Here I am.
I kinda knew this day would come, but I just imagined it a bit different.
Probably without these handcuffs on me.

Nah, to be honest: it was actually obvious i'll get those one day.

"Miss Adams?" , I heard a male voice, not so far away. A middle-aged policeman showed up.
"You can go home now.", The kinda nice looking policeman stepped closer, so he was finally able to take my Handcuffs off.

didn't need them Anyways. They wouldn't stop me from just run out of this if I wanted to.

"I guess you and this mister here have a lot to talk about."
He sat in front of me to put those things off and I could see someone right  behind him. My Brother Kendrick, who, by the way, didn't look kinda nice at the moment. In other words: he seemed angry.

Goodbye beautiful world, I used to love you really much!
Kendrick denied any eye contact which turned out to be pretty good because I'm totally sure his look would kill me. I mean if looks can kill. Sometimes they do, trust me.
"Thank you," I mumbled as the police officer finally took the handcuffs completely off.
The officer just smiled at me and nodded sadly. Then he let out a deep breath as if he was disappointed by me. Excuse me you don't even know me, Mister. I mean Obvi.
„I'm sorry.", he said and weirdly smiled/ not smiled at Kendrick and tapped his shoulder before he left.
He and Kendrick had spent a pretty long time now talking about what I've done. They must've become bros or anything.
Kendrick did nothing. Oh hell, he was mad.

I slowly stood up and cleaned my throat. I tried to look at him but he was directly looking at the wall, running his finger through his light brown hair.
„What do we gonna eat today?", I smiled, trying to make the situation a little bit more comfortable for both of us.

Kendrick was my older brother. I might have already said this.
My mother died when I was 7 and since then, a lot of things changed.
We once lived in California. Me, Her, my Dad and Kendrick.  But after she was gone, there was only me, Kendrick and my dad. He decided to move to Canada with us. God knows why.

Let's just say, some extremely fucked up shit happened and Kendrick became everything I had. As soon as he turned eighteen we moved into a little apartment, and he took me with him. He got me out of this hell we used to live in.  I guess he always had to be like my dad, my brother, and my Mother at once. And I couldn't thank him more. But I guess all things have their end, right?

And so I met the west side. Chase, the main Leader got me into it. Now, since I am 14 to make it clear, they are my family.

First, we were a small group, but we became more and I got older. Now we are a real Gang in Vancouver. Number 1 of this city. Our only Enemy Gang was the Southside. The Boys sometimes made Street fights to get some money but this wasn't really the main Business.

The Southside is trying to get our place. To become Number 1.

But still, our gang is number one! And I became the second Leader of it. Leader number 1 was obviously Chase.
Now I'm seventeen and actually never really spend time at home.

Today we had another Gag. The Plan was simple, so Said Chase. I knew it would go wrong. The deal with the south side was totally dumb. If it was made by me, I would've made it way safer. But Chase doesn't really think a lot when it comes to the South Side.

Whoever steals the Money The Northside (please just don't ask me why they are so uncreative and call their Gang after sides. I mean you could simply say „the Unfightable ones" aka the Northside or „the Idiots." aka us at the moment) got in their last fight wins. Dumb I know. Anyways we did it and guess who got caught? Right only Me.

I sat in the bag of our car because I got the money. The police usually never get us so we thought it would be safe but Nah. The police car crashed right into my side I might have passed out for a moment but I'm fine.

I'm still underaged and luckily I had the idea to tell the police that the 10.000$, weren't really mine. I acted innocent and dumb like everyone always told me to in case of a situation like this. I told them that I thought it was a safe bet, my 'Friends' made. Of course, I told the police wrong Names and was sO ShOoK when I found out my 'Friends' played me and lied. I mean I didn't know what was going on I just had to take the money right?

A few tears and BOOM! I'm the victim.

Anyways Obviously anyone could escape except me. And as if this WOULDNT be awkward enough, I lost the money of course. 10.000$ for Nothing. I got the bag and the police got me.

