Kamryn's POV:

After leaving Augusts house, I went home and sat in my room. Im thinking to myself, Where did I go wrong? Why is it that I deserved this? I write in my journal as Momma taught me to to relieve stress. I want to scribble all over the page and write a new entry saying how much I hate Chris and how naive I was to trust him. I want to see him again just so I can spit in his face. Show him how worthless of a man he is. I want him to feel my pain. But through my life experience, they never do and never will. They don't care to empathize, or not even sympathize, they hurt and move If they are done hurting you. They don't have to ask you permission and sure as hell won't even try.

Would I be wrong to say that I miss the the sweet touch of his soft lips on mine? Would I be tripping If I said that I still am deeply in love with this man? Would I be weak to feel as If a part of me shattered when I lost him? Am I crazy, or just insane because I yearn to hear his voice once more way deep down inside? I wish he'd love me like he said he did. I wish this was all a dream and he was just joking to see how I'd react. I wish that we could see things from eye to eye rather than his manhood to my heart. I wish. I wish, a lot. But, no matter how much I wish, my heart is still broken, My child is still fatherless, and Chris is still out of the picture. They say out of sight, out of mind right? Well, I have to stare this poor excuse of a man in the face every single morning for the next few months as his inborn child grows inside of me without him even acknowledging the fact that this my be his first son. Whom will never know that his father lives right around the corner and down the street. Won't know how he acts, or how he looks. He'll just know somewhere deep in his heart that his father couldn't even take the time to ask his name. Although, he'll deny that he even cares. I know it'll hurt. Every boy needs his father. Every man needs his son. Who knew that being a single mother could be so heartbreaking to her children?

Just when I closed my journal and wiped my tears, I heard a knock at my balcony doors. Only one person knows and will get up there and that's Chris. He knocked but I remained silent.

"Come on, Kami. I know you're in there."He sighed.

"Go away, Please!" I semiyelled.

"Look, I heard every word you said and I want to apologize." He admitted. Did I say that out loud? "Yes, you did." He answered my thought. I need to stop doing that. "Yeah, you should."

"Okay, cut it out!" I shouted and I heard him snicker.

"Can I come in?" He pleaded. "I just need five minutes"

I sighed as I slid off the bed. Wondering why am I giving in like this, I continue to walk over to the balcony and unlock the door. He avoided eye contact as he walked into my room and stood in the corner. It was quiet for a moment until he decided to speak.

"Can I just start by saying, Im sorry?" He asked.

"I'm sorry doesn't mean anything to me unless you're sorry." I smirked.

"Okay, I deserved that." He sucked his teeth."Well, I'll just tell you exactly how I feel."

"Youve done a great job with that. I think you made it pretty clear how you felt." I shook my head. "Save that shit for the birds."

"Kami, I know you're upset but you lied to me about being pregnant." He said.

"Exactly, because I knew this would happen. So, don't try to flip this on me!" I semiyelled.

"Look, I was already upset because of everything that was going on. I didn't mean to take it out on you." He replied.

"Chris, you were cheating on me and rubbed it in my face when you found out I was really pregnant, so I don't care how you felt." I cried.

"I wasn't cheating on yo-"

"Then what was it Chris?!, huh?" I cut him off. "You don't have to lie anymore, we're not together. You can tell me to go jump off a bridge If you want. What's the point of hiding now? You finally found your filter? Huh?"

"Kami, I love you!" He shouted startling me. "I love you, and I can't just leave without regretting it. I'm not the man that you deserve. Baby, Im no good. But, I thought I told you that already. You should've left when you had the chance but that was even too late."

"Yeah, I should've, but too bad I was already pregnant." I fiddled through the pages of my journal. "I tried understand why you left me but I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that you claimed to love me but you instantly cut me off without remorse once you found out. Was your love even true? Or are you afraid of fatherhood?"

"To be honest with you, I don't know what Im afraid of. All I know is that I love you. I do want to be with you but what If I can't take care of that child like Im supposed to? I'm not ready to be a father. I didn't have have mine in my life and I sure as hell don't know how to raise one. I'm still learning myself. Besides all the drama with all these girls saying that Im the father of their child, I don't think I'll be fit for you." He explained. "I'm sorry for all the jibberish, Im just thinking out loud. If you want me to stay, I'll stay. But If you want me to go, I'll find a way to take care of my child. Yes, I know Im the father and Im not going to deny the baby. I just don't think Im the one to play the role." He sighed. "You know what? Fuck it. Aye, you wanna get married?"

I sat there speechless and reading his expression for any signs of bluff. When I took too long to answer, he raised his eyebrow at me. Oh my gosh, is he serious? He kneeled down on one knee and pulled out a box from his pocket. I nearly had a heart attack. He's serious. He's really doing this.

"What are you doing?" I said surprised.

"Kami, I know it's too soon in our relationship to be doing this but you're carrying my seed and I wanna do what's right." He opened the box revealing the diamond ring. "Kamryn Renee Reed, will you marry me?"

Tears filled my eyes and I choked to say more. I don't whether to accept, dont accept, smack him, or kiss him. All I know is that he just made the smartest choice he's ever made in the past few weeks and Im proud of him.

"Would I be crazy to say Yes?" I cried tears of joy.

"No, not at all" he climbed on top of me and kissed me passionately.

I wrapped my arms around his neck as we tongue wrestled. His lips travelled from my lips to my neck and down my Jawline while his hands searched it's way up my shirt and carressed my breasts. As he sucked on my neck aggressively, I let out soft moans in his ear which caused him to suck harder. He kicked off his shoes in the process and managed to get both of our shirts off. He unbuckled his pants as he kissed between my breasts and down to my bellybutton. Just when things were getting heated, my balcony door flew open and there stood Cara. Wide eyed, rosey cheeked, goosebumped Cara Sumpter. I tried to cover myself with my hands but Chris pulled the cover on me. He looked embarrassed but not more than I did. I just got caught with my shirt and bra off, Plus with our teacher, by my friend.

"Uhh," She looked nervous.

"Please don't-" She climbed back down for my balcony and ran before I could even finish my sentence.

"Fuck.." Chris mumbled.

"I'm sorry," I dropped my head.

"Don't worry, we still getting married." He lifted my chin and kissed my lips sweetly, causing us to finish what we started.

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