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Chapter 12

With wobbly legs I took a step foward gliding on the fresh ice. My hands were out in front of me in case I fell. A group of guys whooshed by me causing me to lean to far on one side almost falling face first.

It seemed everyone from school was at the pond. It was a two days since my traumatic realization that I look like my mom. After a night of reliving my past and a whole day of imprisionment at home Rach managed to drag me out today. It snowed yesterday adding a thick layer of ice to the oversized pond in the back of the park.

I hate skating mainly because I can't stay on my feet. But both Annabelle and Rach teamed up to get me out. Annabelle was 'concerned' about my non social life. The longer I know Annabelle the more I think she is trying to live through me. I shuddered at the thought.

"Come on your not even trying." Nick came up behind me holding my hand pulling me foward

He looked so elegant in a pair of black sweats swishing his skates in the ice pulling me like cargo behind him.

"Remember in the movie Bambi when he is first born and the hyper active rabbit gets him to get on the ice?" I asked

Nick tugged me past a couple holding hands.

"Yeah I'm Bambi and your the hyper rabbit."

He turned to face me and laughed his breath swirling in the air. Nick's cheeks were pink from the cold brightening his ocean blue eyes.

Letting go of my hand Nick skated a figure eight around me. Show off!

"Isn't this better than mopping in your room?" he gestured to the packed pond

The pond was filled with children and teens enjoying the cold weather. Parents watched their kids from the sidelines. There were people scadered on the banks of the pond playing in the snow which to me sounded better. Some vendors took this oppurtunity to set mini stands of hot beverages and sweets. I saw a little girl sitting on a blanket with a chocolate cupcake and hot chocolate.

Too busy wishing for a warm cup of coffee I didn't notice Nick screaming at me to turn until I landed on my butt. I slid foward my rear throbbing as laughter erupted from around me. Yeah I had to fall in front of teens and kids, perfect audience.

Slowly standing up I rubbed my wet butt. Nick slid up to me trying to hold back laughter.

"I'm taking a coffee break, you want one?" I asked

"Nah you go ahead Bambi." he said helping me to the side of the pond

When I was safely on the ground I punched his arm earning an irratated look. Nick rubbed his arm

"I swear your part man." he said jokingly

He pushed me playfully before dashing back to the ice. With a victorious laugh he blended into the sea of skaters.

Jerk!

After grabbing an extra strong cup of coffee I sat on the snowy ground, my butt was already wet and cold.

It was a chilly afternoon with the sun shining down onto the fresh snow making it shimmer like diamonds. The main roads and walkways were cleared in the park. Four inches of snow covered the slide and courts leaving either the swings or the pond clear to go on.

A little boy slid by causing ice to come shooting my way and into my coffee. Dreadfully I dumped it in the garbage when the same blond boy did it again.

He stopped a few feet away from me. He had a thick green scarf covering his face and a army colored hat that stuck up revealing his golden hair. The boy slid again shooting more ice my way.

The little brat smiled his baby blue eyes glimmering with amusement. Wait a sec.

I jumped back into the ice and grabbed the boy by his arm just as he attempted to slid away.

"Adian you brat what are you doing here?"

Aidan lowered his scarf from his face and flashed a devlish smile. He is going to be a heart break no dout about it.

"I had a day off and figured we'd have some fun for a change."

Jack skated over to us placing a hand on Aidan and my shoulder. Jack's blonde hair swept over one eye in a hot way. His tall lean body close to mine. Jack stared down at me his bright eyes searching my face.Wow Jack is hot!

"So are you a good skater?" Jack asked

My earlier attempt flashed through my head.

"Ehhh.." I responded shyly

Jack smiled the corners of his eyes crinkling slightly. He took my hand dragging me foward gently so I slid on my own. Aidan laughed from beside me. How embarrassing can this get?

Jack's fingers tightened their hold when I tried to slip mine out. He turned around so he was skating backwards. Jack had a smile similair to Aidan's.

Jack stuck his other hand out for me to take, I took it almost immidately seeing how my legs queaked. He pulled me closer to him.

"Keep your legs apart but not too much. Don't poke your butt out like that."

Surprising me he reached his hand down and pushed my butt so it lined with my back. A blush crept up to my face at -the what I think- innocent action. Jack gave me a wink not embarrassed at all. A flirt no dout.

"Now take a step like when you normally walk. Smaller, that's it." he coached

Obeying I took baby steps surprised that my legs weren't wobbling as always. Aidan slid in front of us gracefully, facing me with what else but a smirk.

I felt Jack loosening his grip, slowly skating faster from me. Panicing that I am on my own so quickly I leaned foward. Jack was sliding further away only our finger tips touching.

Jack purposely sped up forcing me to catch up. Soon enough Jack let go as I easily slid foward. My hands went up in victory as I successfully, although slower than I wanted I did it! I couldn't help the excited laugh that escaped my lips.