They called Kendrick to pay the caution and to get me. And now, we're here. I honestly don't know if he completely knows about all this gang stuff. But I guess he does a bit. At least he thinks so. I mean of course, does he know that I'm not a lot home lately. And it isn't like I got caught the first time. But I usually always get out of it by myself. But you usually don't have 10.000$ with you. Sometimes. No, you don't. Shut up.
This time we actually didn't think the police would come after us. I mean, it's a gang. Doesn't mean this, that they fear the police too? Yeah for sure. But sadly the Neighbors don't fear the police. They fear us and as they saw how we broke into the North's Sides house and stole something, they called the police as every normal damn human would. I'm pretty sure they wouldn't if someone of the west side wouldn't have fired a fucking shotgun after us.

„Seriously Summer?" Kendrick Lift an eyebrow and looked at me disappointed. I just smiled at him, trying to act like everything's fine. „What? I'm hungry."

My Idea Of making the situation more comfortable by changing the subject has totally failed.
Kendrick let out a deep breath and looked around. There wasn't much going on right now in the police office. It's 3 AM and most officers are only caring about getting their coffee and swearing about their job.
„We will talk outside." Kendrick didn't even bother to look at me and walked outside. I still didn't know what we gonna eat but anyways.

I followed him out in the cold Night Air. Above us, the stars were shining brighter than any city light. It was a Beautiful Night actually. If there wasn't my angry brother Right in front of me.

The police officer wasn't really big. this part of Vancouver,  that was actually so innocent, really didn't need more than one office. Most Persons Here don't have any bigger Problem than choosing their lipstick for a beautiful Date while we were using this silence. How I already said we didn't get caught very often and the rest of Rackley never did something wrong what means the officers don't have a lot to do.
He literally ran outside through the big old brown doors, down the stairs to the parking lots when he finally stopped. I did the same.

„What the hell were you thinking Summer?!", he stopped and screamed at me while he ran his finger again through his lighten Hair. He always did this when he was confused.
But before I could answer, he continued screaming. „Do you think it's great to get a call from the Police in the middle of The Night?! Hell Summer, No! Look at me, I'm still in my Pyjama! Do you think that's just for fun? Kate is still asleep she gonna be very happy when she wakes up." just now I realized he was still wearing his Grey jogging pants and a black T-shirt he always wears when he's sleeping.

Kate was Kendricks oh so well Girlfriend. I have nothing to say against her, she was beautiful and very nice. Not that Kendrick wouldn't know this. I mean, since she walked in his life, he barely sees or cares about something else.

Since they want to marry, Kendrick and her life in their own little paradise.

„Oh yeah, Kate." , I mumbled and rolled my eyes. „What the heck were you thinking?! Do you think that's „cool" or something?"
The Typical Summer Night was cold. Way too cold for a short dress and high heels. „What... What are you even wearing?!"
He looked me up and down. I opened my mouth to give an Answer but he luckily ignored me. The plan was to act like drunk party teenagers in case someone would wonder why we were outside at 3 AM, racing a car. Well, I didn't end up well.

„You know what? I don't even wanna know." His Hand found his Hand to his forehead as he shook his head again.

„I'm...sorry.", I lied and played with one curl of my hair.

„You're sorry. Sure.", he laughed but he didn't really seem amused, more disappointed. „I don't know if you think this was right, but whatever you did... you messed up summer."

I let out a quiet laugh and shook my head. „I messed up? Don't act like you don't know, I messed up loooooong ago." , I giggled, didn't even took him seriously.

„You did summer. Yes, you did and I freaking know this and I don't know what made you do that but... but you really need to stop." His little blue Smart was the only Car standing anywhere. Everyone's asleep probably.
„Can't stop won't stop moviiiing.", I sang and moved my hips. He sighed.

