[ilove_joon]

Namjoon's POV

Here we go again.

I'm always getting panicked when it comes to situations that concern how I feel with Seokjin, but this sort of thing goes away instantly the moment I see his face. It's the fact that he calms me down that drives me to go to him in the first place. But the stress and anxiety has never been as strong as it is now. It's okay. For me, he's worth it.

And now I find myself in front of his door, very full of nerves, but also very excited. I'm going to be spending a whole night with him! That is, if he says yes.

I'm so excited that I've almost forgotten that everyone will be there. And that they'll all be watching. Prom will be the last important event that they'll all remember from their high school experience.

But then I remember that I'll remember it too, so if it means I'll keep the best possible memory of this mostly shitty year, I think I can take that chance.

I adjust my tie once more before knocking. When the most beautiful man in the world answers it, I feel my whole face turn beet red.

Jin gives me a small smile and my legs turn to jelly. I decide that if I look at him for even one more second I'll pass out, so I immediately find interest in my shoes, which I took about half an hour to shine. My hard work had paid off indefinitely.

"I'm off to pick up Youngjae," Hoseok says, walking out their door.

I forgot he lived with Jin and suddenly I'm feeling an immense amount of pressure that he'll beat me up or something for coming into his territory.

But to my surprise, he merely takes a quick glance at me and rushes past us.

"More like pick up your husband," giggles Jin.

I see him flinch in the middle of his fast-paced walk towards his car and then continue again almost as if it hadn't happened.

I'm forced to forget about it when I turn back to Jin, who is looking at me with expectant eyes.

Right, I think, The real reason I'm here.

I was too much of a pussy to physically ask him to prom. I've been getting to it all week but I always got too nervous or scared and made all the perfect opportunities I had into dumb excuses. Until yesterday, which was when I got closest to asking him, but instead turned it into an offer to just give him a ride instead.

The one and only thing I hate about his face is the fact that his handsome features hide his emotions. I can never really tell what he's thinking.

We just stand here on his porch awkwardly and I think, Damn. This is it. No going chicketshit this time.

He might reject me, but like I told the guys, I'm still his ride. I pray that he won't, in hopes that this won't get more uncomfortable than it has to be.

"Joon, are you going to ask me to prom or what?"

Jin's voice catches me off guard and I finally look up at his face once again. I can see my own flustered face in the reflection of his eyes.

"I-Uh— Yeah. I was trying to think about how I'd get there, exactly," I laugh shyly.

I'm turning into a stuttering mess, but Jin merely smiles with patience. And once more his power calms me down.

"I'm sorry I've been so scared and me asking you won't be anything special, but," I grab his hands, "Kim Seokjin, will you pretty please, with worldwide handsome visuals on top, go to prom with me?" I finally say.

Where did I get all these cheesy words? I say the stupidest things when I'm nervous.

Jin starts laughing and squeezes my hands. He leans closer to me before saying a quiet "No..."

My insides deflate. I feel like I've just been crushed by a boulder. I should've never—

"...way am I going to refuse you!! No way! Why were you so scared to ask me? Of course I'll go with you, God dammit!"

I immediately feel the involuntary tears roll down my cheeks as I laugh obnoxiously loud. That's my Jin. He got me.

"Oh my God, don't do that! You scared me shitless!" I laugh in relief. He engulfs me in a surprise hug and my laughter dies away.

We stand there, just hugging, and I feel so safe, so comfortable, so loved in this warmth.

"You know, you're the best thing that's happened to me this year... No, scratch that. The best thing that's happened to me in my life," Jin whispers in a soothing voice, placing his head on my shoulder. His scent drives me wild.

"Same here..." I whisper back.

I feel him tug on my back a little harder.

"I think.. I think I've fallen in love with you," Jin whispers one last time, before letting go of me and taking my keys from my pocket.

He walks towards my car in silence but I'm paralyzed. I'm the more flustered than I've ever been. I'm redder than I've ever been. But most of all, I'm the happiest I've ever been too.

I run after him, who is already sitting in the passenger seat. I quickly get into the car next to him and allow my heart to stop racing.

He hands me the keys and when he does, I take the opportunity to grab his hands for the second time tonight, forcing him to look at me.

"Listen, hyung, about what you said earlier..." his eyes widen. He wasn't expecting this.

"I just wanted to say... same here."

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