"I'm actually doing it!" I clapped my hands together

Jack laughed along with me rather than thinking I'm crazy. Aidan stopped beside me giving his father and me a weird look.

"Old people have no sense of humor." Aidan muttered

"I am not old." Jack protested

"You do look a little.. gray." I teased

Aidan snickered as Jack crossed his arms over his chest.

"Really after I just helped you your going to diss me?"

Sliding foward to place my hands on his wide brawd shoulders. Bending to his ear I figured I'd get him back for the butt thing.

"Gray suits you. It makes you more..." I whispered my nose rubbing against his earlobe

Jack stiffened his breath catching in his throat. Not a very good flirt.

"Expereinced." I breathed out stepping away

Jack chuckled when I skated away. Maybe not as bad as I thought.

"Lily."

I turned in time to see Jack racing towards me with Aidan not far behind. Oh crap! Paniced I took larger steps surprising myself at the sped and steady strides. I sped past a group of kids that were holding hands to steady each other. Turning around I saw Jack getting closer with a smug smile.

Up a head I spotted Nick and the guys playing around. I dashed by earning a confused look from Nick. Ten minutes ago I was stumbling by and now I can actually stand.

When I came up to a corner I heard a pair of ragid breathes behind me. A hand reached out brushing against my waist. By its rough tug I guessed Jack.

"We're catching up." Aidan breathed behind me

That's where I made the mistake of turning to stick my tongue out not noticing that I should turn. Making a rough wide turn I lost my balance falling straight in front of a couple making out in the snow.

My butt was soaked from the long fall and my pride has seen better days. The couple pulled apart from sucking faces as I groaned in pain. Just as I was going to stand up and dash away my body froze.

With his legs tangled with Anglea's and his hand on her butt Ethan stared at me with dark lust full eyes. My heart sunk at the sight before me.

He was making out with her?! I wanted to pull them apart and wipe the cloud of desire from his eyes. A pang of jealous jolted through out me. The very thought of being in his arms made me smile, the other night was amazing. I wanted Ethan to kiss me instead he pulled away. Now here he was in public making out with her!

I felt rejected and hurt. Ethan pulled a lustful Anglea closer as his trademark bad boy smile appeared. It wasn't his normal sweet smile I loved. This smile had a second meaning.

"Stare much." he sneered

My eyes had been on his arms tightly around Anglea but now I dragged them up to his cold hard gaze. My heart squeezed tight painfully at his cold manner.

Ethan never spoke to me that way even when I ignored him. He always gave me that sweet boyish smile that made my heart soar.

"I-I.." I studdered unable to process a word

My eyes wandered down to their tightly pressed bodies. Jealously burned through out me keeping me frozen like a statue.

"If you don't mind leaving so we may continue." Anglea said sounding annoyed

Oh yeah slut you'd love that! She had no principles did she? There are families here, impressionable children out for fun not sex education.

Ethan pulled Anglea's face to his crashing his lips to hers aggressively. A pain washed through me. My eyes stung from the on coming tears. He isn't or ever was mine so why should I care?

But I continued to stare dumbfound as a pain shot through my chest. He doesn't care that I'm right here. The thought itself practically crippled me, he doesn't care. He never did, it was all pity that made him comfort me. I should have known that.

Ethan only comforts me when we're alone. It never meant anything like I foolishly hoped. He just saw a stupid, pathetic girl with a screwed up life. The truth stung like lemon juice to a cut.

I was just his good deed of the day. To think that we were friends is beyond far fetched.

"Lily are you okay?"

Jack lifted me to my feet as I seemed to have lost the ability to move. Ethan pulled away from Anglea to stare at Jack confused. I felt disgusted at his very face, his desire for the slut all over his face.

Unable to look at him to long I turned my head into the crook of Jack's arm. What the hell is wrong with me?

"Can you help me to the side of the pond?" I asked skating away without his reply

With Jack's help I was on the ground a safe distance from Ethan. The pain in my chest raw from his mean behavior. Did he want to show me he is not interested in me? Couldn't he have been gentler though.

"Are you sure your alright?" Jack asked bending down to my eye level

The concern in his eyes were undeniable. Funny how a guy I barely know cares more than one I have known for years. I turned to Ethan's direction. He was half leaning on top of Anglea unaware of anything around him neverless me.

"Yeah." I squeaked weakly

Quickly I averted my eyes trying not to show any emotion. Jack pursed his lips not buying my lie. Before he could say anything I managed to start a competition between Aidan and Jack on who could skate from one side of the pond to the other. In the sake of their pride both guys skated like crazy trying to win.

I laughed as Aidan pushed Jack slightly gaining the lead. Although my eyes were on the race I couldn't help notice the cold glare from across the pond.

It was lste when Jack dropped me off at home. The guys all went home at dark but I stayed with Jack and Aidan. We skated until my butt practically froze into a popsicle. To be honest it was a fun, care free day. One I hadn't had in a long time.

