She walked away with the girl and left me in confusion.

I just shrugged it off and went to Mr.Brown's room. Honestly, I don't think we are going to have a teacher come anytime soon cause it's already been almost two weeks and it's No one but him still. They might as Well make him permanent.

"Need some help?" Chris asked as I took a pause from the pain After walking in.

"No Thank you, I got it." I said. I regret not taking the pain pills now but this should have numbed up maybe a little.

"How was your day so far?" He asked.

"Umm, awkward. Very awkward. But I can deal." I laughed. "How about you?"

"Good," He smiled. "besides the fact that I was worried about you." He mumbled.

"I'm fine," I lied. "You shouldn't be worried about me."

"But I am and I don't think you're fine." He semi yelled. He was concerned and pretty upset that I wouldn't tell him.

"Well, I am. Drop the subject, please." I said. I didn't mean to say it like I did but it just came out like that. Im kinda afraid to tell him. He's pretty annoyed by me now and I can feel the vibe getting really negative.

"Fine, but don't come to me whenever you need a shoulder to cry on. Im trying to be a friend and you're holding back on me. It takes two, Kamryn." He said.

"I won't." I semi yelled. "I don't need anyone because I've been alone all my life. You're not my boyfriend, so I don't have to tell you shit If I don't want to!" I shouted.

"Well, Im glad you're telling me this now." He smirked. "I thought you were different. Maybe, I should've listened to my brain and not get involved with my student." He shook his head.

"You didn't, Nothing happened, remember?" A silent tear fell from my eye.

"Right," He smirked. "Nothing happened." He stared at the floor in deep thought.

I decided to leave and never come back here for lunch again.

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"How was school?" My mom asked as I got in the car. I clearly still had an attitude over the argument that Chris and I had but I need not to worry about him. He's my teacher for Christ's sake.

"It was fine." I said not wanting to elaborate.

"Just fine?" My mom said knowing it was more to it.

"Yes, just fine. My thighs are just killing me," I said half truthfully.

"Oh, okay." My mom said pulling off.

The whole ride home, I stared out the window thinking about Chris. I know I am upset with him but he was the only friend I have ever had. A guy friend at that. I was sorta fighting back tears because he kind of hurt my feelings.

"Kamryn!" My mother shouted snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Huh?" She raised her eyebrow at me. "I mean, Yes mom."

"Get out the car. I've been calling your name for the last ten minutes! We're at home." She shouted.

"Oh, Im sorry," I was out of it. I got out of the car and forgot that my legs hurt. The pain shot up my legs and I fell to the ground. "Ouch." I said to myself.

"See, that's what you get." My mom said holding back her laughed. I couldn't help but laugh either and she joined me. "Girl, get up off the ground, your Jersey is white."

I did as I was told and proceeded in the house.

Later that night, Carter and I cuddle while I watched LIFE in the living room. It's an old movie but those are my favorite kind. I giggled and laughed throughout the movie, although it does have the really sad parts in it.

Carter is an gray and white Pit bull mixed with an Husky. I love my baby boy. He's so loving and smart. He has blue eyes as deep as the ocean. But not as deep as Chris's eyes. Although Chris doesn't have blue eyes, I tend to find myself drowning in them. Sometimes, I forget what exactly did he say because I was to busy falling deeply into a trance.

"Kami," I heard Chris's voice and began looking around.

"Chris?" I asked as I continued to pet Carter. Carter began and to feel different and I looked down. My eyes widened.

"Kami," Chris said sweetly. He smiled and raised himself off my lap.

"How did you get in here?" I asked. He put his finger over my lips and snatched me up by my arm.

"Come on, let's go." He said.

"What? Are you crazy!? My mother will kill me!" I whispered loudly. He chuckled.

"Come on, We're gonna be late." He pulled me towards the door. "Close your eyes" He whispered in my ear.

"What?" I asked.

"Just closed them." He said.

I did as I was hold and I heard a door open. He grabbed my hand and guided me out the door. Once I knew I was on the porch, I began to feel warmer than usual as If I was on the beach.

"Open you're eyes," I heard my father say. I opened them to see him in a tux standing next to me.

I gave him a heart warming hug and thanked him. I looked down to see that I was in a wedding gown. My father made us link arms and we walked down the hall. The music got louder as we headed for a door. Once we made it to the door way, I seen Chris standing at the end of the isle. I looked around to see no one else but my mother and Cara which is odd.

"Hello, Beautiful." Chris said as I made it to the alter.

I blushed and and looked away to see the chairs to be filled with alot of people who weren't there before.

"Kamryn," Chris said. I was still in a daze. "Kamryn?" I looked at Chris. My eyes became droopy and I was getting light headed. "Kamryn!" I hit the floor.

My eyes opened to see my mother standing over me. I was breathing heavy and she was obviously concerned.

"Baby, don't scare me like that. You must have had a good dream, huh" She laughed.

"Im sorry, momma. Yeah, I had a weird dream." I admitted.

"Well, take that upstairs baby, I don't want you sleeping out here on the couch by yourself." She said going back into her room.

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The next day, class went smoothly besides the fact that Chris didn't even look my way. It seemed weird that he was holding a grudge because I didn't think that I was that important. The dream I had about him last night was extremely unusual because I never had one of those dreams before. I actually enjoyed it but how awkward it that to have your husband be your teacher? I laughed to myself and everyone but Chris turned to see why. I put my head down and avoided eye contact but I still smiled. When the bell rung, I rushed out of class but bumped into Cara on my way out.

"Sorry," I said. She just smiled and nodded, telling me that it's was okay.

She let me go and I smiled at her kindness.

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Lunchtime, I definitely wasn't going to Mr.Brown's room and I sure as hell didn't want to go to lunch so, I guess I'll sit in the bathroom again. I walked into the bathroom and seen Cara fixing her make up.

"Hey" she said. "Can we talk, now?" She asked.

"Umm.. Yeah, sure." I said.

"I'm sorry, For how I've been treating you. I know that's not much but it's a start. I used to be like you and I know how it feels. I can see that you cut and I can take a wild guess that you cut your thighs too." I looked away in embarrassment. "Don't worry, Im not here to judge you. I didn't see how much we both had in common until I heard that you've been gone for a week. I knew that something bad had happened and I caused it. Im terribly sorry and would've never did that to you If I knew that you already had low self esteem." She said. "The only reason I treated you badly is because I.." She mumbled the last part and I couldn't hear her.

"Im sorry, I couldn't hear you." I said.

"I said, the only reason I've treated you badly is because Im attracted to you." She confessed.

"You mean like-"

"Yes, I like girls, but please don't tell anyone. " She begged. Im feeling pretty uncomfortable and I don't know what to say.

Just when things got awkward, Someone walked into the bathroom and Cara rushed out. I officially just lost my train of thought. All I managed to say was.

"What the fuck?"

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