~3 MONTHS LATER~ 

*KILI POV*

It had been three months since Thorin announced to Kili at breakfast...three long agonizing months that he had to try and figure out what courting gift would be appropriate  to give to Princess Pharyn when she arrived. Kili already made the traditional family bead complete with the Durin crest on it, along with his own personal symbol of two arrows crossing..for her he used a simple symbol of a tiny jewelers hammer since he heard her craft was that of a jeweler. The gift it seemed was going to be harder...he didn't have any clue what she would like..he even asked  Fili what would be good, but he didn't know either. Kili was walking around , kicking a small stone along in his path with his booted foot when a idea suddenly came to him...he's a hunter and what do hunters aquire?...furs, pelts, and meat....which Kili had a lot of the first two in storage. The image of a beautiful bear skin blanket came to mind and Kili knew it was perfect for a courting gift. He quickly ran to his storage room where he kept his assorted stock that he had gained over the years and began to search for the perfect one. It didn't take him long to find the perfect skin...it was deep black and very soft to the touch with how lush it was...he smiled as he remembered how he had come by this particularly exquisite piece.

It was early autumn, two years ago, whenever Fili and him went out to hunt for some meat to help fill the larder that was running low on food for the newly reclaimed mountain. They both had left out at dawn in hopes to find deer nibbling on freshly misted grass that would be nice and plump for the hunting....their prayers were answered  for there was a small herd licking at the dewy grass and grazing. They both hid perfectly behind some rocks that was downwind of the small herd...Kili silently took aim at a very large doe and then let loose his arrow...it was a clean shot and quick. Seconds after the doe fell the rest of the herd darted away back into the safety of the bordering forest..leaving behind their fallen companion as loud victorious cries filled the air of the men's triumphant kill. Both men scrambled quickly down from the rocks and began to clean the carcass when it suddenly happened...this giant black bear came roaring out of the forest straight at them. Without any thought ...purely  on instinct...Kili swiftly drew his bow and shot an arrow through the beast's eye..it must have a thick head because it only angered it more. Kili thought he was a goner as the massive bear  rose up onto its back legs..preparing to swipe at the cringing archer, when suddenly there was Fili  with his twin swords...slashing at the creature while Kili began to fill it with arrows until finally the beast fell to the earth ...dead. They leaned against each other , gasping for breath at how close they had come to deaths door. Kili tried to convince Fili that the fur belonged to his older brother but Fili would not hear of it...he even made the comment of Kili could use it to woo some fair dwarven maiden to overlook how scrawny  and beardless he was. Kili punched Fili on the shoulder and they both laughed...now Kili was glad he took it for now it would serve that very purpose.

As Kili ran his fingers over the lush pelt an unbidden image of Bofur came to mind...he closed his eyes on a groan as he tried to push the image from his mind...it came anyway. Kili could see himself walking into his bedroom and there upon the bed was Bofur with his gorgeous dark hair unbound and flowing down upon his shoulders...holding out a hand, beckoning to his young lover to come closer....the midnight pelt blanket pulled up only so far over Bofur's hip, leaving his chest bared to Kili's gaze while his face was seductively enticing his lover closer to where he laid. As Kili's mind envisioned this he felt himself become rock hard down below and he had to quickly banish this wistful vision out of his head. He knew it was only a fantasy and could never happen...so why torture himself. With a growl Kili spun on his heel and ran out the door with the pelt in hand to begin making it into the perfect gift that any princess would be proud to receive.

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It was a few days later and Kili found the image of Bofur naked under the bear blanket would not leave him...it was even getting more vivid as his mind dreamed at night. The way the firelight from the fireplace danced along his bared torso...the way the ebony fur, that barely covered his lower half, caressed his flesh under its thick pelt. Kili could easily see how alluring those hazel eyes turned as he gave the dark haired prince a provocative smile...trying to entice him into the toy makers strong arms and against the silk like pelt upon that chest. These dreams were so detailed that every morning Kili woke up with a gooey mess in his sleep pants and on the sheets from where he had ejaculated in his sleep. Every time he would growl and curse at himself while he stripped his bed of the soiled linens and cleaned himself up from his inappropriate climax. Kili finally had enough whenever Fili caught him this morning stripping his bed for the third time in a row...white stains showing upon the bedding. Fili laughed at how mortified his little brother was at being caught red handed over this little gaffe of his young body. Kili quickly snatched the soiled sheet from his laughing brothers fingers  and growled at him to shut up and leave him alone....which made the blonde throw up his hands in surrender as he backed out of the room...right before he was out left a parting shot to the younger man.

