TW! SELF HARM
Please don't read if this triggers you and I'm always here to talk if anyone needs anything
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EVELYNS POV:

We have been working on the innovative design competition for the past few days and I happen to be the resident working on Dr. Shepherds project. She is trying to help Alex's patient Kimmy because her cancer has recently reappeared. We have to use ultrasound waves with the same frequency as the tumor tissue, so Dr. Shepherd can shatter it. I have been lucky enough to be able to help her with the design process while Bello and DeLuca are researching. I have been busy but still, I know it won't stop my urges, I start itching my arms. I need to get out of this room before I closes in ton me. "Dr. Shepherd, I'll be right back i have to go to the bathroom" i say shakily and quickly walk out of the room before she can answer.
I run to the nearest storage closet, knowing only have a few minutes so I need to work fast. "Scalpel... scalpel..." I mumble to myself as my shaking hands search for the surgical tool. After a few moments of searching I grasp the instrument and sink down to the floor. Trying my best to keep steady breaths knowing that I'm about to give into my addiction. In the back of my mind I try to stay strong but I always cave. I know my thighs are already covered in red marks so I roll up my sleeve, take a deep breath, and let the blade meet my skin. I finally let out the breath I didn't know I was holding, letting myself go deeper with each cut, making my way up my wrist. "You're not good, you're not worthy" I say to myself and the universe before letting the scalpel drop to the floor with a clang and bringing my knees to my chest. I sit there with tears welling in my eyes until I feel light headed and see the blood dripping onto the floor. I quickly clean up the floor and shove the blade in my pocket. I dizzily reach for the gauze, wrapping my wrist in a less then satisfactory way. Almost as if it's my first day in med school all over again.
I exit the storage room keeping my hand on the blade, almost to ground myself as the rest of my world sways. I open the lab door and continue to do my work, hoping to draw as little attention to myself as possible. "Dr. Becker... Dr. Becker? Evelyn?" Dr. Shepherd puts her hand on top of mine and I jump "Huh?" I respond, meeting her eyes "can we go talk quickly?" She asks, concern flashing on her face as she leads me to her office. She sits down on her leather couch and pats the spot next to her. As soon as I sit she grabs my arm. "You left the room in a rush and now you're bleeding can I look at your arm?" She asks. I shake my head no as tears threaten to spill out of my eyes. Her look softens "Listen Evelyn. I'm going to be straight up with you. I know what's going on. You're not being punished but either I have to look or I'm gonna get someone else to." I nod to avoid choking on my words. So she rolls up my sleeve and the dam breaks, I start sobbing and try to get up off the couch but Dr. Shepherd pulls me down and into her arms. "Shh it's ok I have you, let it go" she coos as I continue to sob. She starts swaying back and forth in an attempt to soothe me and I finally stop crying. "Ok I'm going to have to look at your arm now Ev. Can you stay here so I can grab a first aid kit and call us out for the rest of the day?" She says wiping my cheek with her thumb. "Ok" I reply as she gets up and leaves the room.
As soon as the door closes I reach for the scalpel in the pocket, lightly running my finger over the blade, contemplating weather or not to give into the temptation for the second time today. "Dr Bailey said we can have the rest of the day off-" she starts but pauses when she sees my hand in my pocket "Evelyn I need whatever's in your pocket" she tells me with a stern glance. I pull my hand and the scalpel out of my pocket and give it to her, refusing to meet her eyes. "Good girl I know it's hard, I'm here for you" she says sweetly while dropping the scalpel on her desk and sitting next to me. She opens the first aid kit with her left hand and I place my arm in her right. She look down at my arm " you don't need stitches Ev but I am going to clean your arm and wrap it. Ok?" She asks and I nod. She cleans off my arm with antiseptic and grabs the gauze to wrap it. She finishes and smiles while putting everything away. "Thank you Dr. Shepherd" I say "You can call me Amelia and do you have a change of clothes in your locker?" She questions "I don't" I reply "it's ok, I have some in my locker come on, we can grab them then come up here to talk" she explains. I follow her to her locker and we both change.
After we head back up to her office and she pulls out the couch to reveal the sofa bed. Then she goes to the closet and pulls out a big fluffy blanket, setting it on the bed. She lays down and signals me over "I'm exhausted and I think you are too. Let's talk after a nap. Ok?" She questions "I agree, plus this bed is oddly comfortable" I say while turning over and trying to fall asleep. She claps and the lights turn off. It only takes a few minutes before I get urges again. I am too alone with my thoughts. "Amelia?" I whisper not wanting to wake her if she's already asleep "Ev?" She replies "I need to go to the bathroom real quick" I say chickening out. I can't burden her anymore. "Evelyn that's not what what you needed to tell me. And I'm pretty sure you you don't have to go to the bathroom" she responds and my tears start to fall again "yeah" I admit attempting to hide the fact that I'm crying again. Amelia shouldn't have to to deal with me. "I know baby come here" she coos and holds her arms open to me. I straddle her waste before laying my head on her chest. I take a deep breath and lift my head up "You smell amazing" I tell her. "Lavender perfume I can show you which one" she laughs "no thank you, when I hug and you and smell it I want to think of you and only you.I want it to be something that's special about you for me. Not something special about me if that makes sense" I reply and blush. She giggles and I put my head back down finally falling asleep.

