CHAPTER 1

Bell is standing ,right in front of the edge of the top of the building of night time, she stands there in the edge,  trembling in fear, lots of anxiety affraid of fallling, but wants to commit suicide , after all the childhood trauma she’s been through , she tells herself , 

“saying, i shouldn't have been born,why is this happening to me,”

 tears flow slowly, “telling herself i deserved to die, my step mother hates me and my father too, i cannot bring honor to them after i gave them humiliation, i wish i was gone flying through the wind”. 

My step mother always slap me anytime she gets angry , she puts all her anger through myself as if i was her mirror reflecting her,she always forced me to excel in academics,  my father always told me that i shouldn't have been born and die with my mother, i was always the bad one here in the family , my step sisters are always top tier and look like a conglomerate with a high class to look up, my step mother even threatens me to die, because i'm just a rat leeching off the food .

“why am i like this?Asking herself, 

i always saw them having a party even without me , they were all laughing and enjoying their food , while I was getting home no one even greeted and i was just eating in my room alone , my step sisters were always put on a show always trying to be good , but they have no choice but to be kind to me , because of our blood and keeping the image of a perfect family.

 then i decided this, 

“I will leave this letter here and say goodbye to the world , and live a better life , a new life on the other side”.

As i was ready to jump , i heard a male voice saying,

“ I want to die too, but can you wait? It's not your time, get down from there , Oh jeez! Why are you up here? You're just a teenager, you should have best friends like having a party, doing karaoke , some fun stuff you know , but youre here dying?. What a ridiculous lady are you? Do you even know how your parents will be worried ?”. 

 “my parents didn't care for me , i said to him ,how would you feel,?”

The man said, 

“but i feel you , i care for you , i'm here too, you just didn't recognize , get down from there you little brat , 

Bell asked madly,

“Who do you call a little brat ? How old are you?”, 

“I’m 18 years old , your so loud here i was reading a book from there,  i heard you so come down ,” man said 

bell told him loudly,

“ i'm just 17 you should call me with respect i mean im younger you know ,”

 then bell got tripped , the man grabbed her hand and pull her back, then bell landed on his chest and told the man

“your chest is wide you know,”

then the boy got shock , and run away ,just like nothing happened,  then bell just  laugh , she said to herself, 

“what a coward boy”.

Then bell forgot her suicide activity and gets her suicide letter , and she directly came back home and was greeted by her sisters , and said , 

“Now your home ,can you clean my clothes , and panties for your beautiful and lovely own sister?”, 

My sister’s eyes were like red blood,  ready to attack , eyes were evil and glaring at me , then she throws her clothes at me,push me and she said, 

“What are you doing , faster , before our mother beats you up” 

I got all of her clothes , and picked some of them on the floor , i was on the bathroom , i cried there , everytime i wash the clothes , i ask myself , 

“Are we equal? Are all of us human?”

I held my head down everytime they walk all over me , then step me,and talk down to me each every time , i just wanna feel loved by them , is my step sisters even human? I wash, and soak , wash again their clothes whenever they want to , even they do not wear it, then i washed them all its done , i hang all of them , then i opened the dark its all dark, they turned of all of the lights nearby the bathroom , i switched on one light , in the kitchen , i searched for foods to eat because they didn't left me a single thing to eat as their sister and daughter or even as a human ,  i found a food in the refrigerator , i waited until the oven is done then the foods smell was good and then i sat on a chair , and ate all of them and was thankful for the food to eat, i lie on my bed , then waited till i can sleep , then slowly sleeping then closed my eyes  waiting for a better tomorrow.

The next day was a fresh day and still remembered what happened last night , then i saw that man who saves me last night riding a motorbike and was so loud, that it was annoying the whole school , i was so shock and wave a hand to him, the boy didn't recognize me, and waved his head like a cool hair, bell was feeling strange about him , then classes start, bell always sit on the 3rd row , and the boy is in grade 12 at which bell is grade 11, the school bell rang , bell immediately get her gift for the man and searched for him , giving her thanks for saving her from last night, then she found the man ,running to him in the hallway , out of breath , and bell said , 

“I was looking for you , can i talk to you for a sec, these I’m thankful to you that you helped me last night,”

The man felt weird and then said , 

“last night ?I was at my friend's house, don't be delusional , and I didn't help you, you're just an outcast of your family, why would I ever help you?”.

Bell then slapped the boy, and said,

 don't be so dramatic, i was just thankful to you, but you were this person, a ruthless kid, i pity you, do you even know my feelings and my life that you can easily  judged me, dont be a kid,” 

I walk away just like that , tears slowly falling , i cried at the rooftop of my school , i cried and cried , and shout to the school , 

“what a jerk ,” 

i look down on myself everytime this mess happens, everytime and everyday to everyone , then the classes end , it was 5pm , my stepmother is here picking me up, my step mother said , 

“be the best of your class, don't be weak , just like your mother , your just a concubines daughter , a illegitimate child only ,”

 I held my arm back thinking of many imaginings. How will I try to punish her, then we arrived, I went directly to my room , then I relaxed myself and kept thoughts on myself saying who was the manI met ? I meanboy? , they look so similar, they're just both jerks , then someone step in my room, and it was step mother. She pulled my hair, and went to the living room with my sisters at present there , and step mother said , 

“Did you take my necklace? , it was expensive , do you know how much was it?”,

 I glared at her eyes furious with anger at my sisters and said to them, 

“How do you know I stole your necklace? How would you know I stole them from you? , you're not even worth it , just who are you, you just leech off my fathers money, you didn't even raise your daughters properly, do you even know their secrets?”, 

Her step sisters pulled her hair, and the other one slapped her saying ,

 “don't be delusional , your not even the legitimate daughter, go back to your dirty fantasy as if you were not even born, just stay quiet” , 

father came in , the sisters pulled back my hair , and then stepmother said,

“ oh my, why are you here bell, my precious daughter, you should have respect me, honey[HUSBAND] ?, your daughter stole my necklace and she yelled at me, she doesn't tell me the truth honey?, 

father glared at me, and pull my arm and took me outside saying, 

“ go, go, your free here , don't ever come back and disgrace our family, your just a rat's daughter, once a rat always a rat”, 

then i yelled loudly , madly saying  , 

Then who are you supposed to be? Who are you to tell me that? Are you even my father? , and yes i will never be back glad you told so,”

 then i left, i ran and ran and cannot breath , tears were flowing then there  was a truck i stopped, i always wanted to end it all like this, i think it's time , the truck honk, there was a man who pushed her , and was on the road and the man was the 18 year old she met, the man said , 

“are you crazy? Why would you die?”, 

 The girl was shocked when she saw the man's face and slapped it, then she said , 

“Who are you, are you my stalker?” ,

 the man directly said 

“I’m a ghost , that can only touch you andy your the only one that can see me”, 

bell slapped him again and said to him 

“oh my” …………

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