"You know, Nadad...if you wish to avoid these situations from happening each night, you need to make sure your empty and well sated each night before bed. It leaves very little evidence behind...easy to clean up and sheets stay safe from these accidents occurring."  Kili stood in shock to hear those words coming from his older brother. " I do it every night. It really helps and works...if sated enough you won't have any more problems." he left with a smile...leaving a bewildered prince in his wake. Kili sat down to ponder Fili's words and he realized the truth in them, which meant he was going to have to give it a try tonight to really see. His thoughts all day rolled around with the idea of how to actually achieve this and the only deduction that came to him was he needed a special tool to help him. He knew the only type of person who sold this kind of item was none other than a toy maker and the only toy maker residing in Erebor was none other than Bofur Broadbeam. Kili shook his head in denial...he knew he couldn't face Bofur, for if he saw the man then he was not sure if he could ever leave him again...he knew he wouldn't be  strong enough next time. He decided he would try and make do with his own hands the way Bofur had taught him those many months ago...with that decision made a smile came to his lips and a spring to his steps as he went home that evening to enact his plan. 

Kili should have known better, should have known that the universe would be against him, since it was obvious from the start of these past few months. Kili tried, he really did, but every time his fingers stroked against his hard shaft or brushed along that bundle of nerves inside, all he could think of was Bofur and he realized after two days of unsuccessful attempts that he was definitely going to need something more than just his hands..something special that was handcrafted by a master himself. There was no way around this, Kili was going to have to see Bofur, no matter how he felt about it...he had to be strong to face his heart and walk away after. So he steeled his nerves that were shivering in excitement of seeing that stunning man once again and made his way towards  that shop...Broadbeams Wooden Emporium ...the finest shop around that sold wooden carvings of various assortments, beautiful toys for children of all ages and ....toys of the erotic nature for adults own personal pleasures. As Kili drew near to the shop , his nerves faltered and he had to pause outside to take a deep breath before entering through the door that possibly could lead to his very downfall.

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*BOFUR'S POV*

Bofur was in the back of his shop, meticulously rubbing in the special oil he used on the wooden phallus' he crafted...making the wood shine with a beautiful brown luster  finish. Since that day he discovered that he was carrying Kili's child he had been very diligent in caring for himself by making sure he never missed an appointment with Oin or skipped a single dose of his vitamins that he was directed in taking by the elderly doctor. He followed Oin's orders to the letter even when he was told to lift nothing heavier than fifteen pounds for it may hurt the baby...which called for his cousin Bifur's help by lifting anything that was deemed to heavy for the child bearing man. Bofur was a bit disgruntled about it, but one look from Bifur made him bite his tongue and humbly except the older mans orders..which later he was truly grateful for his cousins help. Whenever he realized that he needed to lift a very dense piece of wood, for a special order, and he wasn't going to be able to unless he jeopardized the welfare of the baby, which so wasn't going to happen if he could help it. Bofur was amazed at how accepting and supportive Bifur was about all of this...not one single moment of resentment at Bofur for his condition...he just grunted and nodded his head when he heard the news, that was all.

 Bifur was the best cousin in the world to Bofur..the way he took care of him at the shop without any complaints by making Bofur periodically sit down to get off his feet each day...the way he would run out around lunch time to get food for them both from Bombur...then there was the things he did whenever they got back home in the evenings. Bifur would get Bofur settled in the armchair near the fire with his feet propped up on a pillowed stool...sipping on a nice cup of hot tea while Bifur massaged Bofur's aching feet with strong fingers all while they waited on Bombur to cook dinner for them all.