„Come on Kendrick I'm just trying to do fun.", I laughed. But Kendrick didn't anything but closed his eyes, trying not to freak out. „I really don't know what's your problem. I mean yeah it was wrong Bla bla bla. Nothing happened. You paid and I'm here I don't even need to do any work." , I stepped closer to him but he still didn't say a word. This time he was REALLY mad.

„You don't get it Summer!", he started to scream. I jumped a little backward and again, he ran his finger through his hair. He totally looked like my dad. This Light brown Hair and those big brown eyes. This 3-Days Beard. He's a way better person than him tho.

„You almost got in Prison! If they didn't call me if you were older and I couldn't pay you were already in prison. This isn't a game Summer." his voice got tired and I'm pretty sure he was too. „just tell me why you did this...please.", he said softly. I could swear to see something in his eyes... I didn't in a long time.

„I...i don't know," I muttered. I didn't know to be honest. And for the first time, I really had no answer. No lie. I just couldn't lie at him.
"Yeah I thought you would say this.", he said quietly and looked at the ground. I've done the same.

An awkward silence broke out between us. A few minutes we just stood there and did literally nothing but stared at the ground. "You know the only sad thing is...", Kendrick broke the silence. "If you only knew... you would at least know what you have done." Again he looked at me disappointed but this time there wasn't only this look in his eyes.
There were...tears? Oh please, why is he crying?

"What? What do you mean?" I came a little near him just to see him heartbroken. It wasn't only the fact that I did something bad, there was more. He took a deep breath and threw his head in his Neck.
"You can't stay with us anymore Summ"
This sentence crashed in like a bomb.

"What?"
"They... ugh damn it. They said you couldn't live with us anymore.. with me. This isn't really something normal for a Seventeen-year-old girl, you know. They said I have no way to deal with a criminal. And not enough money. I almost failed to pay your caution to get you free. I and Kate only live in a small apartment and don't get enough money and no social ways.. were too young to take care of a teenager like you. We are creating our own little family right now and they said it wouldn't be good for anybody if you stayed. You need to find a Family who can take care of you and understand you. Not a 25 years old poor Guy like me who has enough problems in his own life. If Kate really gets Pregnant one day, she'll be not able to work anymore. We have to deal with our own problems and even if I wanted to stay with you... and I really do, there's no way they allow it.", the words escaped his mouth like water through a waterfall and I couldn't believe a single word he said. I just stood there in shook. My heart was breaking with every word he said and trust me I could punch someone in their face right now. No matter who.

"You... you are kidding right?", I slightly asked, feared. I wasn't even able to think at this moment. "Please tell me this is a Joke." Another tear rolled down his nose while I blinked mine away. I never cried in public. It was something like... an unwritten rule.

"I wish it was.", he smiled through his tears and blinked them away too. "They can't do that!" , I screamed. "They can And they will."

"But! But you have done everything I mean you are a great Brother! You can do that!" Clouds we're hiding the stars and even made the Night seem even Darker. I don't know if it's just me but it seemed colder too.

"I'm going to punch them." I was ready to run into the office, but Kendrick held my arm. "Don't." He was too tired to do anything. I only stood a few centimeters away from him. "Please don't let them do this Kendrick." I teared up and looked him deep in the eyes. His usual Brown eyes seemed darker this night.
I tried to find hope in them, but hopeless. He looked at me like he already gave up.

"What am I supposed to do?" Again he smiled a little and shook his head amused. "Maybe their right if I would be a great Brother none of this would have happened.", he said totally dry.

I could feel hot water running down my cheeks. I couldn't believe a thing he said. I loved him and I loved this town. Even tho I know I messed up. Maybe I deserved it, but he didn't.

I bite my Teeth and stared at him in shook. We stayed like that a few moments when he finally moved first. "We gotta go now. I need to sleep a little."

As if he wouldn't care he started walking to his car. He left me in the cold night without even looking back. Of course he was mad but only now I understood.

He wasn't giving up on trying to hold me.

He gave up on me trying to stay.