Ryan's date look^^

He went to the elevator and hit the button for the first floor. When the door opens, he looks up and sees a handsome man standing there waiting for him.

"Well isn't this a nice way to end my day." Ethan said as he walked out into the lobby.

"I wanted to be here when you got off work. Hi there." Ryan leans in and kissed his cheek, Ethan blushes a little.

"Hi there handsome. You look dashing." Ryan had on a pair of gray pants with a blue sweater. His hair was freshly cut, and he smelled like a dream.

"Thank you, you look amazing as well."

"Thank you, shall we?" Ethan extends his hand and Ryan takes it. They walk out hand in hand smiling as they passed people in the lobby and walked outside. Ethan takes in a deep breath.

"Long day?" Ryan asked.

"Yes, it was. I'm glad it's over and that I get to see you though."

"Yea?" Ryan asked shyly.

"Yes. Shall we?" Ethan asked.

"We shall. Where do you want to go?"

"Well I have not eaten at all since breakfast so let's go have dinner. Applebee's sound good to you?"

"That sounds great, I haven't been there in a long time."

"Sounds like a plan." They walk to Ethan's truck, he opens the door for Ryan on the passenger side and he gets in. He shuts the door and walks to the drivers side and gets in.

"This is a nice truck."

"Took me a while to get it, it's my dream truck. I love it."

"I can see why. A sexy man driving a sexy truck, can't get better than that." Ryan smiles looking over at Ethan.

"Oh I can think of a few things that are better." He winks at Ryan and turns the truck on and drives out of the parking lot.

The radio is playing "Hurricane" and Ethan sings along. Ryan is looking over at Ethan and watches him sing with such passion and heart.

"Is there anything you can't do?" He asked in a whisper, watching Ethan. He smiles to himself and enjoys the care free look Ethan has on his face and in his eyes.

A few minutes later they arrive at applebee's and get out of the truck. Ethan takes Ryan's hand and opens the door for him and they walk inside.

They are standing at the entrance waiting for the hostess. People are looking at them, giving them looks, some of wonder some of disgust some of concern. Ethan noticed the looks and leans into Ryan.

"Were getting a lot of looks." Ryan looks around and smiles.

"Let's give them something to look at." Before Ethan could say anything, Ryan puts his arm around Ethan's waist and pulls him into his body, kissing him deeply, Ethan let's a small moan escape his throat and kisses him back with the same passion as Ryan.

A few minutes goes by before they pull apart, breathless.

"Wow." Ethan said breathless looking into Ryan's eyes. Ryan bites Ethan's lip gently before letting him go.

"That's just a small tiny taste of what's to come baby." Ryan said in a sultry voice, making Ethan shiver. Ethan can't seem to form words so he just smiles and looks into Ryan's beautiful eyes.

The hostess arrives and she takes them to a table for two. She hands them their menus and walks away. A few minutes later a waiter walks over.

"Hello, I am Sam I will be your waiter for this evening, may I start you off with a drink?"

"Yes please, two beers on tap and an order of your potato skins with the works and deep fried pickles and ranch with those please." Ethan said to him and he walked away.

"That sounds good, thanks for asking me what I wanted." Ryan teased.

"Sorry, I'm used to ordering when I'm out, I haven't been on a date in ages, forgive me." Ethan reaches across the table and lightly touches Ryan's hand.

"Of course, you can give orders here but other places, we can both give orders."

"Like where?"

Ryan sits back and puts his hand on chin, thinking. "Hmm like the couch, the washer, the table, the shower, the floor and finally, the bed."

Ethan nods. "Those sounds like wonderful places to be giving orders sir." Ryan chuckles and Ethan laughs.

They lock eyes and just stair for what seems like forever until the waiter is there at the table with their food and drinks.

"Here you are, have you decided on what you would like to order?" Ethan and Ryan both put in their orders.

"Very well, I'll be back shortly. Enjoy." He walks away and they start eating and take a drink of the beers.

"So, can I ask why you don't do relationships? It can't be just because of what happened to Marcus, right?" Ryan finally had the nerve to ask the question he has been wanting to ask ever since Ethan told him he doesn't do relationships.

Ethan takes a drink of his beer and sighs and sits back in his chair.

"No that's not the only reason why. Every time I would get a boyfriend it would be great for a while, sometimes it would be perfect and pure bliss and eventually I would get my heart broke and after so many times of having your heart broke, you put up walls with chains and locks around your heart that way it's so guarded you won't get your heart broke.

