Hey, I owe everyone an update, an apology, and an explanation. (As usual lmao)
The situation I was going through back in October was a really bad breakup. I lost, not only my partner but my best friend after we swore to never let our relationship be the thing to end our friendship. This new year was the first in two years that I did not celebrate with them in my life. I will not go into detail about what happened, but I needed time to heal. After much thought, going into the new year (happy 2024!), I've decided I will be here with little to no activity. Wattpad was such a big part of getting my life back right at the beginning of my healing journey, and there are so many good people and good memories here, but as my healing journey continues and evolves, Wattpad is phasing out of it. I will be here now and then like I have been recently, but I will not be frequent. I want everyone on here to know how much you are loved. Everyone who has helped me on here (I hope you know who you are) I love you, and I will never ever forget you. Never in a million years. Wattpad can have so much hate and drama, etc. absorbing the app sometimes, but the people that I've met and connected with over the years have been the warmest people in the world. We've had differing opinions, differing communities, we've met though comment sections, message boards, etc. It's insane. Through it all, we're all just strangers from a little bit of everywhere just trying to get by. It would be unfathomable to think of how far I've come on this app if I hadn't lived it.
Thank you for giving me the perfect push to keep moving. Thank you for giving me the safe space to be myself. Thank you for being kind even when the world hasn't been kind to you. I don't even have enough words or enough thanks to be honest. This is so difficult for me. Letting go will take a weight off of me as far as the guilt of leaving everyone in the dark, but it's rough to accept just how much I've already left behind.
You're all special, important, loved, and so much more. Seriously, I mean all of you. I want to say more, but I don't know what to say, and I don't want to ramble and repeat myself. So, with a heavy heart, this will be a goodbye for now.
~Estrella