Ethan gets out of bed and goes to the bathroom. As he is standing there, he yells out in pain and falls to the floor. Jake quickly gets dressed, unlocks the door after getting into his chair and pushes a button for the nurse and the door opens and she walks in and calls for a doctor.

Brian runs in and gets to work on Ethan. Jake looks over Ethan to see if he can see anything wrong and he notices he was bleeding from behind.

"Brian, he's bleeding." Jake points and Brian examines him quickly.

"Book an OR, now!" He yells at the nurses and other doctors that ran into the room and they rush him up to surgery.

Brian sits with Jake in the waiting room.

"It was too much, too much strain on his body, he couldn't handle it. This is my fault. If I would have just kept my hands to myself, he would be ok. I just wanted him to feel like himself again." Jake said, sighing and running his hand through his hair.

"We don't know what happened or what will be the outcome until he's out of surgery. It isn't your fault Jake, don't blame yourself." Brian said, putting his hand on his shoulder.

"Now I know why Ethan listened to music when Ryan was in surgery, to get out of his head and not think the worst possible outcomes of how bad it could be." Jake looks down and closes his eyes.

"I may have lost my leg but what he went through, I'd go through that as many times as possible to save him from that awful night."

"What happened exactly, what made him leave in the first place?"

"Me, I was arguing with his ex who is a friend of his the night he buried his parents and I guess he didn't want to hear us yelling which I understand now, he had a very hard and emotional day and I wasn't making it any better so he ran out of the house and Alex saw him I guess and attacked him. He had kicked Alex out of his house earlier in the evening and a bit later that's when Marcus showed up and Ethan sought comfort in his arms and not mine, that's what made me angry at Marcus, and Ethan ran out and right into Alex's rage. I will never forget how he looked that night, so..."

"I know, it was a horrible thing to see, after I examined him, I went to the bathroom and threw up, I was sick to my stomach after seeing him like that. I thought at first it was a gay bashing until I learned it was an ex of his, that is what made it worse."

"Yea, if I ever see him again, I swear to God I will kill the mother fucker."

"I don't blame you; I'd do the same if I were you."

"Are you really encouraging me to murder someone doc?" Jake chuckles and Brian smiles.

"I'll be your alibi." They laugh.

A few hours go by and they are getting some coffee and are walking back to the OR waiting room and see the surgeon walking out and over to them.

"Hey Mike, how is he?" Brian asked worriedly.

"Not good, his insides ripped open from a lot of strain, was he trying to remove his bowel when he fell?"

"No, he was urinating, and he fell to the ground and screamed out in pain and I noticed he was bleeding from behind." Jake said.

"What was he doing before that to cause so much strain on his body like that?" Jake cleared his throat.

"Honestly? He helped me out with my horny issue."

"He shouldn't be engaging in sexual activity while he is in recovery, he wasn't cleared for it yet. Luckily, I was able to repair the damage but now he's recovery is going to be a lot longer since there was scar tissue from the surgery a few weeks ago. His body needs time to heal, no stress, no lifting and no sexual activity of any kind."

"Ok, thank you doctor." He nods and walks off.
"Yup it's my fault, I did this to him."

Meanwhile in the room Ethan is recovering in, a male nurse checks on him and closes the curtain behind him when he walks into the room. He sees Ethan is waking up a little bit and he stands at the side of the bed lifting Ethan's gown and injects him with something in his penis Ethan is trying to fight him off but is too weak from the medicine from surgery and he can't yell out because a tube is in his throat. The machine starts to beep loud and fast and he runs out of the room in a hurry after he is done causing more harm to Ethan's body.
Nurses and doctors also Jake wheels into the room and Brian run into the room. Jake stops in his tracks when he sees what happened to Ethan and sobs.

Brian rushes to Ethan, to try to stop the bleeding as best as he can. The doctors are shouting out orders to the nurses and to each other to stop the bleeding and rush him back into surgery.

About an hour later Jake wakes up and looks around confused for a minute before the memory of Ethan comes flooding to the front of his mind.

"Ethan!" He yells and wheels out of the room and he sees Brian pacing back and forth, waiting on news.

"Brian!" He yells and wheels over to him.

"Jake. You had me worried, you ok?"

"Fine, how's Ethan?"

"Don't know, been waiting but they aren't going to have any updates yet, it's only been an hour."

"Well what did you see, what happened to him?"

"It's bad Jake, it's really bad. His penis and testicles were cut open with a scalpel and he was raped with a freaking light. It was a male nurse; cops are talking to him now."

"Where?!" Brian takes Jake to the room where the cops and the nurse are.

"That's Alex!" Jake shouts. Brian opens the door and asks to speak to one of the cops. He comes walking out into the hall.