Just recently I got out of a bad relationship, at first it was amazing but he changed, started yelling at me more and told me what I could and couldn't do, told me that I was his that I had to do what he said or he would kill my family, he was abusive, he would hit me daily and I don't mean just a slap I mean full on beat the living hell out of me. I still have spots from bruises on my body from him, scars that are still healing from wounds he caused. He would hit me with anything he could get his hands on.

It wasn't till my parents and brother came over one day without calling, they live an hour away, so they didn't come by often without calling but they were at the business and wanted to surprise us. I had just gotten out of bed, so I was only in my sweat pants when I answered the door and when they all saw me, their eyes went huge and started asking me questions and I told them, finally after 18 months of it I told them.

My brother, god bless his heart went to his work, drug him out by his shirt to the street and just started wailing on him, called the cops on himself for what he did, and he didn't go to jail, instead the cops found out why he beat him and they took him to jail. He got out on bail the next week and now we have to go to court, thankfully I know it's not something to be thankful for but there were pictures taken of my body so there is proof. Just have to wait till court.

So, that's why I don't do relationships. I wasn't lying when I told Jacob that I couldn't handle getting hurt again, after Marcus and now my ex, I don't know how I will ever get over that. I like you Ryan I really do, you are one hell of an amazing beautiful sexy guy but..." Ethan stops talking for a little while. "But, I can't do it again. If this isn't what you want I understand, just tell me now."

After a bit their food arrives and Ryan finally speaks.

"I'm so sorry for what happened. I just want you to know, I would never ever lay a hand on you, ever. I really like you too Ethan and I understand, we can date casually and hang out spend time together, doesn't have to be serious unless it turns into something serious, I am leaving in a week so for now, let's just enjoy our time we have till I leave. Thank you for telling me, I'm sure it couldn't have been easy to talk about."

"No, it never is but for some reason it was a little easier this time." Ethan held back the tears that were fighting to fall but he didn't let them.

Ryan takes his hand in his. "Hey, look at me Ethan." Slowly Ethan looks at Ryan.

"I will never hurt you, ever. You can trust me on that. You have been through so much in your life that you need to have something that makes you happy, that makes you feel loved, that makes you feel you are worth it and believe me, you are worth everything. You are by far the best man I have ever met in my life, you are intoxicating and electrifying, you have the most beautiful eyes and smile, your heart is huge, and you have the body of a male model, you are a dream Ethan.

You are so beautiful that you don't even see that because of all the hell you have been through, but I promise till the day I die, I will do everything in my power to show you just how special and amazing you truly are. You may not believe that, you may think I'm nuts for thinking that, but I promise you, you are."

"Can I get that in writing?"

Ryan smiled. "Yes, if that is what it will take for you to start believing you are worth it than yes, I will proudly put it in writing and hang it up in my office for anyone to see for you to know you are worth it Ethan, you are worth it." Ryan said hoping to at least get Ethan to start believing it, even if it's just a little bit.

Ethan stands up. "Excuse me, I need to use the restroom." Ryan nods and Ethan goes to the restroom.

He shuts the door behind him and goes into a stall and puts his face in his hands and sobs, he sobs like he hasn't before. He hears the door open, but he still sobs and then he hears the sweetest sound, Ryan's voice.

"Ethan?" He said softly and tapping on the door. Ethan opens it and Ryan takes him into his arms and lets him sob into his chest. He strokes his hair trying to calm him down.

"Shh it's ok, I didn't mean to upset you so much. I was just trying to tell you that I'm wanting to be with you, no matter what, no matter how long it takes. You are worth it to me."

Ethan calms down after a little bit and looks up into Ryan's beautiful eyes. He puts his hand on the back of Ryan's neck and kisses him so sweetly and passionately it takes his breath away.

"Let's get our food to go, I want to be alone with you if I'm going to be such a mess."

"Ok, I'll get the food to go and you just wait at the table if you want or you can wait outside if you would like that to, up to you."

"I'll wait at the door for you."

"Ok." Ryan wipes the tears from Ethan's wet cheeks and his eyes. He kisses his cheek and they walk out and Ryan goes to the bar and asks for them to pack their food to go and pays for it while Ethan waits by the door.

A few minutes later they leave. Ethan lights a smoke and drives to his house.