Stupid.

Stupid, stupid, stupid idiot!

I pulled my cap down a little further and kept my head low as I scurried off the lift and towards the door. I was hating on myself, hard. Not believing that I had got myself into this kind of position.

I should have corrected him, told him that I was housekeeping. Not a masseuse.

But he knew your name, which means he read the name badge before you had even started.. He knew you were the wrong person.

So why didn't he wait?

Maybe he was desperate?

Maybe he saw an opportunity to play a game?

Well I was going to end it!

Knocking on the door, I waited and lifted my chin a little in defiance. Sure enough, the door opened and Zak smirked.

"Come in."

I stepped inside as he closed the door "You came then."

"You didn't leave me much of a choice." I bit.

"You wanted to come back, just admit it.."

"The hell I did, this could get me fired. I need this job! And just who the hell do you think you are?! Demanding me to come back here for what? Sex? I'm not a hooker or some naïve girl you can toy with!" I hiss.

He stands there, completely amused at my outburst.

"First off, you're a woman.. Secondly who said anything about sex?" He asked.

"Well you're not holding your back are you? So that has to be the only other thing you want from someone like me."

"Not conversation?" He asked.

"Don't play fucking games. I'm not here for that. Now.. Just tell me what you want so I can go."

He tweaked his head to the bedroom making my stomach sink. I debated on turning around and marching straight back out the door, but I needed this job. Not only that, but if I made a complaint or was caught leaving the hotel on my day off, from a guests room. There would be red flags and I wouldn't have a chance to defend my case before I'm thrown out.

I was well and truly screwed. But I knew that consciously the moment I entered the hotel.

My feet slowly moved towards the bedroom as the idea of sleeping with a man to maintain my job settled in my gut. I was nothing more than a prostitute...

The presence of Zak behind me, kept my feet shuffling until I stopped looking at the bed. Zak shifted past me and sat on the bed watching me with a tilted head.

"Don't look so worried."

"I- I don't normally do this. Actually I've never done this. I don't sleep with guests."

He nods his head "I understand."

"So I think I should be allowed to be nervous."

His fingers lifted up the do not disturb sign and held it out. "Better put it on the door."

My anger was twisting inside of me, into something more dark and sinister. Snatching the sign off him, I marched to the door and opened it, slipping it over the handle before slamming it.

"Easy." He called making my fists clench.

Just breathe. You don't have do to anything. So what if you lose your job!

But I need it.

Not this bad!

I returned to see Zak removing his shoes and setting them aside. "Take off your coat and shoes."

I refused until his brow lifted at my defiance and I pulled them off, I kept my coat in my hands. Hoping that I could stop them from shaking if I held onto something.

Zak rose off the bed and moved towards me, making me back up until my back touched the wall.

With my heart pounding in my chest, I debated my decisions. Go with it or Lose my job?

His hands lifted my face up.

"Willa..."

Decide?! Decide now!

"You're shaking.. I won't hurt you."

I swallowed the lump in my throat as he let his hands fall over my arms and remove my coat from my clenched hands.

"I can't do this..." I whispered up at him. "I- I'm sorry. I can't. I can't-"

A knock at the door made me gasp and stiffen.

Zak looked to the door and down to me. "Stay quiet.."

I nodded almost telling him that he didn't need to tell me that!

He answered the door as I hid in his room, praying on a miracle that nobody entered that worked here. Although it might not be a bad thing. But I couldn't lie, it would be obvious as to why I was here...

The door closed.

"You can stop hiding now." He called.

"I can't do this." I replied grabbing my coat from the edge of the bed and tugging it on quietly.

"Can't do what?"

"This! Sex! With you!" I snapped trying to push my foot into my shoe.

His laugh made me stop instantly. "Willa, chill out. I asked you around for a reason."

"Yeah! For sex and I ca-"

"Not for sex, Jesus, I'm not a monster."
He appeared holding two brown bags "But for some dinner."

"What?" I asked confused.

"For dinner. You know that eating thing people normally do in the evening?"

I looked at him bewildered as he set the bags down on the table and began removing food. Chinese food in fact.

"Chinese is okay right? I got all different kinds of meals incase you didn't like what I ordered. I have curry sauce and chicken balls, egg fried rice, chow mein, shredded duck, duck in orange sauce, king prawn chop suey and a whole bunch of other shit."

