They drive in silence just listening to the radio. A song comes on that stings Ethan's heart, "What hurts the most" and as it plays Ethan sings, tears running down his face that he needs pull over.

Ryan reaches for his hand but he just pulls it back. Ryan doesn't know what to say or do so he just waits.

After a little bit Ethan starts driving again and he doesn't head home, he heads to the water front and gets out of the truck and goes to sit on a swing. Ryan follows him.

"Hey talk to me, what's wrong?" Ryan asked worried about Ethan. He sighs and turns to look Ryan in the eyes.

"That song, I used to play it all the time, day and night for a very long time."

"When Marcus was...?"

"Yes. He was the love of my life, I don't mean just your normal love I mean that head over hills after so many years can't get enough of each other love. I have known him most of my life and I have loved him longer than we were together, but he didn't know that at the time. When he told me that he signed up for the Marines I felt my heart break into a million pieces because I knew it was just a matter of time before he got deployed.

It was hard, but we got through it and he came home we were fine, and he went on a few more, the last one is when he didn't come home. I knew he wasn't even before we were informed that something has happened to him, I felt it in my heart, in my soul that he was hurt. I felt my breath go out of my lungs and that I was going to die. He was my whole world and when I lost him, it broke me bad.

I tried to kill myself by drinking and doing drugs, I even drove drunk many times hoping to drive myself off a cliff or into a tree and just blow up. I didn't care about my life anymore, not when he was gone.

It was a very dark time in my life, then I met my ex, the one I told you about. After him I swore off love, didn't want to even bother with getting attached to someone else because what if something happened to him or me, again? I'm so scared that something is going to happen to you when you leave Ryan, I don't want to get attached to you and you leave, and you don't come home. I won't make it if that happens. I am so broken, you have no idea how broken I am inside. I feel myself slowly getting attached to you and I'm scared that if I let myself, I'll just get hurt."

Ryan has tears in his eyes and they fall on his cheeks and he just looks into Ethan's eyes, seeing the pain in his eyes breaks his heart. Ryan not wanting to blink or break the contact because if he does, he'll cry.

"I can't promise that nothing will happen to me, but I can promise that I will do anything I need to do to get back home. I don't want to break your heart by something happening to me. I'm scared as hell myself, scared of what is happening with us and scared of hurting you if I don't come home. I can't be the reason you lose yourself even more."

Ethan sniffles. "So, what do we do?"

"I don't know Ethan, I really don't. All I do know is I want to spend as much time with you as I can before I leave and if there is something between us, I want to be with you and if you don't feel the same, we can just call this, dating. I can't imagine all you have been through, yea I had my heart broke but nothing compared to what you have been through and I want to know everything, every dark secret that you can't even tell yourself, I want to know what is in your heart, I want to know your soul so I am willing like I said to make this work, if you decide before I leave that you just want to wait till I get back to date some more, that's fine with me, as long as it makes you happy, that's all I care about."

Ethan grabs Ryan and kisses him sweetly and soft. Ryan puts his hands through Ethan's hair and moans lightly, enjoying the tender kiss between them.

Ethan hear "Far Away" playing at the local bar and just stops kissing Ryan and looks into his eyes and sings to him, Ryan's tears finally fall onto his cheeks and Ethan wipes them away as he sings to him. It must be a Nickelback night at the bar because "After The Rain" comes on next.

Ethan takes Ryan's hand and stands up and brings him close to his body.

"Want to go have a drink and just enjoy the music and company?" Ethan asked him.

"I'd love to. They are one of my favorite bands."

"Mine to." They walk to the bar that is playing the music. They make their way to the bar and Ethan orders two JD double on ice. As they sip their drinks and just listen to the music, Ethan starts singing, a little loud and people around him just watch him sing, staring into space, not realizing people are watching him or that he is singing loudly to the nextsong, "Song On Fire."

"The first words that come out and I can see this song will be about you. I can't believe that I can breathe without you.

But all I need to do is carry on, the next line I write down and there's a tear that falls between the pages, I know that pain's supposed to heal in stages but it depends which one I'm standing on. I write lines down, then rip them up.

Describing love can't be this tough.

I can set this song on fire, send it up in smoke. I could throw it in the river and watch it sink slowly. Tie the pages to a plane and sent it to the moon. Play it for the world, but it won't mean much unless I sing this song to you.