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"I have surgery but I need to see you at the end of the day to check your arms. Please try to stay clean" Amelia calls "I will I promise" I reply as I rush off to the locker room. I'm already going to be late for rounds

"Where were you last night" Jo asks as I run into the locker room "and who's clothes are you wearing?"
"I was with Dr. Shepherd" I reply nonchalantly
"wait. YOU SLEPT WITH SHEPHERD?!" She exclaims
"No, we'll yes, i had a rough day and I fell asleep on top of her." I blush while putting on my scrub shirt "I know she's in charge of me but she smelled like lavender... and I don't think I wanna sleep anywhere else ever again" I continue. Just as Dr. Bailey walks in.

DR. BAILEYS POV:

"I know she's in charge of me but she smelled like lavender... and I don't think I wanna sleep anywhere else ever again" Of course the first thing I hear when walking into the locker room is my idiot residents talking about screwing with my idiot attendings. Becker being gay is news to me though. "Who Dr. Becker?- you know what? Never mind I don't want to know." I say. I need to stop being a meddler. It's none of my business but I have to know. I walk out forgetting whatever I had to say and start my mission. "Bailey I need a consult" Alex says zipping past the resident lounge. "Uh yeah I'll meet you there. Just give me a few minutes. I need to figure something out." I say rushing towards the nurses station, the one place I'm destined to find an attending, or five. Luckily I was right as I see Meredith, Richard, and Maggie gathered around the nurses station. "Dr. Bailey! How are you?" Maggie asks as she flips through charts on tablet. I slide behind her and take a deep breath in, trying to discreetly smell the woman in-front of me. Ugh just baby power and dove deodorant. "I'm fine." I mutter before moving on to my next victim, Meredith. I lean over her shoulder pretending to read her charts but I hover my nose just an over the crux between her neck and shoulder and take a deep breath in. Ugh eucalyptus. "Bailey get over here!" Richard yells pulling me out of my mission. I quickly walk over to him "yes Richard?" I say "why on gods green earth are you sniffing our attendings?" He asks. Just as he says this my second victim walks over 0. "So that's why you were behind me, you were smelling me, but for what reason?" Meredith questions "well I'm just trying to figure something out" I say hoping to dig myself out of the hole. "Which is?" Richard presses "well I heard Becker say something about an attending that smells like lavender so I'm trying to figure out whose the idiot that decided to sleep with a resident." I say matter of factly "I thought you said you stopped meddling?" Meredith laughs before walking away and Richard just signs. Looks like I need a better plan.

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Merediths POV:

"We did it Wilson!" Our mini liver test worked!" I tell the resident. "We did it! I'll see you in 30!" She exclaims before walking out of the lab. I do one last check on the mice before going to grab my own lunch. "Mer! Wait up!" Amelia yells as she runs to catch up with me, taking her scrub cap off in the process. "I just got done a 6 hour surgery! How was your morning?" she asks "Wilson and I got mini livers to work!" I reply with a smile "That's awesome!" She cheered before going in to hug me. For Dr. Bailey and the rest of the attendings sakes I decide to report back to her what Amelia smells like.
Lavender.

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DR BAILEYS POV

"DR BAILEY" Meredith calls while running up to me "Dr. Grey, there better be a damn good reason you're running in my hospital" I reply "well I know who your lavender culprit is." She laughs "GREY! tell me." I whisper. ... "thank you Meredith" I tell her
Oh she's gonna get it. Like brother like sister I guess.

EVELYNS POV:

Finally 8pm, I'm done my shift. I have to go see Amelia but I kept my promise. I stayed clean. It was hard but honestly I just want to make her proud. "Ev! How did today go?" Amelia questions as soon as I walk in "I did it" I say smiling. She hugs me and I pull away blushing. She grabs my chin to tilt it upward. I am met with her blue blue eyes. I melt in them. If I could I would wake up to her blue eyes and lavender perfume everyday. She smiles before connecting our lips. "AMELIA SHEPHERD" someone yells

DR BAILEYS POV

I walk up to Amelia's office getting ready to tell her off. Of course when I walk in she's kissing her resident. "AMELIA SHEPHERD" I yell and they jump away. "You should not be sleeping with a resident." I continue. "Huh? We never slept together." Dr. Becker says with a confused expression and I see Meredith walk up behind me attempting to hide her laughter. "But you said this morning that someone smelled like lavender and you were blushing." I exclaim "wow thanks for exposing me Dr. Bailey" Dr. Becker laughs "no I had a rough day and Ame- Dr. Shepherd helped me. I fell asleep with her and was telling Jo because I've always had a bit of a thing for Dr. Shepherd" she continues cheeks heating up "so I went around smelling people- NO ok but Dr. Shepherd you were about to kiss her." I say trying to regain leverage "Yes I was. But you were smelling people?" Amelia asks while chuckling. I give up. Plus I like Amelia and Evelyn they are good people. I'm not going to stop their relationship. "Dr. Shepherd. I give you permission to date my favorite resident. But if you hurt her I hurt you. And I'm Dr. Bailey I have eyes and ears everywhere. And Becker. You will NOT repeat that you are my favorite." I tell them. Evelyn gives Amelia a quick kiss then looks down at the floor. "AND NO FUNNY BUSINESS IN MY HOSPITAL" I yell while walking out of the office.

AMELIAS POV

"Where were we?" I smirk before pulling Evelyn into me.

A/N: THIS IS SO SILLY! I can imagine Dr Bailey doing this. Plus I love Amelia being comforting! I WROTE THIS IN 1 NIGHT TOO! Also thank you littlegreyylover  for the help! I love how we contribute to each others writing. Please comment because I've written so much today I'm gonna fall over. Also this is not proofread.
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-Abby
(WC 2332)