"Dinner." I repeated.

"Yeah."

"Not sex?"

"No."

"Well why not?" I asked completely confused at this. I didn't understand his plan, or his game, now I was out of my depth.

"Because it's kinda rapey, come here so I can blackmail you into having sex with me. Seriously? I just wanted to eat dinner with someone. That someone being a woman because I'm fed up with male interaction and just want to soft tones of a woman's voice. You came here yesterday and sorted by back out, whether you knew what you were doing or not. I just wanted to thank you.." he explained.

"Oh."

"Yeah. Now stop thinking of me naked and get over here to chose what you want."

I shuffled across the room and picked out the chicken chow mein. "Thank you." I mumbled.

"I get it didn't look good. When I asked you to take off your coat and shoes but I thought you might of relaxed a little not almost climbed the walls to get away. I'm not that bad, am I?"

I shook my head and accepted the chop sticks.

My next challenge.. Eating with these.

We took a seat on the opposite ends of the bed, I was sat at the foot whilst Zak was sat against the headboard with his legs out in front of him.

"You really thought we were going to have sex?" He asked amused.

"Well yeah, dinner was the last thing on my mind."

He chuckled "I could tell that. I would have taken you out for the food but fans won't let me eat in peace."

I looked up at him "Is it hard? Living that kind of life style?"

He nodded as he finished his mouthful. "Some times. Other times I love it. But there are moments that I long to be normal."

"You are normal." I frowned.

"I'm glad you think I am.. A lot of women don't see past the TV title."

"Well then they aren't worth knowing." I answered.

He smiled "I guess not... It's just sometimes I want to forget it all. Forget the world and just bare my soul without complications."

We ate in silence for a little while longer "Would you have done it?" Zak asked.

I knew he meant slept with him.

"As disgusting as I'm about to sound, I really need this job. But I wouldn't have done it... I said I couldn't earlier."

"So why did you show up?"

"Because I need my job, I wanted to play you at your own game. And let's face it... You're an absolute stud. Things could be a lot worse."

"And if I asked now?" He questioned.

"Are you?" I queried.

He looked at his food, stabbing at it with his chopsticks. "No, because that would make me a bad person and you'd think all of this was a lie. I didn't intentionally ask you around for sex."

I nodded and placed my food aside, my appetite was long gone as the conversations had turned. I stood up "I should go."

"What? I- Willa I'm not saying that's what I want. I really only wanted to have dinner and-"

"I know. I've finished. Thank you." I left the room and closed the door behind me. Taking a breath and counting to 5 before knocking on the door.

A few seconds later he opened the door holding my coat and shoes. "You forgo-"

"Are you Zak Bagans?"

"What? You kn-"

"Just answer the question idiot!" I hissed quietly.

"Uh yeah?"

"Good." I smiled shoving him back and kicking the door closed behind me.

"Okay, I'm at a loss." He frowned.

I removed my shoes and coat from his hands and dropped them to the floor before pulling him down to my height. I smashed my lips against his making him grunt at the pain of our teeth colliding.

He pulled back.

"Willa-"

"You won't ask me for it.. But what if I ask you?" I question playing with his shirt button.

"Ask me what?"

I looked up at him and threw all my mind out the window, I decided to use his words. "Will you help me forget the world? Let go of all the complications and just be with me? No outside world, no clothes, just you and me?"

"Are you propositioning me for sex?" He asked completely amused.

"I saw your erection yesterday.. I'd be a liar if I said I haven't thought about it."

That caused his eyes to darken. His jaw tightened.

"I'm not a gentleman."

"You bought me dinner." I pointed out as he came closer making me smile as my back touched the door.

"When I lose control, I'm more of an animal."

"I like it rough."

"How rough?"

"Why don't you find out?" I challenge.

"I don't want to be rough with you.." He admits kissing my lips.

"Then don't be. For the first time, but the second time? I want your hand around my throat, I want you spanking my ass and denying me any rights to a release."

He groaned against my neck.

"So what do you say? Will you sleep with me?" I breathe tugging on his hair as he nips my throat.

"Take off those fucking close now." He growls.

A surge of excitement floods my body and just before I remove my clothes, I'm reminded at what my boss Alison said.

Anything they want, you give it to them..

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