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Chapter 11

Ethan's POV

The slow song ended causing couples to part and clap. The d.j. waved before playing an other club song. I stood in the middle of dance floor dumb struck.

We were having a good time despite my urge to keep her close. It felt incredible to have her tightly against me. For her to be holding on to me. To be able to bury my face in her soft hair. Her spicy cinnamon scent filling my lungs tempting my body for more of her. My fingers tingling on her waist, the dress's fabric thin beneath my skin.

Than she began to shake. What did she mean she can't? I raked my fingers through my hair frustration taking over. It was perfect than...

Shit I need to calm down before I cause a scene.

Pushing my way through the people rubbing against each other. Damn they are freaking horny. Grabbing a cup of "punch" I leaned against the table, trying to make sense of what just happened.

"Anddy." someone shouted slapping my back causing the drink to spill over my hand

"What the fuck Seth!" I snapped

Nick pushed my chest back standing between us. I hadn't noticed the guys standing next to me, all but Jake. Seth took a step back.

Shit, I cursed my short temper.

"Look I didn't mean to snap like that, its just... " I trailed off

Just what? Lily was an off topic subject. No matter how long I've known these guys they knew nothing about her. Nick narrowed his eyes realizing something was up.

"Its the girls I know, damn they can tease a man to death." Scott said not taking his eyes off a girl's butt

The guys grunted in unsion, I nodded. You have no idea, I thought bitterly.

Seth pushed Nick roughly when he nodded mockingly.

"You have something to tap." Jeff replied bitterly

"No guys, its not like that with Rachel." Nick said with a smile

Scott bended over faking to be sick all over his shoes. Mockingly wiping his mouth.

"Bullshit!" he coughed standing up properly

Seth laughed along side Scott. Why the hell am I friends with these idiots? Scott put a hand on Nick's shoulder.

"You haven't looked at any girl but her for three years and now that your actually with her your not tapping that? Either your gay or getting some on the side."

"No, I think Rachel is well speacil and physical stuff is nice but its her I want."

The guys stared at him blankly. Yeah that was sweet and all but Nick was preaching to the wrong crowd.

"Look my girl is not up for discussion." Nick said dismissing the conversation

Scott wasted no time using the dismissle as an excuse to talk about his 'luck'.

"Damn the red head from the other day is hott! If that dress goes any higher I'm taking her to a dark corner."

Seth shook his head "Nah she is a waste of time man. She can't even dance, she can only grind."

Rachel stuck her blonde little head around searching for Nick. She earned glances from the guys. I had to admit Rachel looked hot.

With a grin Nick took her hand and disappeared into the crowd. Lucky bastard had his girl.

"... can she get any sexier." Seth mumbled his eyes still where they disappeared

"You want sexier you need to see Lily, shit I had a hard on the whole time we danced." Scott said with a smirk

I clenched my jaw. The very mention of Lily dancing with this ass had my temper flaring. You'd think after years of hearing how Lily attracts other guys I'd be use to it. It seems it only gets worst.

To stand by and hear how "sexier" she has gotten has my hands aching to rip his throat out. With a loud thud I slammed my untouched cup on the table.

"See you guys later."

With that I walked or should I say pushed my way outside for some fresh air. The cold bitter wind slammed against my body cooling me down. Damn I hadn't noticed how hot it was inside.

I leaned my head back wishing I hadn't left the 'punch' inside. At the moment I needed a pick me up but I am also driving myself home. Glancing at my watch I saw it was barely ten and I wanted to go home.

Stupid dances. If Nick hadn't mentioned Rachel forcing Lily to come I wouldn't have agreed to come. In fact I could be at home right now. Yet my mind didn't want to forget what happened tonight.

My tboughts drifted back to when we were dancing. Mentally groaning I shook my head.

No, no, not again. It was dancing, dancing as friends. Fun thats all. I repeated to myself. I leaned my head back against the side wall feeling wore out. Keeping my feelings under wrap is getting diffucult. Maybe I should just take a break from Lily. No contact or thought of her.

Maybe its time to forget Lily Evans.

The back door swung open missing my face by inches. Just as I was ready to curse the person who nearly hit me Lily walked pass me.

Her blue dress floated behind her like clouds, her face clean of the light make up she had on before. Lily brought a shaky hand up to her hair practically yanking the blue clips out on to the ground. Her thick brown hair fell down her back like waves.

A cold wind blew causing her hair to whirl after her. For a second I thought of going back in but quickly changed my mind when her legs wobbled beneath her before she fell onto her knees.

Lily didn't stand back up or scream or cry. She just stood there trembling like a lost child. My feet were moving towards her without my realization. I kneeled beside her grabbing her shoulders and bringing her to her feet. Lily stared wide eyed at the ground completely out of it. Her face expressionless and pale.

"What's wrong Lily?" I asked

She twisted her head from side to side. I steadied for face with one hand. Her eyes glass like from the unshed tears.

"Hey, look at me. Its me Ethan." My voice cracking at the end

No response.

In one quick sweep I had her in my arms bridal style. Her legs dangled over my arm as she buried her head into my chest. Lily's eyes rolled to the back of her head, her eyelids slowly drooping.

What the hell happened to her?

Without a thought I took off into the parking lot to my car with Lily still in my arms. If she wasn't trembling against me I would have thought the she was unconcious.

"Please stay awake Lily!! Keep your eyes open. Talk to me!" I said panicing

A low moan escaped her lips but not one of pain. My heart twisted in my chest. Please be okay, please.

"Please!!" I begged feeling helpless

My car came to view, I dug my hands in my pocket for the keys. With two long strides I was at the passenger side ready to put her in when she reached her hand out to my cheek.

