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Okay this chapter is more quick so tell me if it's confusing. The POV switches and there is letters, blah, blah. I'm rambling again :)

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Chapter 25

Lily's POV

~Richard

Although my parents don't like the idea of me dating at a confusing time of my life I accept your invitation for dinner. Unlike my parents I know your a good man.

See you Friday.

Denise XOXO~

Folding my mom's letter I put back into my bag. With a loud sigh I leaned back into the bus seat. This is a woman I never knew. This sweet, caring woman was not the one that slit me from my chest down to my navel.

I grabbed the bag of pills from my bag. After I dropped Aidan off at the garage, careful not to be seen of course. I went to the pharmacy and asked the woman behind the counter what kind of prescriptions these were.

To my surprise they weren't anything you could get high off. These pills, Strattera as the woman called them. Strattera is a drug used to help children with ADHD. The woman thought they were mine and warned me they cause the user to hallucinate.

Now why were they under the floorboards? What did they have to do with my mom? I looked out the window as the bus began to slow down in front of a three story beat up apartment building.

Hoisting myself up I grabbed my bag off the seat. It's now or never.

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Ethan's POV

Swiftly walking around the crowds of people I tried keeping control of myself. I haven't heard or seen Lily all day and I'm getting a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Spotting Rachel by her locker with Nick I made my way over to them. Rachel nodded at Nick a worried expression on her face.

"Have you seen Lily?" I asked trying not to sound suspicious

"No. Jake said he saw her this morning before school but she never came." Rachel said twisting her fingers

My stomach twisted at her words. Pulling out my phone I dialled her number. It went straight to voicemail.

"We tried man, she doesn't answer." Nick said

I ran my fingers through my hair out of frustration. Where the hell is she?

"Where is Jake." I asked through clenched teeth

Rachel flinched at my tone tightening her hold on Nick's hand.

"He went to the garage." Nick answered

My jaw clenched and unclenched as I fought the urge to hit something. Jake went to his dad no doubt which means he has no idea where Lily is.

"I'm going too." I said turning on my heels

"We're coming too." Rachel chimed

I didn't protest as they followed close behind. With quick, long strides I pushed past people who didn't dare give me dirty looks. They knew better than to mess with me.

Hopping into my car I started the engine and raced out of the school parking lot like a mad man.

Nick followed or tried to. I was speeding through the streets only stopping for the red light.

When I arrived at the garage I practically ran to Mr. Evans office where Jake was.

"Andrew what are you doing here?" Mr. Evans said rising from his chair

Ignoring him I turned to Jake who had his cell pressed to his ear. He cursed under his breath and hung up. I'm guessing she didn't answer.

Rachel and Nick came bursting through the door.

"Anything?" Rachel asked a worried expression on her face

Jake pinched the bridge of his nose and shook his head. He leaned against the desk.

"What the hell are you kids doing in my office?" Mr. Evans said his voice rising

I could care less if he is getting ticked off.

"What happened the last time you saw her?" I asked Jake

"She had a nightmare, she woke up shaking and crying. She said she was fine but I don't think she was." he sighed

Her mother no doubt. Running my fingers through my hair I tried calming myself down. I'll find her, she's fine.

"Maybe she just needed some space." Rachel squeaked her blue eyes filling with tears

"She texted me a few hours ago saying she needed to figure things out. Whatever that means."

My brows furrowed downwards, what did that mean? Figure out her dream?

"Okay Lily wanted to figure something out so she had to go somewhere quiet. A place she is familiar with." I thought out loud

Jake nodded and sat up.

"Here is the plan split up and see if we can find her. Check the house, the playground, anywhere Lily has been." I ordered

I know Lily and she wouldn't disappear out of the blue, something is up.

"Someone answer me?!" Mr. Evans shouted slamming his chubby hands against his desk

That was all it took to push my newfound restrain on my anger pass it's limit. Whipping my head in his direction with a cold, hard look on my face.

He stepped back a look of fear in his eyes. "Stop your fucking whining and help or sit your ass down." I barked

"Andy." Rachel spoke her voice thick with her own fear

She grabbed me by the crook of my elbow towing me away from Mr. Evans before I completely lost it.

"What is all the yelling about?" Jack asked from behind me

Taking a deep breath I tried calming myself down again. Get a grip.