Take today for example...Bifur had walked Bofur into work this morning to make sure he didn't take a wrong step, then after Bofur had unlocked the shop the eldered man strolled off to grab breakfast from Bombur who went in to the kitchens earlier this morning. Bifur came back quickly and began to help set up, stock shelves and just do the daily stuff that needed to be done every morning..by the time the lunching hour rolled around they had done a nice amount of business selling toys for the young ones. As soon as the rush wore down, Bifur snuck out to get them lunch, which left Bofur alone for a short time to handle any stragglers or someone wandering in. Bofur was alone at the moment in the shop, deciding that if anyone came in the bell over the door would ring to alert him of their presence, so he went to sit down and give the special order a extra buffing and rub down with the oil he used on these items that created a silky seal upon it. He was  into such a meditative state of mind for the process that when the bell over the door rang out he jerked in surprise and accidentally knocked over the oil he was using onto the floor where it created a puddle there. With a curse at his clumsiness, he got up from his workstation and walked towards the front of the shop...promising himself to clean it up when he got back to it as soon as he could.

"I'll be with you right away." Bofur's voice flowed towards the front as he entered the room through the curtains that separated the public area from the work area...looking down as he wiped his hands with a cloth to clean the oil  from his fingers. Bofur looked up and came to a stop...there stood Kili before him with wide brown eyes...Bofur could see the young prince tremble for a brief moment before firming his shoulder back...the same couldn't be said for Bofur because his limbs trembled and his heart raced at the sight of the dark haired man before him. " How..." his voice was raspy and he had to clear his throat before speaking again. "How, can I help you today Prince Kili?" Kili's brown eyes shifted before he spoke...his nervousness very apparent in the way his voice sounded as he rasped out his reply.

"I...I'm looking for something special..one of your creations you make for your private clientele made for adults. I know yours are the best around and I seek to purchase one based off my personal measurements...please." Kili could not help the blush that stole across his cheeks, nor could he look Bofur in the eyes as he made his request. Bofur could only swallow hard for a moment as his mind tried to process what all Kili was asking of him. Finally ,as he took a deep breath to gather his composure, he was able to address  Kili with a very professional demeanor about him.

"Alright. If you can follow me to the back, I will get the measurements and specifics for your order." Bofur turned away and slowly directed Kili to follow him to the back room where he could show the young man the different materials he could fashion Kili's order from..all while a small portion of his mind was thinking maybe he would make a duplicate of Kili's form for his own personal use later on. "So what kind of wood are you looking for? There's a type of wood that is soft to the touch but it is cheap and will need to be replaced fairly often. Then I have another type of wood that with my special oil looks variegated  ,almost like it has stripes, which is a bit costly.  Now if your wanting something that will last you a long time ,unlike the others,and still retains its beauty ...which makes it very costly...it's well worth the price in my opinion, then I have a very special wood for you. It has this wonderful quality of warming up quickly to a bit above your own temperature...it's top of the line and some of my finest wood that I reserve...OH SHITE!" Bofur's voice spiked as he felt his foot make contact with the forgotten oil on the floor and he slipped upon it. With a horrible realization that he was going to hit the ground, he instantly curled his hands around his swollen stomach and braced himself for the impact that came...then he knew nothing as a shot of pain sparked through his head when it hit the ground and he passed out.

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                                                                *KILI'S POV*

Kili was fighting the urge to grab up the alluring dark haired man into his arms and kiss him senseless from the very moment he had stepped out from behind the curtains that shielded the back rooms from innocent eyes. That rich burred voice sent shock waves of desire that flowed down to pool in his loins and beckoned him to follow this captivating man towards the back rooms where he worked. Those stunning eyes that reminded Kili of raw jasper  with its greens and browns swirling perfectly, made his heart hunger to be able to gaze into them forever...all of Bofur left Kili breathless and yet he knew he had to hide it all from this man. As Kili followed in Bofur's wake towards the back room his mind was in a daze at the questions being thrown his way..leaving him bewildered in a state of overflowing emotions. It was this confusion that allowed what happened to Bofur to occur..it took Kili's brain seconds to process that Bofur slipped on some oil and fall. Kili tried to catch him but he reacted to slowly and Bofur hit the ground hard...his head bouncing off the stones with a loud thud. Kili swiftly dropped to his knees to check on his beloved but as his hands reached out towards him there was a loud horrified roar behind him that made Kili twist his head and see Bifur racing towards them. The moment the grizzled man was close he dropped to his knees to scoop up his comatose cousin into his arms as he hoarsely cried out words that floored and confused Kili beyond his imagination.

