This week had slowly come to an end. No, definitely not slowly. It went by quite fast honestly. Like everything has. Everything that swirls and breaks down on me goes past so.. so swiftly that I cant hang onto anything to keep myself standing.

Mom.. I don't think she got completely better. I really don't think so.. She just seems neglective? No more like she can't see us sometimes. I wonder if Mom even got better or is she just lying to us? Whatever the answer is.. I just don't think anything is going to go well.

I think she made an appointment for today to go to a specialist I believe it was. I'm not completely sure.

I'm really worried about Kenma right now, he wanted to say something to me but I don't think he had gotten the chance to. I just want to help him. "I want to help him so badly.." I whisper to myself.

"Shoyo! Get yourself up off that couch, we're leaving." Mom said a bit harshly. Oh, I guess we do have an appointment then. I quickly follow her out of the hotel door, making sure to bring Natsu with me.

"Big brother.. where are we going?" She asks quietly. I pick her up to put her on my back.

"I'm not sure, to the doctor I suppose.." She leans into my back. Her soft curls brush against my neck. almost like she is reminding me that shes here. She tightens her grip on my shoulders. Natsu has been having a hard time with Mom being back. She doesn't trust her, I don't either but I'm afraid to see what will happen if I don't play this act.

"Is something wrong?"

I don't think she'll understand if I told her, "I'm sick. You cant get what I have though so don't worry" I smile at her. She nods back to me. You could see the worry in her eyes.

"Get in the car." Mother tells us. I let Natsu done and get in the car after mom. I think this is what people would call a taxi? I guess it is. I mean I wouldn't know since I thought the Tokyo tower was one of those telephone towers or whatever. Look at that we are already here. How? I don't know. I guess it was close to the hotel. Maybe I just wasn't paying attention and got lost in thoughts.

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It felt like hours had past since we had entered this place. Hours and hours that weren't going to stop. Soon, maybe now the Doctor will come back with results. I'm so nervous.. What if it's bad? Horrible? What if I'm going to die? I.. I dont want that. I want to live! I have to live for Natsu..

The door opened and.. Mom and the Doctor came through. Why is she arguing with him?

"Mo-" I couldn't even get a single word out before she talked over me.

"I AM NOT GOING TO OUT HIM THROUGH THAT TREATMENT! IT'S TOO EXPENSIVE!"

"Ma'am we cant do anything else to cure him!" Natsu got on the examination table and wrapped her arms around my waist, hiding her head in the crook of my arm.

"What.. are you talking about? If it's about me please tell me!" I speak up. My voice felt sore and jagged.

"

You might as well tell him. No need in hiding it"

The doctor almost seemed nervous, tense around Mother. "To put it in simple words.. You have a fast-growing form of luekemia."

"I.. wh-what? That can't be.." This can't be the case! It can't have something like that! If mom doesn't want to put me through treatment.. that could mean.. I could die.

"Shoyo why are you crying?" Natsu looked up at me.

"I.. I.. I will explain it to you another time. Don't worry about me. I'm your big brother." I wipe away the tears and smile at her.

Mom grabs Natsu and mines hand storming out of the doctor hospital with us.

I could see the anger coming off of Mom. This is bad... this is so bad.

As soon as the taxi arrives at the hotel she storms off.. I thank the driver and somehow manage to cover the cost.

Natsu was already following Mom inside. I dont think I want to follow her..

"Shoyo? Why are you calling at this time?" Kenma's voice was so calm.

"Every things bad!" The corners of my eyes start to tear up. Oh.. here I am breaking down infront of a hotel. I can't do this any longer. "Im just going to die! We guessed it, I guessed it! I'm going to die and I'm going to let down the team! I'm not even brave enough to tell them! I just ran away like I always do! I'm not even going to be able to play in the spring tournament!" My words were choking on tears, my voice was on the verge of cracking like a broken mirror.

"Slow down! Slow down! Breathe. In and out. I can't say it's going to be okay. I-" Kozume is on the verge of tears.. his voice is breaking.

"Remember when we played against each other during the volleyball camp? I'm assuming you do. Think about that. You had so much fun back then."

Hah.. I did. Though I don't think my face did.

Kenma's voice broke.. broke down into a sob and a cry.

"It hurts.." I gripped my chest and I..

-Switching to third person-

Along the road in the dark of night he fell onto his knees crying out a scream. His knuckles turned white from how hard he was gripping his shirt. Sobs from his fallen phone, now slightly cracked could barely be heard over his cries.

He cried and cried until his voice choked up and turned to sobs. His face tear stained and he couldnt breath out of his nose any longer. He sat up and wiped his tears but they kept on falling. Behind him he heard footsteps, running, someone falling to their knees, someone hugging him. Crying. Hurting.

The hurting boy turned and hugged back. The cat and the crow crying an unparalleled cry in each others arms. "What do we do?" Hinata choked in between sobs.

"We.. We can't do anything Shoyo."

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH MY HEART HURTS SO BAD WRITING THISSS AAAHHHHHHHHH IM SORRY THIS TOOK MY SO LONG TO WRITE AND IM SO SORRY THIS IS BAD AND NOT WELL WRITTEN.

I HAD NO CLUE WHAT TO WRITE FOR THIS CHAPTER OR HOW TO WRITE IT BUT EVERY OTHER CHAPTER OR THE LAST OF THEM ARE PLANNED OUT AND GOD DAMN IM SO SORRY THEY HURT.

(Rereading this to check for any big mistakes and I, the Author AM CRYING. ACTUAL TEARS)