"Lily is missing." Jake answered stepping around me

"Have you seen her?" he added sounding more desperate than I've ever heard him sound

"She's not lost silly, she went home." Aidan said slipping through his father's legs

Bending down to Aidan's height I grabbed his small shoulders, not forcefully though.

"What do you mean?" I asked

Aidan backed away his eyes widening. I'm scaring him probably. Willing my face to soften I asked him again.

"Well after we found the box Lily said she had to bring me here because she had to go home." he answered

"What box?" Rachel asked in a sweet tone

Aidan's brows knitted together like he didn't understand the question.

"It was in the floor. There was pills, letters and a picture of Lily's mom." He looked down a sad look crossing his childish features

"Lily misses her mom." he added softly

Rachel pushed passed me and cradled Aidan to her chest.

A box in the floor? How could it be in the floor? I stood up puzzled. "Do you mean on the floor?" I asked

Aidan pulled away from Rachel his cheeks stained with tears. I immediately felt guilty for scaring the poor kid.

"No, in the floor. Lily and I found it under the floorboards."

Under? Feeling confused and frustrated I raked my fingers through my hair. What did Lily find that caused her to disappear without a word?

"Let's go than, Lily is at the house." Jake said walking past Jack

"No we were at your house when we found the box. Lily said she needed to go home." Aidan said

Jake stopped by the door frame looking confused. Home? It all clicked together.Turning to Mr. Evans I could see he figured it out too.

"Do you still know the address?" I asked

He nodded a dark look flashing through his eyes. Mr. Evans walked around the desk.

"I'm coming too." Jake said sternly

"Wait where exactly are you going?" Rachel asked

She didn't know, Lily never told her. I looked over at Nick who knew.

"Lily had a rather err.. colourful past." Nick said rubbing the back of his neck

I snorted, that's not the half of it. Rachel stood to her full height her blue eyes hardening. She looked between us understanding something was off.

"Than what are we waiting for." she said walking out towards the front door

Nick beamed his eyes filled with pride for his girl.

Now I need to find mine.

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Lily's POV

Here I was at apartment 12B. Grabbing hold of the worn silver doorknob I took a calming breath as memories flooded my mind.

"Calm down." I whispered to myself and turned the doorknob

An elderly lady downstairs said a man named Tim lived here and always left the door open for his 'girls'. The woman gave me a disgusted look, she probably thought I was one of those girls.

As the door creaked open the smell of weed and alcohol greeted me. Wrinkling my nose in disgust I walked in leaving the door open just a crack.

It was still the same brown stained white walled room with the small grey Furness that didn't work. But now there is a large garbage green futon in the middle of the room and a white mini fridge beside it. Against the far wall was a small t.v.

The floor was stained with cigarette ash, glitter and white powder. There was fast food wrappers thrown at the corner of the room. Taking slow cautious steps I walked into what use to be my mom's room.

There was a king sized bed that had no sheets only a thin blue blanket. I almost gagged at the white stains. Where is that rose?

The wallpaper was peeling almost completely showing the rotten wood beneath it. Bending to the dusty floor I checked the ground. Nothing.

I walked back out to the living room. I don't remember any rose. My eyes wandered around the pigsty apartment, besides Tim wouldn't have kept the rose.

The floor groaned loudly as I walked into the kitchen. The wooden cabinet doors weren't there and the drawers were nailed shut. The old black ovenwas missing it's knobs.

The only thing that was still working was the black small fridge that hummed loudly in the silent apartment. Just as I was going to walk out I saw a couple boxes in the corner behind the small garbage bag.

Opening the top box I found some of my old summer dresses. The ones my mom use to dress me in when my dad came to visit. Some of my mom's nicer clothing was also in there.

This Tim guy seemed weird if he kept children's clothes, I shuddered at the thought of actually meeting him.

Pushing the first box aside I opened the second which was filled with my old picture books and a few books I recognised were my mom's. As bad as she was she loved writing.

I ran my fingers over the velvety plum coloured cover of one of the books.

A small smile spread across my face as I pictured my mom writing instead of her usual bad behaviour.

Picking the book up I opened it to a random page. It was dated a few months before I was born.

~I went to the doctor she said my baby is fine. Momma kicked me out of the house though but I managed to find an apartment. It's not great but it will due for now.