"Bofur! Oh Mahal...come on cousin, wake up!" no response from him and Bifur's eyes went wild looking, not seeing Kili standing there anymore. " I've gotta get you to Oin ..know. The baby...cousin...please ,Mahal, let  them be ok." with that fervent prayer , Bifur raced out of the shop...heading towards Oin's medical chambers...unknowing that Kili was steps behind him. Kili felt a deep pull to follow Bifur along ...not truly understanding what the wild eyed man was referring to.

~Baby? What baby is he talking about?~

So  many questions that needed to be answered and the only one who could was unconscious in Bifur's arms. Finally they made it to the healer's quarters in record time and yet Bofur still had not awoken  which concerned Kili greatly. Bifur rushed his way into the very chambers of the master healer...bellowing out in his fear for his cousin in his arms.

"OIN! HELP! It's an emergency Oin!"as Bifur blared out to the room the master healer Oin came hastening out of a side room to see what the commotion was and the moment he spotted Bofur laying limp in Bifur's arms, he moved quicker towards them...directing Bifur to lay Bofur upon a pallet in a private room. Oin didn't actually notice Kili was with them until he went to shut the door and there stood Kili in the doorway... softly closing the door behind him. Kili stared down the elderly healer...daring him to kick out one of the royal family..steel grey eyes met hard chocolate diamond, until finally those steel orbs cast downwards in defeat because his patient had a greater need  than trying to keep Kili out. Oin sighed loudly and quickly turned towards Bofur's still form to examine his head where a large bump resided. Kili watched as those large fingers gently felt along the lump with his heart pounding so rapidly out of fear for his beloved upon that pallet. Oin did not give anything away about his condition as he made noises in his throat...but when Oin lifted up Bofur's shirt Kili's heart nearly stopped at what he saw, for there was no question at all that Bofur was with child. Those brown eyes focused intensely upon that rounded stomach..watching as the elderly man gingerly felt around the area. Kili stood mesmerized at the sight as his mind kept swirling around...trying to process it all...his heart and mind doing battle with each other inside of him. Whatever Oin felt as he examined Bofur left him satisfied for he sighed with relief and smiled down at the man before turning to Bifur who stood next to his cousins bedside

"He's fine. Just a little knock on the head is all. I think he should be coming around soon enough." Bifur nodded his head, but then raised an eyebrow with a silent question that Oin was easily able to decipher. "Yes...they are fine also." hearing Oin's words jarred Kili out of his stupor that he had fallen into at the sight of Bofur's swollen belly.

"They?" Kili's raspy voice startled Bifur in realizing that Kili was there in the room and he took a step towards the prince but was stayed by Oin's shaking head at him. Kili's feet drew him closer to the bed until he could sit down next to Bofur...his eyes briefly caught Oin's nod at him. Slowly Kili reached out his hand and laid it tenderly upon Bofur's well defined bump...a feeling of peace and love settled inside of him...calming the struggle within as one emotion was affirmed the victor. As Kili gazed down at the asleep man , suddenly to everyone's surprise Bofur woke up and gasped at the sight of Kili sitting next to him with a hand over where his child rested safely inside. Bofur's hazel eyes peered nervously into Kili's chocolate browns...he began to worry his bottom lip with his teeth as Kili kept staring down at him with a soft look in his eyes that made Bofur's heart race. Slowly Kili took his hand off of the swell housing the creation of his love for Bofur and he reached up to stroke his lovers cheek which made the man gasp in surprise...Kili gave the older man his sweetest smile.

"Uhhmmm...Kili?" Bofur was confused by the young archers actions..then he became even more confused when Kili laid a finger upon his lips to silence the toy maker.

"Shhh...men kardunah." Bofur's eyes went wide at the endearing word Kili called him...my heart...and Bofur began to cry. Kili's eyes went wide at the sight of his love sobbing so hard upon the bed...hands covering his face as if to hide his tears. "What is wrong? Why are you crying?" Kili felt a uneasy chill inside that maybe Bofur was crying because he did not feel the same way as Kili did for him...he wanted to weep at the thought but held it inside his heart.

"You called me kardunah. Why would you do that? It can't be so." Kili realized it was the term he used that caused this but he held tight to the hope that maybe Bofur cared even a little for him. No one could have made love to someone like, Bofur did that night unless they felt something remotely close to love for the other person...so maybe there was hope..Kili had to hold onto that for now. Kili quickly took Bofur's hands ,that were covering his face, into his own and tugged them gently away to peer at the tear stained face he loved so much.

