A/N: I'm not genderfluid or a trans-boy, so if you see anything wrong/offensive with how I potray both, say something!

Loki took a breath and let herself change. It was a relief, having a female form when she was a girl, and it wasn't something she could enjoy the luxury of often when on Asgard for fear of rejection. Times were changing, she believed, and Thor wanted her to be more open.

Still, that didn't loosen the knot in her stomach when Thor remained silent.

"Sometimes I am a girl," she explained, "and sometimes I am a boy. I can be neither or both too... that's the simplest explanation of it."

Thor stayed silent for another moment, and then he grinned - that warm puppy dog overjoyed grin of his that Loki hadn't seen in a while (especially not directed at her).

"I have a sister!" He exclaimed.

Loki rolled her eyes, trying not to let a traitorous smile slip onto her face to betray her feelings to Thor. "You already had a sister. You'd think she'd leave a lasting impression. Ragnarok ring a bell?"

Thor briefly frowned, but he was back to smiling again in an instant when he figured that Loki was just trying to wind him up - since when was Thor smart to that kind of thing? "But now I have a sister who isn't trying to kill me!"

A small smile finally crossed her face, how treacherous. "That's debatable."

-

"This is who Loki is. Ever-changing, and in a state of fluidity at constant. I'm the god of change, and work like the phases of the moon-"

"Do you ever shut up?" Valkyrie asked, taking a swig of alcohol from the bottle. "By the Norns, so dramatic... You're a girl right now, sometimes you're not. I got it. You're still going by Loki?"

"Yes." Loki replied. No matter what she was, she was always Loki.

"Awesome. Can you go now? I want to get drunk in peace."

-

The Hulk called her a 'puny goddess' which was cute.

Loki still left the room as soon as possible though.

-

The Hulk mostly left Loki alone, and not just because she avoided him at all costs. Eventually though, Thor starting recruiting the beast for his evil 'group bonding' schemes.

Apparently Thor wanted a Revengers Group Dinner, but she wasn't for that family life. Just because she was on their side, didn't mean she was ready to socialise with them.

Loki told Thor as much, but he refused to listen. When he left her room, she assumed he'd given up. Alas, he had instead gained aid from the beast, who hoisted Loki over his shoulders and refused to put her down. Daggers didn't seem to bother him the way they did Thor.

Despite her protests, she was secretly glad to be forced into Thor's group bonding time. She was sure he took her lack of magical combat against the beast as an acceptance of the dinner invitation, and was glad she needn't admit aloud her gratefulness of being included - how embarrassing that would be.

-

Banner showed up at some point, to Loki's surprise. She had been sure he'd remain green and childish forever.

"Genderfluid." Loki repeated, trying out the new word on her tongue. "I never had a word to describe me before, I was always just... me."

"You don't have to have a label." Banner shrugged. "That's just the one people similar to you use."

"No, no. I like it, I think." She said. "I never knew there were other people like me..."

Banner asked her for her pronouns at the beginning of every interaction they had.

"I may still think you're a crazy asshole," He said when Loki thanked him for it. "But I'm not going to misgender you because of that - I'm not a dick."

She may still be petrified of the Hulk, but Loki believed that Banner might be her favourite avenger.

-

"Do you really think it's a good idea to go back to Earth?" Loki asked as she and Thor looked out at the vastness of space through the ship's window.

"Yes, of course. The people of Earth love me, I'm very popular." Thor replied.

"Let me rephrase that," she said, "Do you really think it's a good idea for me to go back to Earth."

"Probably not, to be honest." Thor said, and Loki smiled. "I wouldn't worry sister. I feel like everything's going to work out fine."

A shadow slowly crept into their view, Loki looked up and felt her throat go dry.

"Oh shit."

Thor shot her a look. "Do you know what this is?"

Loki had to take a second to get the word out. She had mostly pushed the psychopath out of her mind up 'til now, but she couldn't avoid it this time.

