"Oh my god Ethan! GUYS!!" Jones yells.

Everyone within seconds is down in the room.

"Call 911!" Jake said, rushing to Ethan's side.

"What happened baby?!" Jake asked looking over Ethan with concern.

"Alex." Is all he said before everything went black.

"Ethan! Wake up! Ethan!" Jake tries to get Ethan to wake up, but he isn't responding.

"I swear I'm going to kill that piece of shit!" Jake yelled.

"It looks like he was ah raped." Stevens said.

"The back of his pants are bloody."

"Oh god! Ethan! I'm so sorry!" Jake said, holding Ethan while waiting for help to arrive.

Ten minutes later help arrived and they took him to the hospital. Jake rides with him and the guys follow in Ethan's truck. They get to the hospital about fifteen minutes later and rush him inside.

The guys all run into the ER and wait on word from Jake. About a half an hour later Jake is standing in the hallway outside of Ethan's room when the doctor comes up to him.

"Excuse me Jake?"

"Yes, that's me. How is he?"

"Honestly, not well. He has internal bleeding and his anus has trauma such as it has been ripped open and swollen, his penis has a lot of trauma, and he has broken ribs and he has a broken eye socket. He also has a lot of bruising and stitches. We need to get him into surgery to repair his anus and try to find the source of the internal bleeding. Does he have any family here?"

"Ah no, they passed recently in a car accident. It's just him and his brother is in a coma here at the hospital. Please do whatever you need to do to help him."

"I will, a nurse will be by in a few minutes for forms for you to sign for the surgery, are you related to him?"

"No, I'm his boyfriend."

"Do you know what happened to him?"

"Not really. He was attacked by his abusive ex is all I know."

"Alright. A detective will also be by later to get a statement from you guys."

"Ok. Thanks doc. Take care of him, he's been through a lot already."

"I know, I read his chart. Seems this isn't the first time his ex has hurt him but it's worse this time. I will do everything I can to help him, I'm going to have the nurse get the forms and send her out."

"Ok, thanks." The doctor nods and walks away. He walks into the room and has to put his hand over his mouth to hold in his sobs as he looks at Ethan. He sits next to Ethan, taking his hand into his own.

"Ethan, I promise you Alex will pay for this. You fight, do you hear me? You fight Ethan! Don't you dare give up! I love you baby." Jake said as tears fell on his cheeks. A nurse walks in.

"Hi, here are the forms you need to sign, and we will get him up to the OR right away." She hands him the forms and he signs them. He hands them back to her and a couple other people walk in and start to get him ready.

Jake kisses his forehead and whispers, "I love you. I will be waiting for you. You fight, you fight for you and for our future together. I love you." He kisses him again and stands up and they take him out of the room and to the OR floor. Jake walks out into the ER waiting room.

"How is he?" They all asked at the same time when they saw Jake.

"Bad, it's really bad. Below the belt is bad, front and back. Broken ribs, a broken eye socket and internal bleeding." Jake said as calm as he could without choking up.

"They are taking him into surgery now so let's go up and wait in the OR waiting room." Jake said, and they went up to the OR floor and waited for hours before Jake went and asked for an update.

"Hello, excuse me? I was wondering if you had an update on Ethan Johnson?" He asked. She typed on the computer.

"It says here he is still in surgery. No complications listed." She said.

"Good, thank you." She nodded, and he went back to the guys.

"Nothing. No complications at least." He sits down and sighs.

"I need him to be ok, I can't lose him, not like this. Not before we had a chance at a life together." Jake said looking at the guys.

"Hey, don't talk like that, he'll be fine sir." Jones said putting his hand on Jake's shoulder.

"I hope so, Jones. I didn't realize how much I loved him until I saw him in that bed. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I know he's the one."

"So, when he's healthy, ask him to marry you. He himself said live our lives like there is no tomorrow and well, after all he has been through, he could use some living and deserves to be happy. You make him happy sir." Jack said, sitting beside him.

"You think so?"

"I do, I've seen the way you two look at each-other, seen how much you care for each-other, he loves you just as much as you love him." Jake smiles at the thought of spending his life with Ethan.

"He just needs to be ok, just need to make it through surgery."

"He will, he's a tough sumbitch, sir."

"Don't I know it." They sit and talk for a while and Jake feels his eyes getting heavy. The rest of the guys are sleeping on the chairs besides Jack, he's been awake with Jake waiting on news.

"I'm gonna shut my eyes for a bit, I'm exhausted."

"Me too, they'll wake us when there is news.

Jake nods and drifts off to sleep. A few hours later the doctor walks in and gently wakes up Jake.

"Sir?" He said and Jake opened his eyes.

"Guys, wake up." A few seconds later the guys are all awake and standing in front of the doctor.

