Death would be a far too kind punishment for the things I had to do and what I can’t let go

Beep. Beep. Beep.

I slammed my fist on the horrible device that was designated to wake me from my slumber. I pulled the covers more over my body, insulating the warmth that was meant to keep out all the unwanted coldness on reality.

‘WAKE UP!’ a yell and door banging startled walking me up. After a few curse words I got up and hissed when I turned on the lights, letting my eyes adjust. I took a quick shower and put on black skinny jeans, and a gray Batman shirt.

I stared at a girl with long dirty blonde hair, light pink lips and big brown eyes that held a sadness that I only knew. I looked away from my reflection and grabbed a blanket to cover the mirror. Walking out the door I felt myself collide into a wall, at least I thought until the wall steadied me.

‘You okay?’ the wall asked.

‘Uh huh,’ I breathed trying to stop the scream that I felt from the pain in my shoulder.

‘Then why don’t you open your eyes,’ I opened my eyes slowly and realized I didn’t crash into a wall; I crashed into the living statue.

‘You can let go of me now,’ I growled glaring at him. He was just too hot for his own good.

‘I save you and this is my thanks,’ he feigned her and I rolled my eyes.

‘You were the one to cause me needing help in the first place,’ I said walking away. When I got down stairs everyone was eating breakfast, Onyx handed me my cereal of Count Chocula. Breakfast was quiet and I knew they were waiting for me to breakdown but that wasn’t going to happen any time soon.

Getting up I grabbed my keys that were on a hook and was about to walk out when they were yanked out of my grasp.

‘You really think you can drive by yourself injured like that?’ the statue said. Crap! I still don’t know his name!

‘I’m not that injured!’ I yelled and he poked my shoulder so hard I was seeing red. This trucker!

‘Not that injured hmm?’ he said sarcastically. The girls giggled until I threw them a glare.

‘Mad, can I talk to you for a sec? Girls, you can head on out, Jasper stay for a minute.’ Melinda asked and I walked over to her. So his name is Jasper.

‘Madison Elaina Foyer, you will be on your best behavior you hear?’ she said using my full name making me gulp. She only uses that name when she’s really serious or super pissed. I nodded my head not trusting my voice for the moment.

‘Jasper, take Madison’s things please and drive her to school.’ She said and I knew there was no arguing with her. We left with hasty retreat and I stopped when I stared at the black Eclipse.

‘This is your car?’ I asked shocked he didn’t choose one of our more high-end cars.

‘Yes, is there a problem?’ he snapped at me and I shook my head no. We got to the school in about a half-hour and the school was huge. It looked more like a University then a high school. He threw my backpack in my lap and got out of the car.

People were instantly crowding around the car and parted when he walked by. I made my way out of the car and realized that Jasper was a diversion for the moment until everyone noticed me. I was rushed instantly and they kept throwing me questions and crowding me. I tried getting through the crowd but they kept pushing me against the car sparking my short-temper.  

‘SHUT UP!’ I yelled and they all went deathly quiet.

‘It is too early for you all to be worrying about who I am and how much of a threat I pose to you. Now if you all would please move before I make you to move.’ I growled looking up slowly and they all parted making a path for me. I walked up to Jasper and he was leaning on the double doors looking at me with wide eyes.

‘What?’ I asked grumpily. He shook his head not saying anything and walked away. I rolled my eyes and walked to the office. I walked up to a little elderly woman sitting behind the counter.

‘Hello dear, you must be Madison Foyer. We don’t get a lot of new students in the middle of the school year here’s your schedule and map to the school,’ she said handing me my stuff. I thanked her and walked to my first period class, AP Physics, how exciting.

I walked into the classroom and everyone turned and looked at me like I was the new toy. I gave my schedule to a very plump woman with Harry Potter glasses and wavy brown hair tied up in a messy bun. She smiled and nodded, I took that as sign to sit anywhere and I almost groaned out loud looking at the last desk which had to be right next to the idiot jerk.

‘Took you long enough,’ he mumbled and I ignored the snarky comment fighting to come out of my lips.

The class period went horribly slow and just as I felt myself about to drift off into sleep the bell rang causing me to groan. I stood up slowly and winced in pain as my shoulders began to hurt. I hissed in pain and I looked next to me and saw Jasper watching me intently. I grabbed my stuff and walked out the door with him trailing behind me.

I pulled out my schedule and before I could even look at it, it was snatched from my hands. It didn’t take a genius to figure out who would snatch something from my hands again in a day.

‘We have all the same classes,’ he stated honestly shocked. He looked at me once before walking towards the right wing. I followed quietly trying my best not to show how much pain I was feeling carrying my backpack. We finally made it to the class and I’m pretty sure he took the long way to class on purpose.

‘Class we seem to have a new student,’ the nearly bald old guy said stating the obvious.

‘No, duh,’ I grumbled under my breath annoyed with the man already. I couldn’t swear I heard Jasper laugh but that would require him to have true emotion, which he doesn’t have since he’s a statue. I sat down in the back row and Jasper sat to the seat next to me.

I could feel his eyes staring me down and sweat began to cover my brown. My vision began getting cloudy with red blotched and there was a sound of commotion as everything went black.

‘You left me! How could you, after everything we’ve gone through!’ the screams yelled piercing my heart like the gunshots that went through my chest. I woke up panting looking around frantically trying to find something real.