"Thanos." She replied.

Thanos was here.

"This is all my fault, Thor, I'm sorry. I thought I was making everything better." She said, and then she reached into her pocket dimension and pulled out the Tesseract. "I think I've killed Asgard."

"You took the Tesseract?" Thor asked. "Why?"

"I couldn't just leave it unguarded! It's an infinity stone! Without Asgard's defenses, anyone could take it from the rubble of the trophy room. I didn't know Thanos could track it, you have to believe me."

"I do, sister." Thor said, sounding tired. "But you should have told me you had it."

Loki didn't reply, and soon Valkyrie, Banner and Heimdall were beside them.

"Heimdall told us of an approaching ship." The Valkyrie said. "Do we know if it's a threat?"

"Yes." Loki said easily. "We're all going to die. Our only hope is giving him the Tesseract. Maybe then he'll leave a few survivors."

Thor shook his head. "We fight. If he's as dangerous as you say, he can't get the stone. Hide it again, Loki. We cannot kill others in the universe because we gave someone dangerous great power. No matter what, he doesn't get the stone."

"We'll die" Loki said.

"So be it." Thor replied, but then he shook his head. "Keep it in your pocket dimension. He can't get it if he kills you. So he won't. Easy."

"That's optimistic." Loki said. "He could kill you."

"So be it." Thor repeated again.

Thanos and his black order were on the ship quicker than anticipated - short ranged teleport, Loki assumed.

She looked around at Asgard's remaining population as they crowded into the large main deck. One of the black order fired their weapons immediately (some sort of blaster, who knows?) at a small boy that Loki knew little about.

It shot a hole through his chest, and his body crumpled to the ground.

Loki didn't know his name.

The black order continued to pick off Asgardians as the Revengers ran forwards. Neither Loki nor Thanos moved, just looked at one another. Thanos knew Loki got the message: 'give me the Tesseract or this continues until every last Asgardian is dead'.

Loki wasn't stupid enough to believe that giving him the Tesseract would stop the bloodshed, that was just false hope she'd tried to cling onto.

Loki didn't do anything.

Thanos didn't frown at Loki's failure to produce the Tesseract, he smiled. He moved finally, to Thor, and grabbed the God of Thunder by his head.

Loki felt sick for a moment. She knew that with Thanos' strength, he could probably kill Thor with a simple squeeze. She looked away as Thor started to struggle.

"Give me the Tesseract, young prince, or he dies."

Loki created a magic copy of herself, and an illusion of invisibility around her real self. It wouldn't fool Thanos for long, but she guessed that if she left with the Tesseract, it would be the only hope Asgard had of any survivors.

Banner, now the Hulk, was close by. Loki had time to take him too. For protection in whatever world she ended up in, she told herself, not because she liked the beast at all.

She had gotten as close as she needed to the Hulk, when Thanos realised her illusion was just that.

"You think you can play me?" He chuckled. "You need to learn that I don't make empty threats."

With that, he lifted Thor up and threw him at the ship's window. It shattered, and Thor was left to drift in space.

The ship's oxygen shield was keeping them alive, Loki figured, but she quickly found that she didn't care very much. Thor, if not dead yet, would be dead soon, and it was Loki's fault.

No.

It was Thanos' fault. He killed Thor. Loki sent him a look of roaring fire and grabbed the Hulk by the arm. She took the Tesseract from her pocket dimension and willed it to let them escape.

It answered her anger, glowing brighter blue until all of Loki's vision went white.

She hoped Heimdall and the Valkyrie survived.

Suddenly she was falling fast, and she was reminded of the void (where she fell and fell for an eternity). She realised the Hulk was no longer by her side, which she should've realised could happen. Still, Banner had probably been moved in space too, somewhere that wasn't with Thanos. At least she had saved one life.

The Tesseract wasn't with her either. Thanos must have it.

She couldn't even follow Thor's last instruction.

Everything went black.

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