Richard doesn't know yet. Every time I try calling him that woman Annabelle hangs up. I've sent letters too. I'm afraid he doesn't want to be in Lily's life.

It's fine though, we'll manage. I'll take care of my little girl. I'll be all she needs.

Daddy sends money without momma knowing which I'm grateful for. I'll manage, for Lily. ~

I put the book down. Dad said she didn't tell him about me till after she gave birth. He lied.

Turning a few pages I began to read.

~My head is spinning. There are bugs crawling all over me. The doctors say I'm fine. But I'm not!

There are people coming, there coming for me. They put it in me to harm me. She is apart of them, this thing in me is planning against me. There are voices and sounds they're waiting for the right moment to come for me.

Drinks drawn them out. I met this guy at the bar down the street. He says he has a friend who can make the crawling and voices go away. I'm meeting him tomorrow.

I want the pain to go away!! It hurts, everything hurts. ~

I swallowed the bile that rose in my throat. In the first entry I read she spoke lovingly of me but in this one she calls me an 'it' and a 'thing'.

Something is fishy. None of this makes sense. The pills obviously played a part in my mom's change but why didn't she just stop taking them? They are for children why was she taking them in the first place?

Well at least I know how she started with drugs and drinking. The 'pain' she wrote caused her or hallucinations were the cause not me.

I shook my head and shoved the two other velvety cover books in my bag. I need to figure this out.

The front door slammed shut startling me. Standing up I saw a scruffy, tall man with blood shot eyes walk in. He was a big man, not fit but his size definitely gave him an advantage.

He spotted me and smiled revealing a set of yellow rotting teeth.

"What a nice surprise to come home to. What's your name baby?" he said moving closer to me

I'm guessing that's Tim and by the looks of him a drug addict. I stepped back bumping into the fridge.

Tim smirked and brought a rough hand up to my cheek and rubbed it. I cringed and pulled my face away.

"Your trespassing. I'm going to have to call the cops unless your willing to give me something in return." he raised a bushy eyebrow up suggestively

My breath hitched as he ran a finger down my collarbone. By the looks of his apartment he'd get arrested not me. Besides he seemed like the kind of person who avoided cops.

"I was visiting a friend. Guess I got his apartment wrong." I lied slipping away from his touch

I darted for the door but he caught me by the arm and pulled me to his side.

"Don't lie little girl. I heard you were asking around about this apartment." he said his voice cold as his hand tightened around my arm

I opened my mouth to come up with a lie when he slapped me hard. Falling backwards I landed onto the stained futon. I whimpered as he stroke me again.

"You a cop bitch or just some fucking junkie stealing my shit?!" he shouted

I shook my head, my hand cradling my throbbing cheek. My body shook as he smirked again coming closer to me.

"Which ever one you need to pay." he said grabbing my ankles

My eyes widened as I kicked my feet trying to get out of his hold. He sat at the edge of the futon and pulled me to him.

"No!! Help someone help me!" I shouted my voice thick with tears

Tim laughed an evil laugh as he pulled my shoes off. I clawed at his hands trying to get away from him but that only angered him.

"That's it bitch no more playing around." he hissed

He pulled his pants down to his ankles than his boxers. I screamed as he looked at me with dark lustful eyes.

He smirked and tried undoing my pants. I hit him as hard as I could while screaming at the top of my lungs.

"Shout all you want nobody is going to help you." he sneered yanking the zipper of my sweater

I felt his hands scrape against my skin. My stomach churned as he placed a disgusting kiss to my neck.

I opened my mouth to scream when he tossed my sweater to the ground leaving me in only a tank top. My throat was dry and no sound came out.

Tears streamed down my face as I whispered for him to stop.

"You'll like it baby, you'll see." he said holding my hands above my head

I shook my head and closed my eyes willing for him to disappear. My body went limp in fear as he tightened his hold.

I've read about women that get raped but I never thought I'd end up as one. Sobbing quietly I begged him to stop but he didn't listen to my whispers.

A small whimper escaped my lips as he kissed down my chest. It's not happening, none of this is real.

Shutting my eyes tight I chanted that over and over again just like I use to when I was little.

Tim moaned feeling up against my body. A sharp scream left my lips without my permission as I felt my jeans slipping down my thighs.

It's not happening, none of this is real.

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