"you ain't seen the half of it" he smiled, as he walked over to the kitchen

"Yo so are you guys like a couple?" Mikey chipped in

"Mikey stay out of it!" Gerard said punching him in the arm

"OUCH!" Mikey shouted punching him back

I just leaned against the door frame and laughed at the two of them rolling about the kitchen floor

"You two get up" I giggled

"Sorry, that wasn't a good impression" Mikey flushed red

"Pick your poison" Gerard said opening the fridge and drinks cabinet

"I'll just have a monster" I said walking over to the kitchen island, he slid a can of monster down the island and grabbed himself a beer.

"Ugh hello, not gonna offer your bro a drink?" Mikey huffed

"What do you want ?" Gerard asked looking pissed

"Water" Mikey replied

"You couldn't get yourself a fucking water???" Gerard raised his voice

"I got you and the girl coffee earlier!" Mikey shouted back

" 'The girl' has a name you fucker" Gerard yelled

I felt my head reel.
My breath hitched in my throat.
I could feel my hand shake.
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
The sound of the boys shouting got louder and muffled.
My sight went blurry.
I felt tears roll down my cheek.

"Gerard shut up, she's crying" Mikey softened his voice

"Oh my god (y/n) I'm sorry " he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his chest

"I'm here, everything is fine, nothing matters" he cooed and rubbed circles on my back

I regained my composure

"I'm sorry you had to see that Mikey, you too Gee, the shouting just made me think of my mom and dad fighting and my stepdad fighting with me" I said wiping the tears from my eyes

"I caused you a panic attack (y/n) that's not cool, I'm really sorry" he looked annoyed at himself

"It's ok I swear, let's just forget about it and watch a film" I smile taking my can and walking over to the battered black leather couch

"I'm sorry too" Mikey said giving me an awkward hug

"Thank you Mikey" I hugged him back

Gerard pulled a blanket over me and switched on the TV, he flicked on Netflix and turned on Brooklyn 99

We sat cuddled on the couch for hours, Mikey sat on the floor and played with Esme.

"I really like you (y/n)" Gerard whispered in my ear

"I really like you too Gee" I smiled and rested my head on his shoulder

"Awwww" Mikey looked up from the floor and grinned

As we sat watching television and talking utter bullshit I felt more and more comfortable and safe with them.

Gerard played with my hair and traced lines on my hands and back making me sleepy.

I pulled my phone out of my shorts
5 missed calls
8 texts
1 missed video chat
2 voicemails

I clicked on the voicemails the first was from mom

"Hi honey, where are you? I hope you are safe, if you are at a friend's house that's ok just text me where you are, Kurt said he misses you. Love you sweetheart" I smiled and punched out a text telling her where I was.

"Where the fuck are you, your mother is worried sick, you better not be drinking aga-" I could stand Zack's voice, I hung it up before I could hear the rest of the voicemail.

"You ok?" Gerard asked pulling me into his warm chest

"Yeah I'm great Gee" I smiled softly and cuddled into his chest

"Guys it's getting late, I'm gonna get some rest, sorry for earlier" Mikey smiled as he picked up the kitten and rested her on his shoulder

"It's alright, I was being a dick, night Mikers" Gerard smiled back

"Night Mikey" I gave a little wave

"Night (y/n) we should hang out sometime, properly" he replied

"Yeah defo" I said back

"Night!" He shouted peeking his head round the doorframe of his room

I snuggled my head into Gerard's chest and let out a little yawn

"You tired?" He giggled cupping my cheek

"Yeah pretty tired" I said looking into his hazel eyes flecked with gold

"Let's get you rested then" He said grabbing my hand and leading me towards what I presume was his room

He pushed open the door to a white suburban tomb, the walls decorated with posters, newspaper articles, doodles, picture frames, his floor cluttered with sketchbooks, comics and scrunched up paper balls.

In the right corner of the room there was a bed, neatly made with throw pillows, blankets and everything.

"Wow your bed is much more neat than the rest of the room" I laugh

"Hey, it's a creative mess, it's abstract" he snorts, picking up a pair of boxers and flushing red

"It's cool" I laugh as he chucks the underwear in a laundry basket in the other corner of the room

"Anyway..." He says rummaging through a chest or drawers

"Here!" He hands me a pair of grey joggers and a faded Smashing pumpkins tee

"Huh?" I say taking them from his arms

"For you too sleep in goofball" he chuckles

"Oh right, thank you" I blush

"I'll give you privacy to change, m'lady" he closes the door behind him

I pull his hoodie over my head, then my shirt, I kick off my sneakers and slide out of my shorts, I look in the long mirror of his room, my pale pudgy stomach, my small but perky boobs, my kinda thicc thighs, my bruises and scars.

I'm beautiful

I think to myself as I admire my half naked self in the mirror, I pull on the joggers and the shirt and smile, the smell of sweat, chips and coffee lingers on it.

I jump onto his bed and feel my body sink into the mattress, the sheet's soft against my skin. I roll over on to my side and rest my head on a pillow that smelt like him.

I heard a knock at the door
"Are you decent?" I heard Gerard say from the other side
"Yeah" I reply

He opens the door and smiles widely, he quickly closes the door behind him.

"You look... beautiful" he says gazing into my eyes

"It's cause I'm in your clothes" I giggle before sitting next to him at the bottom of the bed

"Well either way, you are gorgeous" he kisses my cheek quickly

"Thank you Gee, I'm really tired" I say crawling back under the covers

"Ok, you want some music on, fairy lights?" He asks tucking me into the sheets

"Both would be nice" I say softly

He flicks on a string of fairy lights above his bed and sticks on a Nirvana CD, he even lights a little cinnamon scented candle

"Night night kid" he says kissing my forehead, before getting up and opening the door to leave

"Stay"

He turns around.

Tehe slight cliffhanger...
Hope you all enjoy
Stay safe
Eat your veggies
Drink your liquids
Love Y'all
Ava xo