A/n:Flashbacks=this style of writing      

       "Urgh-"

After that small conversation with Peter,Rocket somewhat found the courage to go confess to Ruby.

   Key word, somewhat.

But of course,no one said it would be easy. Unfortunately, it was still difficult as every time Rocket nears Ruby's door,he somehow ends up backing away and pacing around the cockpit instead.

    After walking around the cockpit for the umpteenth time,he groaned and was about to walk off. After all,maybe it could be worth it? 

           Maybe these confusing
,stupid,lovey-dovey crappy feelings would die off,and he would get to blow up Quill's ship and piss off his "dear captain".

     However,before he could make that choice, he heard a familiar voice that startled him.

   "Rocket,what are you doing out here?"

        Rocket paused at that voice,slightly startled, but quickly regained composure before replying,"Rubes? What are ya doing out here? Don't ya have better things to do with ya life than come looking at me?"

    He had  tried to sound casual before realising that it came out incredibly rude. Sure,he wouldn't have gave a fuck if he said these words to anyone else,but when its someone you get "butterflies in your stomach" or whatever shit Quill spewed about metaphors, even if he did understand it better than Drax,it still sounded like a load of crap.  

  Besides the point,when its someone he,gags likes more than as a friend,somehow,self-consciousness became a part of him.

  Ruby looked sheepish for a split-second before speaking up again,"No,sorry if thats what you thought, i just thought i heard someone pacing outside. Besides,its the middle of the night,what are you doing out here?"

        Rocket found it hard to let his gut spill. Surely he could if he found a more private spot right? Right? Eh,screw it, he'll need to confess sooner or later,because contrary to what he said before, these feelings ain't going away anytime soon,might as well get the shock, and heartbreak over with.

"I just....i can't lie to ya Rubes,i needa talk to ya about somethin'. "

Ruby appeared suprised. The two of them had not talked in a long time, and now he suddenly wanted to. Oh welp, she did want to talk to him for the longest time anyway,so she nodded and responded,"Sure,do ya want to do it in a more private area?"

Rocket chuckled softly and had a small smile on his face. "Ya know me too well, Rubes. Lets go before Quill starts poking around."

The two of them started to head for a more private spot furthurest from everyone else's quarters.

      Upon reaching the private spot, Rocket casually leaned against the wall to soothe his nerves.

  "So.......what did you want to talk to me about?" Ruby piped up, her voice laced with curiosity, and perhaps, as far as Rocket's concerned, a bit of caution?

  Rocket swiped away the concern as he started off in a somewhat shaky tone,"Look,uh,Rubes....how do i put this?........I.....like u....more than...as a friend." Rocket quickly finished off,bracing for the rejection to come, and not wanting to come off as sappy by being all poetic like those love interests you find in other fanfictions.

Upon hearing those words leave Rocket's mouth, Ruby froze up.

   Her heart was beating really fast. Rocket liked her? That should be a good thing right?

  Then,why is her heart sinking?

Digging a little deeper was hard to do as Ruby started to breath shakily and as memories flashed before her eyes.

   Looking up at the pair of amethyst  eyes,at least the once amethyst eyes that were dark as the corrupt amulet .   
"Why,why would you do this? I thought we were friends! I fucking trusted you!" Ruby yelled in anger as her eyes glowed dark teal with anger and hellfire in her eyes.

     The figure only looked at her with regretful tears in her eyes as she passed the trident regretfully to a tall,sinister and regal figure.
The tall evil-looking figure's grin gleamed as the red teeth were fleshed out.

     Ruby's eyes widened as the tall figure uses the trident to crash the long-feared boulders of doom onto her body,as the palates of rocks crashed onto her body, and would most certainly have crushed her body,if not for her having activating her body armour at the last second.

     "GRRRRH-AH!" Ruby grunted in frustration as she failed to life the palates of stone. She wasn't strong enough. She was supposed to be the best of kraken kind. The top student...the perfect princess and heir to the throne. Ruby broke down in tears,knowing she was trapped under these rocks.  She had failed. How could she have been so naive to trust her? A mermaid,a nice girl,her own best friend. For a kraken princess who was supposed to be smart,she commited to such a stupid believe in safety. That she could trust her own friend. How stupid.

   How naive.

   Back in the present,Rocket had noticed Ruby's shaky breath. From there, uneasiness and confusion filled his head. He reached out his hand, but Ruby flees away to her room.

     Rocket felt crestfallen. Rejection was just dished out to him. If he had knew it would come,then why does it hurt so much? What has he done wrong?

    Back in her room, Ruby closed and locked her door,sliding down onto the floor,heaving and holding on to her heart like its the last beezlejuice bottle left in Hell. She had ran....now all alone in her room, she finally knows why her heart sank.

   Fear. The most stupid thing in all of existence.

   Fear of abandonment. She may know her friend very well,but who knows what will happen when they get into a romantic relationship? What if he just outright betrays her? What if it was all fake? What if everyone who had cared about her,or so she thought,never did?

    This was the second time,she had fallen in love with her best friend.
           
       The first time ended horribly,breaking her heart and already deteoriting spirit back then. Sure,she never confessed,but the mere possibilty of going through the same heartbreak knowing the one you loved with all your heart has stabbed you in the heart....stabbed your heart until the essence of the love inside leaks out til its all empty,nothing but blood that serves to keep her alive.

     Not again...never again. She could never risk ruining another good part of her life. And besides,Ruby was on the run. Running away from the past,the one long before Rocket even knew her. That part of her past is still haunting her til this day, waiting to come back and drag in more of her friends into the already massive mess.

    No. Rocket didn't need to get dragged into this shit. Being in a romantic relationship with him would mean having to tell him everything,the last thing she'd ever want to do. Rocket deserved to live a life without being weighed down by her shitty past.

    But....what if he really liked her?

   If he did, Ruby knows that she fucked up big time by running off. But its too late now. She not only ruined their possible and kind of low chances of having a happy romance,but also could have possibly ruined their already pre-existing friendship.

   Knowing she had fucked up another good thing, ruined a good but albeit violent person, her heart started to crack as the floodgates opened.

    No matter how hard she tries to hold in the storm inside, it came out like a waterspout and cried to her heart's content.

   Ruby hated crying. Other people crying is fine to her....but herself crying of all people,its not fine. Worse,its weak,its pathetic.

   However,this time,no amount of perfect princess speeches could stop the flood of sadness. The reservoir of tears spilled out and it never seemed to end.

    Using a tissue to clean up some of the mucus accumulated in her nose, she plopped onto her bed, stuffed her head under the pillow,and wept even more and harder.

     At 4am, when she had finally fallen asleep, the pillow was dripping wet and smelt like the sea.

Next update:14 April 2024