2 moons had past since that confusing day and I often wondered who my "old mother and father" was. Sometimes I asked my older littermate, Hawkfrost about it but he would only tell me it wasn't time. One day, as I was playing in the sluggish river, Hawkfrost came up to me. He looked different though. Then I shivered as I realized why. His normally gentle and warm eyes had turned cold showing no emotion at all. "Tigerstar and Mapleshade wants to see you in their den...now."
I nodded my head quickly then scampered towards their den.
"You wanted to see me?"I squeaked.
"Quit squeaking like a kit and reach deep down to find your true voice!" Mapleshade commanded.
I had learned quickly to always obey the cats older than me and to never question their commands- though I wanted to tell her I was still a kit. Nevertheless, I reached down and my kit-like voice was gone.
"You wanted to see me?" I asked, this time with no squeaking and keeping my voice as cool and stony as possible.
Tigerstar and Mapleshade nodded their heads approvingly. "Yes. It is time you learned about your parents,"Mapleshade answered. I gulped in anticipation. This was the moment I had been waiting for.
"You were born to Sandstorm and Firestar. But Sandstorm hated you because everyone started to pay more attention to you than her. She decided to tell everyone you were actually a kittypet so then they wouldn't accept you anymore. They were very angry and tortured you almost to death for a day. Then they threw you in a river to drown. But I found you and took you in. But it was all Firestar' s fault. Look,"he said as he pointed down below to the clans," those are your littermates. They are so happy without you. They never even cared about YOU. Never cared. NEVER!" he hissed.
I believed every word. After all, I was only 2 moons old. From then on, I developed a deep hatred for the clans, or my so called littermates, and Firestar personally. After my apprentice ceremony at 3 moons old, I told Tigerstar,"I'll kill all the clan cats if it's the last thing I do! I'll do it no matter what!"
His eyes gleaned with pride and achievement. "I'm sure you will, I'm sure you will."
I spent my days training hard and harboring hatred and anger inside. I even practiced my moves on Hawkfrost when he least expected it!