(I wrote this as my hamster napped on my chest i'm :(()

Jeongguk stood in front the huge venue, chewing his gum nervously, waiting in line to get inside.

He was standing pretty much at the end because he mayhaps took too long to make sure his eyeliner was applied perfectly.

Just as he went to look at his phone to check the time, a kakao talk notification popped up on his screen.

TT

Sorry that i disappeared
so quickly babe

I'm

at work now

Are you at the fansign
already?

Jeongguk immediately went to type a response. He had to admit he was kind of saddened and confused about T suddenly disappearing but of course he understood.

T has a job he had to go to.

Yes i'm in line rn actually

Ohhh thats great

Where in line tho

Almost at the end ugh

And its very cold :<

Jeongguk was infact freezing at this point, his minutes ago warm hands, from keeping them in his pocket, now felt like literal ice cubes -- he should have brought gloves.

Oh no pls stay warm doll

I'm sure youll be let in a
couple of minutes

But the fansign is suppose
to start in 2 hours i dont
think we'll be let in for
another hour :(

Gguk stared at the screen for a good minute, waiting for a response.
While waiting he looked around, seeing a lot of the other fans brought bags filled with gifts like plushies, candy and more.

Jeongguk lowered his head ashamed to his backpack which was standing on the ground.
He didn't bring anything besides his notebook for Taehyung to sign.

No gift. Because he had no money to buy anything.

But then -- an idea came to his mind.

Jeongguk kneeled down to his backpack, taking out the notebook and the pencil attached to it, sitting down on the ground, luckily his jacket protecting his butt from getting frozen.

Opening up the notebook, he started to sketch a slight outline of Taehyung, each stroke made very carefully.

He wanted to make a drawing of his favorite picture of Taehyung, wearing a bandana, a face mask and a button up shirt with a top underneath.

After having a rough outline, Jeongguk started shading by focusing the pencil on certain eras and smuding it precisely, drawing the details like eyes and ears afterwards, ending by sketching out the hair with light strokes.

Eventhough he was drawing this sketch on very thin and cheap paper with a pencil he had since 5th grade, it turned out decent -- Jeongguk admitted that himself.

(t-this is actually my sketch which i drew in 2017:,) i mean its not great- but its not horrible either idk i just didnt wanna use someone elses artwork so i just like used my own)

Slightly proud of his work, he looked at it one more time before closing the notebook and putting it back in his backpack carefully, lifting himself from the cold ground.

He went to look at his phone again to check how much time there was left standing in the freezing cold.
Eventhough it felt like he took hours for his sketch, only 30 minutes went by.

Jeongguk sighed, he was pretty bored already.

Most other fans were standing in groups, conversing with the people before and behind them, building friendships while bonding over Taehyung.

Needless to say Gguk felt like an outsider. No one even made an effort to talk to him, but that was probably because of his all black wardrobe and he admitted himself -- if he was someone else, he wouldn't talk to himself either.

"Excuse me, could you also move forward?" He was pulled out of his thoughts by the girl waiting behind him, tapping him on the shoulder.

He turned to her, seeing her point right behind Jeongguk, so he turned right back, seeing that doors to the venue were now open and people were starting to get ticketed and go in.

He almost sprinted forward in excitement, bowing to the girl, taking his phone out in the process.

He went to his emails, scrolling through and finding the one from Bangtan radio who send him a digital ticket.

Jeongguk looked at the clock on his phone before putting it back, checking his notification in the process, to only be dissapointed not seeing one from T.

The event wasn't orginally suppose to start for another hour and a half-- strange, it was as if T called it.

Gguk showed one of the security guards his ticket and after scanning it, they nodded, letting him in.

A wave of warm air hit his face, immediately making him feel cozier than outside, as he walked with the stream of the other fans into the main part of the venue, where everyone was going to their seats.

And to Jeongguk's disappointment, he was pretty far back at seat 128 out of 150 which would also be the order in which they would go to meet Taehyung.

The last couple people started to trickle in, making themselves comfortable in their seats with their large bags filled with presents.

Jeongguk's heart was beating pretty fast at this point already and Taehyung was not even in sight yet but he had this underlying feeling that--

"Hello everyone!"

-- he would come out any second.

"We started earlier because i don't want you all freezing outside."

Everyone around him was cheering and greeting Taehyung back in excitement but Jeongguk stayed starstruck, not even being able to comprehend the situation.

All he understood in that moment was how fucking gorgeous, pretty yet so hot, cute yet so manly, Taehyung could be, to the point where he just wasnt able to take his eyes off that so ethereal man.

And that was when he noticed Taehyung's outfit -- the exact one he was wearing when talking to him via Skype. The look he even talked to T about because it was just that stunning.
The look that he hoped Taehyung would wear to the fansign.

He noticed Taehyung's eyes scanning the crowd, trying to look at every person, when suddenly his eyes landed directly on him, making Jeongguk almost collapse into his seat.

Taehyung was making intense eye contact. With HIM.

"I do see some familiar faces." Taehyung laughed, still looking deeply into Jeongguks eyes. "Lets start we dont want to waste time purples!" And with that he turned around, sitting at the table behind him, breaking the eye contact.