"How is he?" Jake asked worriedly.

"Let's sit, it's a lot to take in." They all sit, and the doctor starts to speak.

"The surgery went well, he's in recovery now. Now, there is extreme damage to his penis and anus. His backside, inside is all bruised and torn, I was able to stitch and repair but, won't know how it will affect him sexually as in we won't know if he will have anything annaly. His prostate, it's been damaged badly and with the repair, well we won't know for certain yet. His testicles were badly damaged from the beating and the kicking. He may be sterile but again, won't know until he starts to recover, he may not even be able to have an erection again. He has a tube in his bladder from outside of his lower stomach as we aren't even sure if he can urinate and he has a colostomy bag as well. When he starts to recover, we will have a better understanding on how his body is, for now though, he has no function below the waist. His eye, he may be blind in his right eye and the internal bleeding, I was able to find the sources as there were a few, his organs are a mess from the beating, it's going to be a long road for him but he will survive." Jake and the guys just are shocked at the news.

"So, he may never even be able to have kids? To use the bathroom normally again? Be able to see?"Jake asked, still not processing the news.

"Not now, no, in time, we just have to wait and see."

"I know he has always wanted a family, how am I going to tell him that dream can't come true for him?" Jake asked, looking down, running his hand through his hair.

"Would you like to see him?" They all said yes, and the doctor took them to Ethan's room as they moved him from recovery. They walk in and Jake instantly starts crying and is next to him in a flash holding his hand.

"God baby I'm so sorry." He brought Ethan's hand to his lips and kissed it softly. Jake sits in the chair next to the bed and lays his head on the bed, looking at Ethan. The guys stand around the room in silence, not knowing what to say.

"We will get through this, you will be ok." Jake whispers as he touches Ethan's face gently. He hears a soft noise from Ethan and looks up at his eyes. Ethan opened his left eye slowly.

"Do that again, it felt nice." He said in a raspy voice and Jake cried happily to see Ethan awake.

"Hey handsome. It's good to see you. How are you feeling?"

"Like hell. Water please?" Jake grabs the cup of water and puts the straw to Ethan's mouth and he takes a long drink.

"Thank you. Much better. I'm hurting but I'm ok. How are you?"

"Me? I'm just dandy thanks, been worried like hell about you. You had me so scared baby."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." He said as he put his arm on Jake's, weakly.

"Don't worry about that, all that matters now is your fine. Want me to get the doctor so he can tell you what is going on?"

"No, you tell me." Jake sits up and sighs and tells Ethan everything the doctor told him. Ethan has tears running down his cheeks as Jake explains what the doctor told him.

"I, I may not be able to ever have sex again or have kids?" Ethan said, closing his eyes.

"Don't know that yet, if not it's ok, it's not why I love you."

"Yea I know but, if nothing works, you can't have sex either you know."

"I don't care about that, I care about you. Yes, sex would fantastic but, it's not what I love about you, not the only thing at least. Let's not get ahead of ourselves here alright, you just had surgery, recover some and see how it goes. You may have full function once you heal, just don't worry about that right now. Just focus on healing and getting better."

"I'm sorry I just was told that I can't..., can I have some time alone to process all this please?"

"Are you sure that's what you want?" Jake asked not wanting to leave his side.

"It's what I need, just for a little bit." He gets up and kisses his forehead and they walk out. Ethan lifts the covers and his gown and looks at his body, he sees the bag and the tube and just cries.

He touches himself to see if he has any feeling and there isn't any. He puts his gown back down and covers back and lays his head back and cries.

A half hour later the doctor walks in to check on him.

"Hey Ethan, how are you feeling?"

"Like my whole world just crashed and blew up in flames but, good thanks." He said with a half-smile.

"You don't need to be brave, you know, it's ok to be pissed off about what happened to you. I'm guessing Jake told you about what I told him about you?"

"Yea, he told me. So, it's true, I may not ever be able to function right again?"

"It's a high possibility, yes. We won't know for sure until you start to recover and that is going to take some time."

"I, how, how can I ever have kids if I can't even shoot a load of usable sperm?" Ethan asked, feeling frustrated.

"We're not there yet, you just need to take it one day at a time and well we see how you function once you are healed. Don't go thinking the worst when we don't know how you will be. Just take it slow, I know it's a lot and I know it's not easy but, take it one day at a time."

"Yea like I have anything else to do except lay in a bed, can't even go to the damn bathroom so I'm stuck in bed."

"Even if you didn't have those in you, you would still be in bed. You just had surgery. Rest alright, I'll be by later to check on you. Need anything, pain meds increased?"

"Yea that would be nice."

"Sure." He walks over to the IV pump and pushes some buttons and closes it and nods at Ethan and walks to the door and turns the light off and closes the door behind him.