I'm dying to show you this could end up happily ever after, there doesn't ever have to be disaster. And all you have to do is sing along. I write lines down, then rip them up. Impossible describing love.

I can set this song on fire, send it up in smoke. I could throw it in the river and watch it sink slowly. Tie the pages to a plane and sent it to the moon. Play it for the world, but it won't mean much unless I sing this song to you.

I can set this song on fire. I can set this song on fire. Light this old guitar on fire, I'd still hear the notes. Drown the melody in water, I'd still hear it's ghost.

Sing it with somebody else, but we'd be out of tune. Play it for the world, but it won't mean much. I can set this song on fire, send it up in smoke.

I could throw it in the river and watch it sink slowly. Tie the pages to a plane and sent it to the moon. Play it for the world, but it won't mean much unless I sing this song to you.

I can set this song on fire, just to sing this song to you. I can set this song on fire. I want to sing this song to you."

After the song ends everyone cheers and Ethan looks around.

"What?" He asked Ryan who was looking at him with love in his eyes.

"What do you mean what, do you not know that you just sang that song out loud?"

"No. I thought it was in my head." Ryan chuckles and Ethan smiles.

"Was it bad?"

"God no, it was amazing. You have such an amazing voice baby." Now "Must Be Nice" comes on and Ethan stands up and sings that one with a little dance making Ryan laugh at him being silly. Ethan is enjoying himself until he turns around and sees Jacob standing right behind him.

Ethan hears "Phenomenal" playing now and bobs his head and starts rapping looking at Jacob, moving Ryan out of the way and getting in his face. He is in the zone not even paying attention to anyone around him and he can see Jacob's eyes go wide in fear, wondering if he is going to actually fight him.

I am phenomenal
With every ounce of my blood
With every breath in my lungs
Won't stop until I'm phe-no-menal
I am phenomenal
However long that it takes
I'll go to whatever lengths
It's gonna make me a monster though
I am phenomenal
But I never say, oh, it's impossible
'Cause I'm gonna be phenomenal Unstoppable, unpoppable thought bubbles
Untoppable thoughts, fuckin' juggernaut that'll
Stomp you in the verse, obstacles I'm drawn to 'em
When the going got rough
Show 'em what I done thought that was the worse, little sissy
Who the fuck taught you how to persevere?
There ain't no situation that you ever had to respond to that's adverse
The messiest thing you've ever gone through is your purse
Yeah, I don't try like Captain, I might as well
Hang it up like a shelf, gotta keep growin' with it, evolve
'Cause you can keep throwin' shit at the wall
But you're gonna find that nothing's gonna stick until you apply yourself
Time to slip in that zone till' I find myself
Inside the realm where the unknown and boldly go
In the waters where nobody else has gone before
Or willing to go, uncharted, feeling is so
Bomb, I'm feelin' myself, I'm a giant
Sometimes I gotta remind myself that I amI am phenomenal
With every ounce of my blood
With every breath in my lungs
Won't stop until I'm phenomenal
I am phenomenal
However long that it takes
I'll go to whatever lengths
It's gonna make me a monster though
I am phenomenal
But I never say, oh, it's impossible
'Cause I'm gonna be phenomenalLet me self-empower you
When you're down and they're tryin' to clown the fuck out of you
When you feel like you're runnin' out of fuel
I'll show you how to use doubt as fuel
Convert it to gunpowder too
Now what you do is put the match to the charcoal fluid
Put a spark to it like Martha Stewart barbecuing
Ah screw it, feel like you want to hit that wall then do it
Punch through it, just cock back, put your all into it
Now you gon' take that rage and make that what you raise
Never take back what you say
If you stay trapped in your brain, engage in this fueled cage match
Ready to scrap asap
Take your fists to his bones
Show Biggie who's smallest you're Christopher Wallace
Yeah I picture 'em all as plastic and foam
Lays flat, where you put your dinner plates at
And set it off like a placemat
(I am phenomenal)
And I want you to say thatWith every ounce of my blood
With every breath in my lungs
Won't stop until I'm phenomenal
I am phenomenal
However long that it takes
I'll go to whatever lengths
It's gonna make me a monster though
I am phenomenal
But I never say, oh, it's impossible
'Cause I'm gonna be phenomenalStep into the unknown
And find yourself your glory, free the ignoring personGot a fuckin' mouth with no shut-up valve
Can't even cut the power to it, when it's what allowed
Me to come up out from under the fuckin' ground
'Cause I worked my butt off now
It's a subject I don't know how to shut up about
'Cause I stuck it out
Like a motherfucking tongue to tie, I responded when I got shoved around
You're gonna have non-believers
But when you're beyond belief, you probably shouldn't wonder how
Get it how you live
But are you prepared to give more than you get?
And put in twice what you get back from this shit
Though what you sacrifice barely is half, never give
Rap is my shiv
But it's like my shield at the same time I wield, I'ma knife this will
Sometimes I feel just like B. Real from Cypress Hill
How I can just kill a cypher, survivor's guilt
I rhyme like life is still an uphill climb
Ready to face it, each challenge waitin'
Can taste it, it's salivation, I'm wagin' retaliation
Look what I have built, reputation is delegation
The only thing I'm capable of makin' is amazing
Only thing you're capable of makin' is a false statement
An accusation, I am legendary status, in fact
That is the only way you'll ever be able to say
Your legend is makin' an allegation
I write with the left, same hand I hold the mic with
As I fight to the death, 'til my last breath
Managed to prove who the best man is
Surveil it, all cards be the only ones left standing
In the end, but I ain't gonna be the only one with the advantage
Of knowing what it's like to be southpaw
'Cause you can bet your ass you'll be left handed
'Cause I amPhenomenal
With every ounce of my blood
With every breath in my lungs
Won't stop until I'm phenomenal
I am phenomenal
However long that it takes
I'll go to whatever lengths
It's gonna make me a monster though
I am phenomenal
But I never say, oh, it's impossible
'Cause I'm gonna be phenomenal (Eminem song)

