Today Hoseok asked me if I was willing to consider professional help.

I told him that I didn't think that I needed it. I could deal with it on my own.

He gestured to the hospital bed I lay in and said that I obviously couldn't. He then dropped the topic.

He asked me why I started hurting myself in the first place. I answered by saying that I didn't remember the specific reason, only that I thought that I deserved the pain I was giving myself.

He asked me if I still thought I deserved it.

I didn't answer.