So. I'm realising that not once have I had a crush on a guy. Or ever found one attractive, for that matter..

Except I've found a few guys cute before (only a few), but does that count??

I don't know I'm just confused if I even am bi now.

Here's the thing- when I imagine my future, sharing a bed with someone, cuddling on the sofa, cooking together, it's always with a woman. I can visualise a man if I force it but it kinda feels more platonic, and the thought of marrying a man feels kind of... I don't know how to say it, so I'm gonna go with the word beige?? It just feels not right, like I'd be marrying a friend and nothing more.

Now, non-binary people are a whole different story and I don't know if I can like them either. I think the evidence points to that I can, but not as often.