‘Hey, breathe,’ a voice said while hands cupped my head forcing my eyes to focus and my body to stop moving. My eyes focused on the man carved by the gods, his dark wavy hair, his light tanned skin and piercing blue eyes. I couldn’t take my eyes off of Jasper and my heart did something absolutely stupid that it will most likely regret. It got faster when I looked at him; I tried to get my breathing under control before I spoke.

‘What happened?’ I asked looking around and noticed I was in a cheap infirmary. Where the hell am i?

‘You’re in the nurse’s office, you collapsed in class,’ he said lightly and I groaned. He looked worried and I shook my head.

‘This is a horrible way to make a first impression,’ I clarified and he laughed out loud shocking me from the sudden sound. I smiled lightly and sighed listening to his laugh.

‘Why?’ he asked making me scrunch my eyebrows.

‘What?’

‘Why do you try to bear all the pain and put all the blame on you? I mean, I heard about the incident with Jocelyn.’ He said making my gut twist it guilt.

‘That is none of your concern,’ I said through clenched teeth. He looked me over once and sighed before getting up.

‘I’m making it my concern.’ He stated before leaving and for an odd reason my heart started to ache but thinking of Jocelyn made my heart ache more.

‘No one can know the things I had to do, and the reasons why I can’t let this go. I can block out almost anything I want from my mind but no matter how hard I try, this keeps coming back out. I don’t think I even remember anything else from that day,’ I whispered wiping a tear from my eye. I got up and grabbed my backpack that was in the corner.

Walking to my next class made it more difficult thinking about the jerk being there as well. I walked into class and everyone’s eyes turned towards me. I heard a couple squeals and I lightly smiled.

‘Mads, were in the same class!’ Onyx yelled making everyone’s eyes go wide. Her hazel eyes looked slightly red in the lighting and her curly black hair tied up made her look like a model. Her skin was a beautiful latte color and her orange shirt and badge shorts suited her well.

‘See you still stating the obvious,’ I noted taking a seat next to her. People gasped and I looked at them in confusion. What were they all gasping about?

‘Dang, I always thought I could have the highest grade no prob in this class and now you’re going to make that a challenge.’ She said thoughtfully making me laugh.

‘Onyx, I know you’re the smartest of the girls but that doesn’t mean you have to make grades a competition,’ I smiled knowing I just challenged her.

‘Oh now I’m definitely going to get a higher grades then you!’ she yelled declaring war making us both laugh. In the corner of my eyes I thought I saw jasper smile but before I could check he looked the other way.

‘Alright class, now that their little exchange is over lets continue the lesson shall we?’ the old man muttered. The rest of the class involved Onyx taking notes like a mad woman and me snickering at her under my breath after a while she glared at me then continued taking notes but other than that the class was boring.

‘Yes! Sweet relief!’ I yelled as the bell rang. Some kids laughed and others just smiled, these are some of the benefits of taking super smart classes because everyone here is smart. I was finally getting more pepped up as my sleepiness slowly passed.

I smiled as a girl around my age had her headphones on and was just randomly dancing in the hallway not caring what other girls and guys thought of them. She was wearing dark blue jeans and a light purple spaghetti strap shirt. She was really getting into her music because she was really going at it, her long dark brown hair was just whipping back and forth and she was actually a good dancer.

The bell rang, and she continued dancing while walking to class. I looked at Jasper and he looked just as confused as I was, he shrugged his shoulders and continued walking. It seems that everyone had made it to their class late because everyone poured in right after us.

‘Welcome class! Another bright and early day, I see we have some new students why don’t you all come up front!’ the female teacher said clapping her hands. She had pale white skin and reddish orange hair, her lipstick was bright pink and she was wearing different neon colored dress.

‘What class are we in?’ I asked Jasper. He looked just as confused as I was.

‘I don’t know I’ve been skipping third block since we started school. This is my first time here.’ He explained making me wonder why he would show up now.

‘So what is your name sir?’ the teacher asked Jasper and I could see the girls stare at him lustfully.

‘Jasper,’ he said somewhat awkward. She nodded her head and looked at me expectantly.

‘Madison, Mads for short,’ she smiled and I noticed we were in a big room most likely the auditorium of the school.

‘Welcome both of you to the special arts class, my name is Ms. Mew!’ she laughed clapping. The doors busted open cutting her clapping short and the girl from the hallway came in.

‘Honey, I’m home!’ she yelled before dancing her way over to the teacher.

‘Ah, Isabel, so glad you could finally join us.’ Ms. Mew said smiling and giving her a big hug.

‘Me-ow!’ she yelled looking up and down Jasper. He backed up to me slightly making my snicker; Isabel looked at me and frowned. I wonder what that was about. I sat down on a love seat because the only other seat was all the way on the other side of the double couch and I really didn’t want to sit next to the jerk.

He raised an eyebrow and before I could argue he picked me up and put me on his lap faster than I could argue. I was about to get up but he held me back and put his arm on my shoulder making me stop dead in my tracks.

‘You wouldn’t,’ I said with wide eyes, he smiled and pressed his arm slowly on my shoulder that was injured making me clench my teeth in pain. He pushed me back and leaned mumbling curse words at him making him laugh out loud and other people laugh. I looked up and everyone was staring at us smiling.

‘This is going to be an interesting school year.’ Ms. Mew said with a glint in her eye making me lean back a little more into Jasper’s chest. This woman is scary and Jaspers comfortable arms are not helping either. Oh dear, what on earth is going on with me?