~~Simon's P.O.V~~
I went up to Harry, who was still talking to Lilly, even though he wasn't in her room and whispered to him 'Vikk wasn't cheating on Lilly, it was just to plan a date but needed help to make sure it was special, keep her occupied while I work magic.'
He smiled and nodded.

~~Lilly's P.O.V~~
I was slowly dying on the inside.
After building myself back up,
The scaffolding had fallen yet again

L- Brayden, again, how many times do I have to say I'm sorry? I wasn't using you! You were always best friend! Please!!

Brayden- Sure you weren't using me!

L- I wasn't! I wouldn't do that !

B- Oh whatever! You don't like me! I don't fit in!

'Hello????' No reply. Greeeaat.
I sighed. Fuck sake. Again Brayden!

"Lilly?" Harry knocked on my door again "Can I please come in??"

I thought about it. "Fine.." I unlocked the door, tear stained face.

"Lilly.." Harry pulled me into a hug. I cried into his shirt "I-I love him.."

"I know you do... I'm sorry... Do you want me to get you some food?" He asked.

I shook my head "I'm not hungry"

"Okay well, I'm going to make myself a sandwich or something, you should take a bath or a shower, promise me you won't try anything cra--" I cut him off. " calm down! I won't!"

"Please don't... It hurts me to see you hurt.."

"Yeah well I'm hurt now but I know what you mean.. I still need to record, you down for some fifa later?" I asked

"Yeah, sure. Also need to upload a video for laters."

"Okay well imma have a bath so move your toosh outta my room" I pushed him out of my room.

~~Vikk's P.O.V~~
Harry came down. "Uh Harry aren't you supposed to be keeping Lilly company??" I asked.

"Nah, she's having a bath."

"But!?--" I look at him
She can't handle this

"Dude, chill. Yeah, she promised she wouldn't.. I don't think she wants to let us down. Me and Simon, I mean. Or Josh, JJ, Tobi, Mitch or Ethan.. so yeah.."

It hurt. It really hurts. Knowing that she's so hurt and we could fix it but it'll be worth it if we wait? I hope they're right...

Harry had a peace of paper in his hand. "Harry, what's that?" I asked.
"Hm? Oh, its a note to give to Lilly after recording."

I sighed. I still wasn't sure about this..
"Oh yeah, if you're wondering I suggested her taking a bath. What? I mean if you're going on a date surely you're going to have a bath or shower, right?" Harry said.
I zoned out "Oh, yeah. Same."

"Very true." Simon butted in.

~~Lilly's P.O.V~~
I still couldn't get over this.. This is why you never really had boyfriends, they hurt you.. Why did you ever do this to yourself? Oh my god.. I'm so stupid to let something or someone make me feel so helpless...so..hurt.. God why?..

I'm sorry, I'm letting you down Harry. I grabbed the razor and sat up, hesitating
This is what you deserve
Think of Harry!
Someone broke your heart, you need to do this! Come on!
Okay okay! The thoughts have decided. I ran it along the left side of my stomach, blood trickled down. I done it a little harder, going over it deeper. I didn't want to 'let Harry down' by cutting. I can already imagine the hurt in his eyes and the change of his expression. Sorry Harry..

I put my clothes on and saw he was online. I still looked absolutely horrible, so I decided not to have facecam.

I put my headset on "Yo Harry, ready to record?"

"Yeah, hold on... okay, ready. And someone sounds somewhat happier..well done on faking it."

" I've had practice."

"He's not just 'some guy', don't you still love him?" Harry asked me.

"What do you think?" I asked with an attitude.

"Yeah sorry, ready to record?" Harry asked.

"Yeah.." I pressed record. "Hey guys so todddaaayyy." I mimicked.

"Really Lilly?" Harry asked.
. "Yup."
"Well, today we are doing a fifa foot draft who has the highest cem and rating wins."
"And the loser has to do the forfit. We've seen Miniminter, aka Simon do this with his mum, Fangs." Of course, the joke continues.

"Oh Harry. You're going to be soo freaking mad." I said, seeing my next player was 99 Rolando.
"Oh god... What did you get?"
I giggled. "Oh, no one that good. Not as good as I thought. I thought it mig
ht get my cem up a bit." I lied.
"Oh."

"How?! Hooow?! How did you win like hoooow?!?!" Harry shouted.
I giggled again "I have my ways."
"You must be cheating!!"
"Oi, nah! I'm not!"
"Fine then! I blame you EA. Fuck you."
"That's it for today guys, if you liked it and want more fifa with me kicking Harry's Ass, let me know see y'all next time and bye!" I ended the video and sighed.
he stayed quite

"What?" I asked.

"Never known someone to find it so easy to fake how happy you are. You're very strong."

"I have to be. And if I'm not well. nothing, really, I just have to...nothing else to it. I'll talk to you later Harry. Bye."
I turned my Xbox off, sitting quietly on my bed, looking into my lap.

Why the heck am I doing this?