Today I had a panic attack in chemistry while I was sat at my desk and my chemistry teacher knows about my anxiety and she rubbed the back of her finger up and down the top half of my arm and I just cried harder and melted into it. Then I cried on and off all day because of the comfort it brought.

I never rethought I would ever be touch starved as I've always had plenty of hugs from my family, but now I'm no where near as close to my parents and though I love my little brother more than anything else in the world, when I touch him it's always just him curled up and I don't really feel his skin or his warmth because I'm tucking him into bed or carrying him somewhere so there's no comfort for me there.

Last week my friend hugged me really tight when I was anxious crying and it felt so good and so yeah I'm not exactly as touch starved as a lot of you are and so I don't understand how you guys deal with it lol.