"Bofur...Bofur. Listen to me please. I need you to answer one question for me and please be honest." he begged as those watery jasper eyes looked at him with such turmoil that pained Kili to his core at seeing that look in his loves eyes...Bofur nodded as he stared at the young man. "Do you love me? I need to know Bofur...even in the slightest . Do you love me?" those hazel eyes went wide at the question...Kili's hands trembled as he rushed on , confessing and baring his heart for the man to see with hope and his love in his eyes. "For I love you and I always have." Kili held his breath...waiting for any response from Bofur who laid still as stone upon the bed...clearly in shock, but at least the tears stopped. As the seconds ticked by Kili felt dread worming its way into his heart that Bofur really did not feel that way at all about him and a tear welled up in his eye as all his hopes and dreams began to crash around him.

Bofur's eyes had glazed over in shock at the sound of those very words he had dreamed and prayed to hear for several years now...but the tear and the look of hopelessness  that suddenly made an appearance in Kili's eyes rattled him out of his shock. Bofur could see the anguish written upon the prince's face and he knew in that moment that Kili believed Bofur cared nothing for him. Bofur could not let that idea take root any more than it already had...it was time Kili knew the truth, no matter what happened afterwards...the man deserved that. Bofur released one of Kili's hands that still gripped his and raised it to cup his loves cheek...seeing that dark shadowed jaw tense briefly but those brown eyes never looked away.

"Kili....I honestly and truly...love you too." Bofur watched those chocolate orbs fill with life at the sound of those sweet words falling from Bofur's lips and his hand began to tremble as he confessed everything on a rushed breath. "I have loved you for the longest time...I've just been to scared to ever tell you. Your a prince...I'm a toy maker. What could I ever offer to someone as wonderful..as caring as beautiful as you? I gave up on ever being with you and then suddenly that night you came to me...asking for one night of pleasure. I knew I could never have you permanently, but for one night I could and tried to show you how much I loved you. That night with you was my deepest dream and if I had died then I would be the happiest man ever...because I had one night to love you." as Bofur spoke Kili's eyes filled with tears of joy and the smile he gave him that poured out of his very soul was brimming with all the love he had hidden inside till now. With trembling limbs Kili reached out to cradle Bofur up into his arms as he leaned down...their lips met in a kiss that conveyed all their love...everything they felt for each other in that moment. After a time filled with tender kisses , they parted to gaze lovingly at each other...eventually reality broke through as Bofur remembered that Kili was about to be married soon and his heart clenched in despair, knowing that this could only be a dream. "Kili?" his voice broke as he tried to keep from crying. "I'm sorry...I know I have to let you go." Kili gave him a confused look and Bofur had to avert his eyes. "You have a life that is waiting for you in the Blue Mountains." Bofur could feel his heart breaking as he tried to let Kili go from his arms...even though they admitted their love, it still made no difference,  Kili was destined to marry a princess not a toy maker. As he tried to loosen his arms from around the love of his life he halted when he heard Kili chuckle down at him and he glanced up to peer into his face...wondering what was so humorous.

"Well ,I guess,  that's to bad...for I'm never letting you go...Ever..Again. I realize I have spent my entire life trying to please others and live up to their expectations that not once did I take something for myself. I never asked for anything..I just gave. It's time for me to live my life for me, not them. Bofur, knowing you love me in return is all I really want...not the gold, not the fancy titles...just you forever. That is if you honestly want me in return...as I am, like this." looking into Kili's eyes Bofur knew his only choice ever...it was Kili, it had always been Kili. He knew wherever Kili went then his home would be there where there would be love and acceptance of everything he was. He knew by looking into those stunning warm brown eyes that Kili did not care if he was a bearer or if he was sterile...Bofur was all he wanted...having a womb was just a bonus. He understood in his heart that to Kili he was an equal not a piece of chattel to be used...but an honest to goodness equal...it was the answer to all his prayers. Bofur peered into Kili's eyes and let him see his heart shining out as he warmly spoke.

"I will always have you...forever...men kardunah. Men Kardunah Azamar (my heart forever)."