[ilove_joon]

Jackson's POV

As soon as the door closes behind me, I run.

Far away from Jimin and Yoongi. Far away from the very thing that caused me pain. Far away from Jimin's betrayal to me and the Straights. Far away from what made me pissed.

I run and I run. Not so sure where I'm going. I finally stop when I'm off of school grounds, in the parking lot, in front of my car. I don't care that I'm ditching. I need some time to think.

After getting in and slamming the door closed, I bang my fists against the steering wheel aggressively. I'm infuriated with Jimin.

Here I was, worried, thinking Jimin was actually hurt, but he lied to hook up with that no-good son of a bitch! I know he broke up with Rosé, but I didn't expect him to get with anyone else so soon! Especially not a gay.

I punch the steering wheel as my innermost thoughts finally pour out.

DAMN IT, JIMIN?! No matter how hard I try to set you up with a girl, you just can't help but screw it up. You just had to go running to that gay Yoongi guy. Why are you so stubborn?! I'm doing this for our friendship! Am I just a joke to you?!

I bang my head backwards into my seat, tearing my fingers through my hair like a madman. Fat tears roll down my cheeks as my mind unveils the truth.

I'm fucking crying over Park Jimin.

Jimin, why?! Why can't you see?! I try to get you straight so I can see you happy with a girl. I don't want you near any men!

At least then, with a girl, it's not so painful for me. At least then, I'm comfortable with you in a relationship. At least then, I can love you without getting caught.

Jimin! Why don't you see? I've been questioning myself since middle school because of you and now I know.

I'm fucking gay for you.

Park Jimin, I love you! And it's all your goddamn fault!

I wipe my tears and gain composure. This is stupid. I'm such a pussy for crying like a fool. I'm the image of the Straights, for God's sake! Jimin can never know how I really feel.

This is why I hate the LGs... They're free to be gay and happy, but they're just stupid. I have a reputation to maintain. I don't have time for these dumbass gay happy endings. There are plenty of girls ready to bend over as I shove my dick into them faster than they can say "Daddy".

So why am I worrying about someone like Jimin? Why am I friends with a twink? Why do I still care so much about what happens in his romantic life?

Oh, right. It's because he's my best friend. And I love him. More than he could ever know.

Even though I know that he'll never love me back.

With this, I exit my car, heading back towards the gym. All the hate and anger I had from hurting now directed on the LGs.

There is just one LG in particular who I've always hated for influencing Jimin: Jung Hoseok. I fucking hate him the most. All my anger is now to him. It's his fault Jimin was with Yoongi at the moment! He introduced them, brought them together, it's his fault Jimin lost interest in Rosé!

The things I'll do to his dumb smiling face when I see him—

"Well, well, well. Jackson Wang," the voice is painfully familiar.

It belongs to him. Jung Hoseok. The one I'm mad at the most in this moment.

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