The German Oral exam is killing me. It's been giving me panic attacks for about the past two years whenever I've thought about it. Now it's in like a week. I'm trying so hard to prepare but whenever I do I just cry because it feels so overwhelming. I want to fall asleep and wake up two weeks from now, I don't care about whatever I'll miss.

I can't do this. I genuinely thought five years ago that I would be brave enough to do it by this point, but all that happened in the past five years is my anxiety getting even worse and I can't do it I can't do it I can't do it I can't do it this ten minutes has been hanging over me for five years and I should be relieved that it's almost over but I'm just so scared.

I'd honestly rather just not do it and not get the grade for it if I'm honest.