Only then Jeongguk realized he was holding his breath the entire time.

The first ten people stood up, as their numbers were called, going to line up right infront of the signing table where Taehyung was sitting.

All Gguk could concentrate on the whole time was Taehyung.

Just the way he was around fans. So caring and adorable to the point where you could literally see the excitement in his eyes when talking to a purple and Jeongguk was sure, he never had seen someone look that adorable with cat ears before.

"111 to 120!" The security guard instructed for the next people to get up and come to the front.

Jeongguk would be in the next ten people.

He quickly pulled his phone out, opening the camera to check on his makeup, noticing that sadly most of the lip balm was already worn off.

Jeongguk put his phone securely in his backpack, taking out the notebook in the same go, checking his drawing one last time really hoping Taehyung will like it eventhough it's not much -- not an expensive gift like other people brought.

"121 to 130 next!"

Jeongguk took a deep gulping breath, trying to calm his senses.

He stood up wobbly, hands and thighs slightly shaking, as he made his way to the front, gropping the notebook in both nervousness and excitement.

'Okay still 7 people before me, calm down.' He thought to himself as Taehyung was still kind of pretty far away from him.

He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath again in order to calm his rapid heart beating.

With each person moving forward, he came closer to looking at Taehyung and holy shit -- the man was even better looking from up close.

'Okay only 2 people in front of me. You got this JK.' He kept telling himself over and over.

'Try not to shutter', 'Act cool', 'Dont blush' -- but he knew himself that he will do the opposite of all those things, recalling the skype call he had with Taehyung.

The girl in front of Jeongguk was now almost done talking to Taehyung, giving him a cute Ryan plush, that he happily accepted.

"Next person." He heared the security guard standing near Taehyung instruct.

So the girl waved to Tae, going off to the side back to her seat.

It was Jeongguk's turn now.

His feet almost not moving, he shakily stepped forward, clutching the notebook in his clammy hands.

"Ah~ Jeonggukie!" Taehyung exclaimed loudly, making the other fans laugh at his cuteness and Gguk smile awkwardly at all the attention that was now on them.

"Y-you remember m-my name?" Taehyung meets so many people, Jeongguk wouldn't have thought that he stood out or was rememberable in any way.

"Yes of course we tex-- skyped, yes right, skyped with Bangtan Radio." Taehyung smiled. "Oh you brought something?" He grabbed Jeongguk's hand with the notebook in it, placing it on the table but somehow still not exactly letting go of Jeongguks hand.

"N-no--i mean--yes b-but we-well-- its nothing s-special." Jeongguk stuttered -- good job, exactly what he didnt want to do.

Taehyung opened the notebook, his eyes widening upon seeing the sketch of himself.

"This is so beautiful, Jeonggukie! Just like you are!" Taehyung looked up at him, smiling brightly his eyes forming into little cresent moons. "Before i sign your notebook, could you sign your drawing?"

Gguk's eyes widened at Taehyung's request, not forgetting that he called him beautiful, but both things catching him off guard as Taehyung was already handing him the marker.

"O-okay-" Jeongguk shakily wrote his name underneath his drawing, not really having a signature of his own, handing the marker back to Taehyung who went right to signing the front of the notebook.

"C-could you m-maybe write a l-little get better soon m-message f-for my sister Hyeree?" Jeongguk knows that his sister was a pretty big fan of Taehyung too -- maybe even more of his dog Yeontan.

"Of course! How was visiting her in the hospital? Is she okay?" Taehyung asked as he wrote down a little message.

"It was n-normal ju- wait." It was like everything stopped around Jeongguk.

How does Taehyung even know that he visited his sister in the hospital -- how does he even know that she is in one?

He only told his closer friends. Jimin, Namjoon and -- T.

Suddenly it was like all dots connected.

"Jeonggukie? Why 'wait'?" Taehyung turned his head to the side in confusion as he handed him the signed notebook back, having taken out the drawing before.

"T?" Jeongguk asked out of the blue, startling Taehyung who widen his eyes.

"I- i can explain-i-" Just as Taehyung started his sentence he was interrupted by the security.

"Next person!"

And with that Jeongguk was forced away, still looking back at Taehyung in confusion who mouthed a 'wait for me' in distress, knowing he fucked up.

He really hoped that Tae or rather-- T but technically he is Taehy- whatever-- would have a good explanation for this.

So he went back to his seat, no clue what to even feel or how to react.

All he wanted in that moment was for someone to explain.

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Firstly ; hello to the wave of new readers thanks to my precious tkfcked aka @/kookietaex on instagram!

Thank you so so so so much baby it was the cutest thing ever i liTERALLY DONT DESERVE

If yall have any questions regarding my books or me as a person leave them here i guess kdkdkfkdke

Also i wanna show yall this

Okay but hoW CAN SOMEONE BE SOFTER BABY ILY peachkoo

And lastly wow surprise T IS TAEHYUNG WE ALL BEEN KNEW

anyways have a nice relaxing day everyone uwu