[Hey everyone, it's Parker. I'm just going to remind you guys that you are your own person. Do not people who give you any other feeling than happiness. You are on this planet for a limited time, and you deserve to be happy. I love you guys, and you can all come to me.]

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I trailed my eyes up to Brendon, who was giving quite a dirty look. Not one of the looks you get when you're walking through the mall with your shorts a little too short, or the look your mom gives you when you tell her you're moving out to go live with your drug addicted friend to try and make a stable life,

No, not those kind of looks. But the look a farmer would give a cow before brutally murdering it. Okay, bad example. What I'm trying to say was Brendon was staring me down like a hawk.

"Katie, is that your full name?" his voice was hushed and rushed through the room.

I stuttered a little bit, "Uh, no. My real first name is Katherine, it's weird. Spelled normal but pronounced like Kath-er-een. But I go by Katie because people always say it wrong, and I don't really like the name Kathy."

"Interesting," he said, remaining quiet. "Katherine David, what's your middle name?"

That question made me feel the blood rush to my cheeks, I looked down to avoid him noticing.

"Katie?" He asked putting his finger underneath my chin and tilting my head up towards him. "Don't be embarrassed."

"It's not that I'm embarrassed, it's just that I don't like it." I said, in all honesty.

"Well maybe I'll like it." He attempted to make me feel better.

"It's Ellis, Katherine Ellis David." I said looking down again. "But please just call me Katie, and Katie David if I get in trouble."

"Oh, you think you're going to get punished?" He smirked.

"I mean, if I do something incorrectly I deserve a punishment." I regretted saying that as soon as I said it.

"Let's talk about this, actually." He said, scooting his body a little bit closer.

He exhaled and thought about it for a minute, "With Sarah, you're really not going to be taken to an extent. You'll be fine with the tasks she gives you. I don't know if it's going to be the same way with me though. I want a lot from you Katie, I want all it takes. We need to talk about something as well, and I haven't ever told anyone about this. Except for my books, and a therapist, so please don't tell anyone. –

When we were in high school, I knew a girl named Alice. I think her whole name was like Alice Olpin or something fancy. She ended up in the hospital after a long time of us being friends, we were seventeen when she was in the hospital. It was really sad, we were really close. I had a humongous crush on her too. But I really fucked things up, I had sex with Juliet Cunningham between the portables and she found us. She never heard it through my perspective and how I felt. She just kept yelling at me, but I can't tell Sarah about this because after I did this. I hurt her, I hurt her real bad. I took her in the alleyways and suffocated her, she didn't die but I damaged her spinal cord. The school didn't have cameras and everyone saw me "leave the school" before so I was never suspected. I was interrogated though, and even taken up for a lie detector test. I passed it, it's just that I don't know where she is now. I think about her a lot too. I know I shouldn't. But it's not always good. It's been like five years, and I still hate her. She never even took a chance with me, she didn't even show me a good time. That's all I offered her. So I'm trying to treat Sarah like the queen she is. I haven't really met anyone I loved since her, y'know? She's a goddess and I am so lucky."

Brendon was crying and my jaw was dropped.

I couldn't really say anything, because I didn't have any words.

"W-would you like to hear a song I listen to when I'm sad?" I asked, feeling really dumb for asking.

"Yes, actually. That'd be real great."

I pulled out my phone and ignored all the messages from my group chat, and I pulled out YouTube. "You probably know this band actually. They're really popular, I just like this song for when I'm sad."

I started to play Mr. Brightside, by The Killers

Brendon laughed, "Really? The Killers?"

"Hell yeah! I love this song, it's my sad song." I looked at him and smiled, but it wasn't one of those smiles to make him feel better. It was actually a genuine smile, I'm happy today. Despite the fact that I sucked Brendon's wife's face and Brendon told me he almost murdered someone, it was a great day.

"You're hilarious Katie. Thank you for making me feel better."

I laughed, "Shut up Brendon, I'll restart the song and were gonna dance. Stand up."

He laughed, and I hit replay.

And we danced, and sang the song really loud.

I guess we were too loud because Sarah came in and asked if we were okay, but long story short she ended up dancing with us too. But Sarah's eyes weren't on Brendon, they were on me.