Her fingers tips barely touched my skin as she slide them down to my jaw. The touch was feather like, as if she thought I'd break.

"Don't be sad." she whispered

I grabbed her hand needing the comfort only she could bring. Her skin was cold yet soft like silk. She smiled before her hand went limp.

"No, no." I whispered

Pulling the door open I placed her into the seat not sure what to do next. Was she alive?! I bent my head to her nose to hear her even slow breathes. A breathed in relief.

She fainted.

To be certain I checked her heart beat to find it beating normal. Quickly checking her over I saw no signs of any injury except for her knees being red from her fall.

Heading to the driver's side I dug around for something with a strong odor to wake her up. It worked on t.v. , I thought.

Damn me and my obsessive need to keep my car odor free. I had nothing in this stupid car. My fingers weaved through my hair, think!!

Across the parking lot two guys were pushing each other, each had a cup of 'punch' in their hand. They wobbled against parked cars as they slowly made their way back to the dance.

They were laughing getting closer to us when one of the idiots bent over and puked his guts out.

"Dude that's nasty!" the other one shouted

The one who puked wiped his mouth laughing. They both went in laughing again. I looked at Lily than to where the guy puked. Better than nothing.

I picked Lily up into my arms walking over to the puke. We were a few feet away when the foul odor met my nose. Bile rised in my throat but I forced it down. Damn that stinks.

Breathing from my mouth I bent down forcing Lily's face down to the ground. Just as I was ready to puke myself Lily pushed up against my chest stirring. Good.

I forced her body further down. She scrunched her nose in disgust stirring away from the smell. Forcing my laugh back I leaned foward.

"What the hell is that smell?" she complained.

At the sound of her voice I almost jumped in the air. Lily fluttered her eyes open looking down at the pile of puke in disgust.

She almost toppled over into it if I hadn't tightened my hold on her. Leave it to Lily to be her clumsy self after scaring me to death.

"Ethan?"

I stood up pulling her with me. Lily put her hands against my chest trying frantically to get down.

Instead of obeying I went back to my car gently placing her in the passenger seat. She tried to get out.

"Let me out!" she shouted

Ignoring her I jumped into the driver's seat quickly before Lily could slip out.

"Ethan!" she screamed unbuckling her seatbelt

"What if we crash and you go flying through the wind sheild?" I asked

"Where are you taking me?!"

Just as I put the key in I pulled it out. Lily staring furiously at me. What the hell I just helped her?

My brows knitted in confusion.

"You don't remember?"

She shook her head eyeing me suspiciously. Turning to fully face her I searched her face for any sign of joking and found none.

"Lily you stormed out of the gym than well fainted."

Lily frowned holding my eyes with hers. Her left brow raised in confusion. When her brown eyes widened I knew she remembered.

She averted her eyes to her dress. Lily twisted her fingers on her lap nervously.

"C-can you take me home." she whispered her voice thick with tears

Should I comfort her? Tonight replayed in my head, I shouldn't. Starting the car I backed out of the parking lot. Lily took out her phone probably texting Jake that she left early.

We drove in silence. Every few seconds I would peek through the corner of my eye to see Lily staring at her hands with glassy eyes like before. A pained expression on her face.

No dout she remembered.

When we arrived at her house two lights were on. I kept the doors locked my hands tight on the wheel.

"Lily what hap..."

"Don't, please. I don't want to talk about." she interrupted

Is she serious? I turned to face her, her gaze still on her hands. By the looks of it Lily didn't realize we're at her house.

"No Lily I'm not going to leave this alone. Everytime something goes wrong you tell me to let it go. You scared the crap out of me tonight."

She raised her head up meeting my hard gaze. Her cheeks were streaked with tears and her eyes puffy red. Lily opened her mouth to speak but closed it. Her chin trembled as a fat tear trailed down her pale cheek.

My heart sunk, my face softened. How could I be angery with her.

"I didn't mean to scare you." she whispered

Unbuckling my seatbelt as well as hers I pulled her onto my lap. Like the old times Lily snuggled closer to my chest burying her face from the world. My arms wrapped around her trembling body. She shook sobbing as I stroked her hair, placing small kisses to her hair and forehead.

Lily's heart thumped rapidly against her chest, her breath in pants. My heart tore from her tears. She is going to be the end of me.

She sniffed before taking a ragid breath. When she pulled her head up I couldn't help but notice how beautiful she is even with a red nose and puffy eyes. With a mind of their own my hands cupped her face. My thumb wiped the fresh tears that had fallen.

Lily licked her lips nervously, shit did she realize how that turned me on. I felt my friend stirring in my jeans. Damn me! Lily stared at my lips innocently with her doe like eyes.

My body screamed for me to kiss her full red lips. To make her feel good, to moan my name. The fabric of my slacks tightened. My body burned for her.

I cleared my throat causing her eyes to shift back to my eyes. She slipped off my lap and I let out a breath of relief.

A second later and I wouldn't have controlled myself. Lily is vunerable right now and if I took advantage of her I'd never forgive myself.

I unlocked the doors and she stepped out. Lily took a step back to face me. For a moment I thought she'd come back in and kiss me.

"Forget tonight happened."

I felt a small pang in my chest. It seems that's what Lily always says to me now a days. Forget! She wants me to forget, fine I'll forget.

"No problem Lily, I won't remember a thing." I said bitterly before driving off

From this moment on I will do just that. Lily is no longer my concern. She is always pushing me away. This time I'm not coming back.

I'm done being Mr. Good Guy. Good guys don't win. Not with Lily anyway.

Tonight was the last I'll help her. Its time for me to leave that part of me behind, to leave her behind.