"That sick mother fucker is the guy who attacked Ethan weeks ago." Jake said through gritted teeth and making fists.

"I see a report was already made so tell me about what happened this time." Brain explains what he knows and the cop nodded and wrote notes down.

"Thanks, if I need any more information from you, I'll contact you."

"Well we got him now, he won't be getting out anytime soon." Jake sighs and thinks of many ways to kill Alex.

"I'm not going anywhere."

"Alright."

"Is he going to jail?" Jake asked already knowing the answer but needs to hear it for himself.

"You better believe it. He's got a lot of charges against him so he's not going to be walking out of here unless it's in cuffs."

"Good, he deserves to burn in hell."

"If I can't have him, no one will. No one will ever want him now!" Alex yelled, and Jake was about to bust the door down before Brain grabbed him.

"It's not worth it man, not worth it."

A few hours later Ethan is out of surgery and in recovery again. Jake and Ryan stand at the door of the room Ethan is in. He's laying on the bed crying. Jake walks over to him.

"Hey, are you alright?" He asks, trying to take his hand, but Ethan pulls it away.

"No, the doctor just told me that I will never have a working penis again, no function what so ever, can't piss or have an erection ever again, and I have to have the damn tube in my bladder for the rest of my life and I can never have sex er penetration again well yea, never have sex either way again. I'm useless as a man, I'm just useless now. You are better off just running away and not even bothering with me anymore Jake. I can't be what you need and want me to be." He said with his head turned away from Jake.

Brian closes his eyes and sighs. Jake has tears in his eyes, and one escapes falling onto his cheek.

"I don't care about that; I care about you Ethan."

"That's part of me Jake, a major part, the part that makes me a man and now, I'm no man. I'm nothing. Just go, please just, just go Jake."

Ethan says, trying to hold back his sobs.
Jake felt his heart break. He leaned over and kissed Ethan's head. "I love you." He said and walked out.

Brian walks over to the side of the bed and looks at Ethan.

"Hey, we're not giving up. I'm not letting you give up so easy Ethan."

"What can be done? Unless you know someone, who can do a penis transplant, it's no use."

"Right, I understand you're frustrated Ethan but don't push Jake away. He loves you; you know he does and know he will do anything for you."

"And I would do the same for him, it's just how can I please him in the ways he deserves when I can't even get hard? I am a very sexual person Brian, so is he. He wouldn't ever admit it, but he is. How can two sexual people just stop having sex at the drop of a hat? I can't put him through that, he's been a God send to me in everything that has happened that I want him to be happy and yes I know he loves me but, how can I make him happy in every way when I can't make him happy in the ways he desires?"
Brian sighs and takes Ethan's hand.

"Listen to me, yes it will take time to adjust to it but I don't see him going anywhere, he has been by your side since you first got hurt and he was able to hold back when you were healing before so why do you think he won't this time?"

"Have you not been listening? I don't have a working penis anymore and it will never work again, and I can't be penetrated so him making love to me and me him, it will never happen. He's better off finding someone else before he gets too serious about me and puts himself second, I can't ask that of him. I can't have him be with me when I can't be the man he deserves; I love him too much to do that to him. I just want to get better, so I can get out of here and just bury myself in work and just make my family proud, that at least I can do."

"You will be out of here before you know it, for now though get some sleep. I'll be by tomorrow on my shift to check on you. Good night Ethan."

"Good night Brian." Brian walks out, and Ethan grabs his phone and looks through his unread text messages. A few were from Emma asking how he is and one from Ryan asking the same as Emma.

He sighs and puts his ear buds in and plays the new Nickelback album and turns the light off above the bed, closes his eyes and sings to "Song On Fire."

Unaware that his door is open, people in the hallway stop and listen to him sing. Even other patients come out of their rooms and listen.

"Wow, he's amazing. Is he a singer?" One woman asked.

"No, he's just that good. Music is his life and helps him through a lot that is going on with him right now. The past couple months he's been here but was about to go home, things happened, and he would do this every night he would listen to country or Nickelback and he would sing, kinda got used to it. Everyone here is in awe of him, he's got a kind heart." One of the nurses said while watching him sing and tears fall onto his cheeks.

"I can see why; his voice is so soothing, angelic and sexy. Wow."

"Honey, you're not his type." The woman looks at the nurse with a confusing look.

"He's gay."

"Well that just stinks, all the good ones are either gay or taken."

The nurse chuckles.

"You ain't lying. He's the perfect man, for a man."

She sighs and smiles. "Well go on, go get some rest."

"Yea, rest after hearing that voice. Good night." She smiles and goes back to her room. The nurse shuts Ethan's door and continues working.