When the song is over Ethan looks him in the eyes

"I am phenomenal Jacob and you are nothing! Ryan is phenomenal, and you are nothing! I hope you rot in hell!" He yells and turns to sit down and takes a drink. Ryan is just looking at Ethan, jaw open in shock.

"Might want to close that mouth before you catch a fly." Ethan smirked.

"That oh my god that was so whew fucking hot! Where did that come from?"

"I guess from the emotions from tonight and just seeing him, I saw red and just lost it. I'm not a violent person so I figured words do just as much damage if not more, words last longer than a punch anyways."

"You have a good point. How do you feel after that?"

"Amazing, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders."

"I imagine so, so you think I'm phenomenal huh?"

"So, what if I do?" Ethan smiles, taking Ryan's hand.

"Well I think you are also. Phenomenal, that word describes you perfectly." Ryan said as he took Ethan's hand.

Ryan's ears perk up when he hears the song that is playing now and looks at Ethan who is again just in his own zone singing, "Gotta Be Somebody."

When the words "the one I spend forever with" he looks into Ryan's eyes and feels his heart beat fast against his chest. Ryan just looks at him and said the words Ethan never thought he would ever hear again.

"I love you, yes I would love to spend forever with you." With that, Ethan stops singing and grabs Ryan and kisses him passionately and with love.

"So, does that mean you are willing to give us a shot?" Ryan asked when they pulled apart.

"Yes, I'm all in. Are you? Are you ready to deal with me, with all my issues and night terrors and the pain from my past?"

"Yes, I'm all in baby, I'm all in." Ryan smiles and Ethan lets a tear fall. Ryan wipes it form his cheek and kisses the wet spot. Ethan wraps his arms around Ryan's neck and hugs him, "Never Gonna Be Alone" comes on at the perfect moment.

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Ryan starts to sway back and forth and dance with Ethan and sings to him softly in his ear. Ethan cries into Ryan's chest as he hears Ryan's sweet voice singing the beautiful song to him.

"You're never gonna be alone, from this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall. When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on, we're gonna take the world on. I'll hold you till the hurt is gone. I'm gonna be there all the way, I won't be missing one more day. I'm gonna be there always, I won't be missing one more day." The song fades and Ethan looks into Ryan's eyes.

"That was beautiful, you have a very nice sweet voice." They hear "S.E.X" starts and Ryan and Ethan smile and blush.

"Now this song, oh yea. I would love to have my tongue under you and in you right now. I want you so bad Ethan." Ryan said looking into Ethan's eyes, biting his bottom lip and licks them. Ethan groans.

"God that's hot. Let's get out of here." He said and pays the tab for their drinks and they leave.