I was screaming his name with any hope that help would come but we lived in a countryside and there were only a few cottage houses that were currently empty... I had no hope. I cried and wanted to die as I knew it was my fault. What's the damage aside from the bleeding head? I inspected his body I started at his arms which were scraped and covered in dirt. Then I noticed a particular pool of blood coming from the inside of his other arm. I wiped it over as it looked as if it came from a certain place and he winced...he's not dead yet. It looked as if it was spelling something it read:
GOODBYE
In blood... It made me cry more but I had to keep checking next I checked his chest and all it contained is a rib some general organs and a broken heart. Next was his back.... It was covered in blood too this time it said
I still love you princess...never forget
I can't believe it I broke down mentally and screamed as this is my fault... People came running and calling ambulances but I knew he was gone as the relic inside him fell and disappeared... How am I going to tell Carrie... I say as some paramedics run over and lift garroth into the ambulance
It's gonna kill her and again it will be my fault... Just from one kiss... It's not my fault he jumped though.... There must've been something else that made him do it. That's when I decided to look under the floorboard where he hid things as he thought I didn't know about it last time I checked there were loads of chocolates and sweets and looking made me giggle. This time it was different under the floorboards it was stained with blood. Garroths blood. There was a sucidal kit there in a package and death threats and hate messages from someone I'm not quite sure who though. I was saying this all out loud and people surrounding me looked deeply concerned the paramedics took me to the hospital to me checked for damage... The suicidal kit I knew I threw away when I swore I wouldn't cut myself again. I cut a lot as a child after my father died and I was left alone with Laurence. And that's what I wanted to do now
{at home} the police hadn't found anything in the house that could've done any other harm so they left. I had picked up the suicidal kit and got the small blade out I didn't want to much damage I just wanted relief do I got the softer blade out. I took a deep breath and got out the dis infectant and tissue and vasaline as it helps the redness. I prepared the blade cleaning it and getting the point to tap my finger checking how sharp it was. Then I slid it across my skin and I felt the pain and the release of pressure. I forgot all about the day and the stress until.

A/N DO NOT USE BLADES OKAY THEY ARE PAINFUL AND THEY DONT HELP EVEN THOUGH CADENZA USES THEM ITS NOT COOL ITS BECOZ SHE HAS A MENTAL ILLNESS
Anyway thanks for reading and I'm sorry for any disturbance this has caused you comment if you have a problem with it and I will fix it