Jeongguk woke up on the cold hard floor from the slight sound of vibration of this phone, immediately feeling his body ache and his eyes hurt from all the tears he shed.

As he came home from the café date with Namjoon and Jimin, his father yet again cursed at him, threw things at him and finally locked him in his room.

The whole day yesterday was torture and Jeongguk would rather forget it than anything.

He was locked in his room. All day. No food. No going out for fresh air. Nothing but his father coming in every few hours, repeating the same things he always says.

'You are a disgrace', 'because of you our family doesnt work', 'i wish we never had you'. And Jeongguk had to wordlessly listen to all of that.

When his dad came in blackout drunk at around 11pm, Jeongguk knew he was gonna be beaten again as if yesterdays bruises aren't still hurting enough. But he was.

After he just collapsed on the floor out of exhaustion and hunger and all his dad had to say was that he was weak and left the room after, not bothering to lock it again because Jeongguk was 'too weak to get up anyways'.

And that was true. He couldn't even move over to his bed, so he fell asleep on the cold  floor, crying, whispering the words his dad said to him all over again.

It has really gotten to it's worst since Hyeree had to stay in the hospital.
When she was home their father would at least have some decency.
Would just beat him up occasionally, only threaten him mostly.

But now he's just making all his threats reality.

Jeongguk lifted himself up, growning, feeling his arms and back hurt, reaching over to his phone.

TT

hey doll i hope you had
a good day yesterday

I missed you

Today is the fansign please
have fun

Jeongguk's eyes widened at the reminder that the fansign was infact today and would be his only reason to get up, even though his everything was still hurting.

i'm so sorry for not answering :(

I'm okay tho i had a few really
busy days dont worry

Yes the fansign! I'll get ready for
it now!

Jeongguk made his way over to his closet, picking out a nice black hoodie, that would hopefully cover every bruise, ripped jeans and his usual black face mask, throwing it all on.

He picked up his backpack, opening it and holding it upside down, scattering all it's contents on the floor, picking up the notebook that fell out.

"Perfect." Gguk whispered to himself. This was really the only thing he had Taehyung could sign. He couldn't afford an album, even if he could, his dad would probably somehow destroy it.

He stuffed the notebook back in his backpack along with his wallet and pack of gum -- which was totally not for the sole purpose of having good breath for Taehyung to leave a good impression.

Jeongguk zipped and put the backpack on, feeling his stomach bubble in both excitement but also fear -- he really hoped his dad was still passed out from yesterdays alcohol consumption.

He reached for the door handle shakily, trying to be as quiet as possible.
Every sound that he made could mean back to his personal hell, getting dragged in his room and being beaten up yet again.

With the softest steps he could do, he made his way down the stairs and out the front door.

As soon as Gguk was standing on the front porch he let out an relieved sigh, breathing in some fresh air afterwards for the first time in more than a day.

Jeongguk immediately pulled out his headphones, plugging them in and pressing play on his phone, hearing the soothing melody of Stigma hit his ear.

Closing his eyes and letting the wind hit his face, he made his way to the nearby bakery, choosing the cheapest thing, the sweet potato bread and immediately devouring it and at least to say -- in that moment, after not having had food in 24 hours, that was the best thing he's ever eaten.

As Jeongguk was making his way to the subway stop, he felt his phone vibrate yet again.

TT

its okay doll i was busy too

I really missed you tho

Jeongguk smiled eye to eye after reading T's messages.
He really shouldn't feel that way about a person he just started talking to -- heck he doesn't even know what he looks like but this is really the only affection he got from someone in years besides Jimin and Namjoon.

ooo T :(

I missed you too♡

Aw doll♡
You are too cute

Gguk fondly smiled at his phone, making his way into the subway train, crossing his fingers that no one would check the tickets.
He couldn't affort it, so he just hoped no one would catch him.

Are you excited for the fansign?

Duh of course haha i cant
believe that this is happening

I'm sure you will have fun

Is there something that you
really want Taehyung to do?

Just interested

Hm...

Well he looks at fans to fondly
i hope he will look at me that
way i guess

I'm sure he will doll
you are so beautiful everyone
would look at you fondly

I have to get ready for

work

yeah

You have to work on saturdays too?

Aaa yeah i'm busy sorry
gtg miss you already

Jeongguk looked at the screen in confusion but didn't give it any further thought as he got off the train, happy that he wasn't caught going without a ticket.

He made his way up the stairs, seeing a makeup store in front of him.

'Here i go i can do this.' He thought to himself, sucking in a deep breath before entering.

He walked through the isles, scanning the products, stopping when he spotted the eyeliners.

He didn't even bother looking at the prices, they were all too expensive, so he immediately grabbed a tester, walking over to the nearest mirror, opening the eyeliner and applying it to his lash line with precision.

Jeongguk knew this wasn't the most sanitary  thing and this could end with a stye but this was his only option. He wanted to look pretty for Taehyung but could not afford any of the products.

What else could he have really done?

He finished drawing on the eyeliner, closing it and admiring his work before putting it back where it belonged and walking to the over to the lip balms.

Gguk looked through the various testers available, picking out one called rosy peach, turning to the mirror and dabbing some on his lips and putting it back after.

He made one final turn to the only full body mirror in the store, looking himself up and down and admiring his make up and for once -- Jeongguk actually felt pretty and very ready for the fansign.

.•.°☆°.•.

come on now
mOONCHILD
DONT CRY
WHEN MOON RISE
ITS YOUR TIME

Stream mono it cleared my acne, erased all my problems and i have 100 euros more on my bank account

Sorry for taking a whole 8 days to update this past week has been a LOT

Anyways have a nice day yall uwu