When I walked in the house with a smile as wide as my arm daddy gave me a puzzled look.

"Hey you had fun sweetie?" he asked his arm around a glaring Annabelle

I shrugged trying not to show all the excitement on my face. Dad and Annabelle shared a concerned look. They are the ones who dragged me out today now they're mad?

Annabelle snuggled closer to dad's side.

"I thought you went with Nick and Rachel." dad said his voice tight

My brows furrowed as Annabelle patted his hand the way Cindy did to Jake a few days ago.

"I did." I stated my arms now crossed over my chest

"So who was that?" dad said his voice rising

Jack works for dad if I mention that I spent a whole day with him I don't think dad will be happy. Its just Jack and we didn't do anything wrong. Good thing dad didn't recongize his car.

"Just a friend."

"A guy?"

I nodded getting a bit annoyed. What because its a guy it means we did something wrong? I'm always with Nick did that mean we did something too?

"Who is he?" dad asked rising from his seat

"A friend." I repeated trying to stand my ground

He walked until he was towering beside me dispite the fact that I was standing on a step. It was then I noticed dad's broad arms that were similair to Jake's. Dad's light brown eyes hard with a growing anger that was never directly on me.

"Rachel called two hours ago. You could imagine my surprise when I answered her. Who is he?!" he yelled a vein bulging in his neck

Dad and I never talked about guys only because I was never around any except Nick who was practically my brother. Now he decides all of a sudden to demand who I'm with?

I felt my own anger rising. He never once cared who I was with as long as I wasn't in a corner with a book. For god sake he wanted me to make friends or was that all bull.

"It is none of your business who he is."

He looked taken back at my response. Dad clenched his fists, his face reddening slightly. I have never seen him like this.

"I am your father and you are going to tell me who you were fucking around with?"

Now I was the one who was shocked. He thinks I was having sex because I was with a guy!

Annabelle walked over to dad placing a hand in the crook of his arm pulling him back slightly. Dad yanked his arm away never pulling his gaze from me.

"Are you serious?" I breathed angerily

Jake and Melissa came in from the kitchen with puzzled looks. No dout they heard most of our conversation since we both were yelling.

"Richard don't." Annabelle pleaded

"The car is different from the one that dropped you off on friday. What you got tired of that one?"

I blinked confused at what he was saying. Did I hear him right? No surely he isn't saying what I think he is.

"By the way your eyes were red I'm guessing he ended and now you jumped to the next bed!" he shouted spitting a bit on me

Standing shocked by the kitchen Jake searched my blank face for any sign of the truth. My eyes stung and I knew that I was on the verge of a breakdown.

"I have kept my mouth shut for a while about your whoring around but when you disappear for a couple hours with a guy that's where I draw the line." he rose a finger to my face

My whoring around? When have I ever done anything? If I'm not with Nick or Rach I'm here. Where is all of this coming from?

Shaking the shock off I found my voice to defend myself but my voice cracked weakly.

"I have never 'whored' around as you put it. In fact I was out with Jack and his son Aidan. We bumped in to each other at the pond. He dropped me off after Nick and the guys left."

Dad's face drained of the red as a puzzled look crossed his face. His eyes filled with gulit right away.He was beyond wrong and he better feel gulity.

"I wasn't feeling well so Ethan to dropped me off since it was still early." I stated matter a factly fighting tears back

Ethan. The dance. Ethan's cold glare from today flashed through my mind. How he rejected my pathetic attempt to kiss him. The way he was openly with Anglea. That was enough to set the tears flowing down my face.

Dad reached his arm out to touch me but I stepped away. The hurt and sympathy plainly on his face. But not regret. So he believes I'm a slut.

The hot tears streaked my cheeks. I never allowed myself to cry in front of them, not since my first night here. I had my first nightmare, I cried for hours when they found me in the morning on the sofa.

"You didn't tell me I looked like her. You let me walk out looking exactly like her!" I screamed but it sounded more like a squeak

Dad clenched his jaw understanding what I meant. From the corner of my eye I saw Annabelle look down in shame. So she knew to.

"Her?" Melissa asked in confusion her arms crossed over her chest

Dad sighed lifting a hand in Melisss's direction. "Melissa its nothing."

Nothing? A cold laugh escaped my lips. I turned to Melissa who stared back at me like I was insane. Maybe I am, I mean my mom was.

"My mom. I looked exactly like her. Maybe you'd remember her if I say my crazy mother as you labeled her." I spit

"That's enough." dad said sadly

"Oh I'm sorry you want to keep your perfect little family untainted by your love child. Well don't worry I'll keep out of your way."

I didn't wait for his response instead I ran up to my room feeling drained. Not bothering to change I dropped on the bed crying. I've had enough of this stupid burden put on me because of who conceived me. Its their drama not mine!

Yet I'm paying the price.

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Ethan was being a jerk and her dad an ass.

Poor Lily her life sucks.

That's my fault :P

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~LovelyDove43~