Triple update <3

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The boys are reading. Again.

They agreed to Jimin's terrible yet necessary idea of the possibility that they missed something. Does it suck? Yes. Do they have a choice? No.

Not when Jimin is watching over them like some goddamn teacher, using any excuse he can to slap someone in the back of the head just because he likes doing so. What an asshole and they calm him holy?

Jungkook is the only one who hasn't been attacked so far. Maybe because Jimin kinda understands why he feels so down after finding out he's immortal.

Most people would probably be thrilled by such news, but Jungkook is not. He doesn't wanna be speciel. He doesn't want to be a part of all of this and most of all he wants his mortality back.

Have you ever just had that feeling of letting go? Giving up on it all and just passing on the pain to your loved ones instead of dealing with it yourself? Sounds tempting, doesn't it?

Maybe it's selfish, maybe it's stupid to think that killing yourself will solve anything.

But you know what? Jungkook doesn't even have the chance to chose that for himself anymore. Like, it's not fair for a living person if they don't get the chance to live, right? It wouldn't be fair to just kill them, would it? Well, is it fair to force Jungkook to be here? Forever!?

No, no it's not and Jungkook can't get over it.

He's so fucking tired. Way more tired than he was before if that's even possible.

"Did you check that one again?" Hoseok asks, breaking Jungkook out of his thoughts. Ugh, stop talking.

"Yeah, you can check that one out instead," Jin says and points at another useless, random book on the floor. Don't. Talk.

Jungkook tries to burry his face further into his arms, even if the table would stop him from doing so at one point. Both Yoongi and Taehyung, who are sitting by the table as well, notice.

"You good?" Taehyung asks softly and puts his book down. When he doesn't receive an answer, he tries to gently reach over and touch Jungkook's shoulder. As soon as he feels the fabric of the younger's shirt beneath his fingers, Jungkook looks up and slaps it away angrily.

"Dude, what's wrong with you?" Yoongi then asks. You can almost feel the anger radiating off Jungkook at this point.

Don't talk!

"Jungkook, are you sure you are alright?" Taehyung asks worried and tries to reach his hand out again, but Jungkook is faster. The boy stands up abruptly and the chair he was sitting on falls behind him, shocking everyone in the room.

"Don't fucking touch me!" he yells and glares at a confused and a little startled Taehyung. Yoongi opens his mouth in shock and sees how a pained expression falls over his best friend's face.

He stands up quickly, just like Jungkook did, "the fuck you little brat? He was just asking if you were okay!"

Jungkook is allowed to be upset, but it's not an excuse for acting like an asshole. Taehyung was being nice to him and now he's throwing a tantrum. What he fuck.

"Yeah, because you are the type to not even ask!" Jungkook throws back, most likely referring to the breaking of his neck earlier. Yoongi will never escape from that it seems.

"This isn't about me! We have been extremely nice and understanding towards your situation, but you are just sulking and getting angry at us for no reason, it's not fucking fair," the angel yells.

It's true. The only communication that has been with Jungkook has been through yelling, arguments or him crying. Nothing else. It's mentally stressing for all of them.

"Understanding? Understanding!? You know nothing, none of you do!" Jungkook yells. He's tired of being bossed around and told how to act. They could never understand what he's going through.

He's reaching his limit.

This time, it's Jin who stands up. He's getting upset as well, the others are just getting scared from the sudden fight that has broken out. 

"Stop being like that, we are trying to help you Jungkook," he says. Jungkook rolls his eyes and throws his hands to his sides.

"And for what? We haven't found shit-"

"We are trying, okay?" Jin begins, "we are helping you out and all you have been doing is sleeping and being pissed off. Stop acting as if your life is tough, we have all been through something in life," he adds in an angry tone.

That's it. Jungkook can feel the rage in his chest. We have all been through something. Is he fucking joking?

Jungkook walks closer to the man and glares at him so hard the elder has to take a confused step back.

"You're asking me if my life is tough? Huh Seokjin, are you asking if it's hard to wake up every morning before dawn and work my ass of before school just to get food on the table? You're asking if it's hard to get bullied and raped almost every day?" Jungkook starts, his voice dangerous, "but yeah, your life is so hard, I can imagine swimming in money must be a struggle, your family is lucky to be out if it!"

Too far. Way too far.

"You little shit, you don't know anything!" Jin yells and he feels how Namjoon has rushed to the scene and is now holding around his waist.

"Exactly!" Jungkook yells back, surprising everyone. They did not expect him to agree with anything coming out of Jin's mouth.

"That's exactly what the problem is. I know absolutely nothing about you while you all are reading books about me and what else stupid bullshit is going on," the male now glares at all of them, "you won't tell me a single thing, but I have to be exposed all the damn time. Hoseok dreams about me? Like what the fuck!? I didn't ask for any of this!"

It's easy to see how upset the brunette is. His body is shaking, the corners of his eyes are filled with tears and his voice is starting to crack once in a while. He's breaking down.

"And you," he points directly at a flabbergasted Taehyung, "you walk around saying that you love me and know me. You have felt me your whole life? You have taken my privacy from me and not even once did you consider sharing your story? How the fuck is that fair!?

Jungkook dries his cheeks, trying to get rid of the ugly tears. He has had enough.

"I'm so fucking done with all this bullshit, if Satan wants me, he can go ahead. It's not like there's anything worth living for in this piece of garbage world anyway," he says roughly before turning around and running for the door. He doesn't spare the others any final glance, he doesn't care about them anymore.

Nothing matters anymore.

He disappears behind the doors and Taehyung immediately wants to follow. Before he can get very far though, he feels a strong grip on his arm. In rage he looks back at Yoongi who dares to stop him right now.

"You know what you have to do if you follow him," he says with serious eyes. Yes, Taehyung knows he needs to say a lot of things. But he doesn't have any other option, he can't leave Jungkook alone.

"I have to," Taehyung says and pulls his arm free. He spreads his wings and flies for the door, hurrying after Jungkook in hot pursuit.